16 Year Old Former Bulimic Girl Defying CW (and cooking awesome food) page 5

[golangrok]

Oh nice, I'm the privileged one with the troll.

[BennettC]

hi i am a new commer here

what is this poison! this guy's trying to kill us!

[golangrok]

I'm not doing so good on sticking 100% to the diet - obviously now that I'm in California I want to try everything! And I'm staying with my grandma and her nitrous bacon, corn oil on everything...it's kind of hard. I'm trying to focus on fats and easy to get protein, low-sodium organic lunch meat, avocados, sunflower butter, etc. She doesn't make much meat or let me eat many eggs - she thinks they'll kill me. Sigh. Bloated as hell but trying to stay active.

[golangrok]

I'm taking all my supplements but still waiting for some improvement. My anxiety is sky high but I'm PMSing. Also I have a little planned off-day tomorrow, I'm going to be doing a food tour with my aunt. Things are alright, they'll be better in a few weeks. Meh.

[golangrok]

I'm really not doing as well as I could. Becasue I'm traveling and visiting family I'm really stretching my 80/20. I eat mainly Paleo but instead of cheating weekly it's like daily: a bite of chile quiles, half a cookie, a few nibbles of breaded chicken - and still recovering from my huuuuuge cheat the other day (with starchy indian food, ice cream, doughnuts, everything). Feel yucky. Not sleeping, not drinking water, not taking my supps, just being sucky.

[Khainag]

Take care and don't beat yourself up! I "cheated" big time this weekend too, not regretting it except for that it made me feel crappy... but only way to take care of that is to take care of myself and enjoy some PB food!!! (Now I got some pistachios and my Greek friend told me where I can get some real yogurt )

[golangrok]

I'm trying to take it easy, and focus on not relapsing again, as well as getting back on track. I am eating mostly paleo - chicken fried in CO for breakfast with avocado, usually a healthy lunch, but something like seeing "white chocolate macadamia nut" at yogurtland will drive me off the course. Because I will hump white chocolate macadamia nut anything. But as I start school and keep busy there won't be time (or money) for me to veer so dramatically off course things are good otherwise!

[golangrok]

I haven't gotten my herbs yet (no time to drive to Chinatown) but I am currently on a regime of supplements to aid with depression, bulimia, PCOS, and general digestive health as a result of my episodes.
In the morning I take GABA, l-tryptophan, l-tyrosine, St. John's Wort, high EPA omega 3, and a liver support.
At night I take zinc, chromium, another fish oil and liver support.
When my period starts I have to also include a Chaste Tree supplement, and 2:1 calcium to magnesium.

I still feel really disgusting and bloated, and my legs are cramping. I haven't been in my right mind since I relapsed. I'll get my sprints in tomorrow and hopefully go to the gym! I've been trying to include yoga in my routine and downloaded some open courseware to keep my mind occupied. Trying to pay attention to my water and avoid carbs to bring the swelling down.

I weighed yesterday and I'm up to 178. I don't know how that's possible. I'll also be drinking some laxative tea tonight to see if that helps. I'm trying to get back on track :/

I'm really disheartened in general. I feel so icky. Sigh.

[PHaselow]

I haven't gotten my herbs yet (no time to drive to Chinatown) but I am currently on a regime of supplements to aid with depression, bulimia, PCOS, and general digestive health as a result of my episodes.
In the morning I take GABA, l-tryptophan, l-tyrosine, St. John's Wort, high EPA omega 3, and a liver support.
At night I take zinc, chromium, another fish oil and liver support.
When my period starts I have to also include a Chaste Tree supplement, and 2:1 calcium to magnesium.

I still feel really disgusting and bloated, and my legs are cramping. I haven't been in my right mind since I relapsed. I'll get my sprints in tomorrow and hopefully go to the gym! I've been trying to include yoga in my routine and downloaded some open courseware to keep my mind occupied. Trying to pay attention to my water and avoid carbs to bring the swelling down.

I weighed yesterday and I'm up to 178. I don't know how that's possible. I'll also be drinking some laxative tea tonight to see if that helps. I'm trying to get back on track :/

I'm really disheartened in general. I feel so icky. Sigh.

Aw, hon. Don't do the laxatives. Don't go there. It isn't a way to manage weight. If you are constipated, that is another story. Use it for short term issues.

Do you take a probiotic or eat prebiotic foods? I use Florajen3 and like it.

How much EPA are you taking? It can require several grams (5+) for some to make a difference in depression. Better yet, do you have access to wild caught salmon? I think I read you are living with grandma and she won't let you eat a lot of primal foods because she thinks they'll hurt you (eggs, red meat) but you can't argue with salmon! Try to get 1 or 2 large servings of salmon per week.

it can be hard to bounce back from a relapse. I didn't see your relapse so I don't know if it involved purging. I guess I should read before I write. But, since I am lazy, I am going to say: it often took 2 weeks for me to feel somewhat stable after a bulimic episode. It is physically and emotionally taxing. Hang in there.

~Pam

[golangrok]

I weighed this morning, feeling better after upping my water and I'm back down to 170...it's something at least. Did really well the whole day until our Mexican neighbor brought over homemade tamales, with corn she ground herself. It's a step up from storebought with preservatives and other yuckiness but ughhhh. How do you say no? And they were totally worth it. I'm still trying to settle in but I'm doing a little better everyday. Maybe I'll start writing down what I eat.