I didn't live in Elk Grove until 2008. I really liked it there, but then the separation...
I worked in Itasca starting in 2001, a little north of the Walgreens at Irving Pk and Prospect. Would have liked to meet you, kinda have a weak spot for f'ing crazy, lol.
Well... it's about time to wrap this weekend up and start fresh tomorrow. I did not fast like I had planned, but I did eat better than I did all weekend (eggs) and I ate a hotdog, I don't even know why I bought those damn things in the first place, but it was the last one in the package and they were at least Hebrew National so it's better than some brands. That's all. I'm so tired. It has been a really long, odd, difficult couple of weeks, but I am getting through and am excited for all of the great things I have planned for my life. Beating my body up with crap food, alcohol, and worst of all cigarettes just feels wrong now. Of course I will have the occasional non-primal treat and a glass of wine or a beer now and then, but I think some things are just behind me now. I don't have the issue of wanting to smoke until I have a drink so alcohol may have to get nixed for a while too. I already had planned to meet my friend for dinner and a couple of drinks on Tuesday so that may be the last drink for a while I guess it depends on how strong my urge to smoke is. Luckily she is a non-smoker so I won't have the option I am also getting back on the fitness train this week! At the very least I am doing my squats, push ups, and some walking!
Don't beat yourself up too bad over the weekend slip. It happens! Sounds like you have a good plan and are focusing on carrying it out - be strong! It took me a while to cut out the smokes when I quit but it does get easier. I don't think the craving ever goes fully away - almost 5 years since my last one and still I find sometimes I get the odd random craving but it lasts a few seconds and then it's gone again. 99.9% of the time I don't even miss the damn things!
I think everyone has a slip in their change to the PB lifestyle, at least everyone I know or have read their journals on here and all of them, myself included, feel like total crap after. Maybe it is just the subconscious need to really see how much your body has changed than makes us do it. I don't know but once or twice is enough for most people. Hang in their - the tough stretches really do get less and less.
"Think of it as a rebuilding stage - I'm beta testing the new Primate 2.0."
Thanks PP. I was mentally and physically exhausted before I even left for the weekend so I didn't have too much energy left for making good choices and having willpower. Making these poor choices and feeling the consequences has definitely reaffirmed my primal lifestyle I just need to find some ways to relieve stress that are healthy instead of destructive.
Well... at the very least my eating is back on track after this weekend. I still don't think I ate quite enough today, but somewhat better. For some reason meat just isn't sounding that great to me the last few days. Nothing sounds that great really. I think it's a stress, nerves, and sinus issue combo that's screwing with my stomach. I have such an intense sinus headache right now; it feels like my eyeball is going to pop out! Time to bust out the neti pot. This happens every when 1, I turn my heat on and 2, they light the damn fireplace at work (I hate that thing with an intensity that can only be described as scary). Well... I am hurty and sleepy... goodnight.