I am proud of you for your awesome start! It feels so good to feel good.Hey there!
Well I'm catching up. After being out of town last week I've fallen pretty behind on everything there is to do and didn't want to get lost in MDA-land which I can easily do for hours!
Looks like you're having some challenges...I totally hear you on the half-assing...WIth those of us who struggle with binge eating and sugar, it doesn't work. Been there, done it too many times to realize that as much as I detest all or none thinking, I have to go all in in order to gain the effects I really want: high energy, no cravings, satiety, the ability to turn down bread.
So I've been doing this since Monday, and I am doing it perfectly. I've logged over 30000 steps so far. I've done two strength training workouts. Tomorrow will be another strength. My diet has been around 70% fat, 20% protein, 10% carbs-from vegetables only. Dairy very limited. I find that if I have a decent dinner with plenty of fat, fasting for 16 hours until the next day, and doing my workouts in the fasted state is really pretty easy.
I am having some low carb flu symptoms. But already my sleep is improved. I did find myself totally exhausted yesterday-the kind of exhaustion where my brain is giving the signal for my legs to move but they just won't. I know that will pass.
Have I had thoughts of gorging myself on cookies? Meh..for a second or two and then I've forgotten it. IT's more like I feel overwhelmed at the thought of not doing that ever again and wonder if I am gonna be able to swing this. Then I remember-I can do it TODAY. That's all I have to worry about. Today. THe longer I do this, the better I will get at it, and the less tempted I will be to ever go back to my old ways. Wish my luck, pray for me, throw a coin in a fountain for me...whatever it is you do, I'll take it!
So for you...We can do this. You can do it! Search your heart. When we really want something, we realize that any of the obstacles we claim are there, getting in our way, are just excuses. Ouch. It hurts. But it's true. I hate realizing that myself. Everything we do in life is really about avoiding pain, or gaining pleasure. I'd rather go through some of the pain now, so I can have more pleasure later. When I was binging, I was exchanging such temporary pleasure for excruciating pain later. Not worth it. No more.
I'm sorry to hear about your MIL. That would be really tough, but at the same time, I'm glad for her that she gets to rest at home. With people who care about here there. I guess that's what we all would want, isn't it?
I'll keep you in my prayers and positive thoughts too.
Oh-haven't gotten those grass-fed farm products yet! Making do with the grass-fed/organic I'm finding in my grocery stores for now. Not ideal, but better than pink slime.