Highs and Lows
Well I was on a high after my first month *properly* paleo and a stone and a half melting off, but then made the mistake of getting a bit excited and weighing myself and...2lb back ON!? Well, I knew I'd been a little naughty out of necessity at that festival and expected no more loss but...gain!? not fair! That sent me off feeling really low. Not low enough to abandon the whole thing of course, just to think 'well, I'll have to start rationing things and restricting myself if I ever want to get back to my 11st6 18yr old self. That wasn't an appealing thought, because for me, paleo is for life, not just until 11st6. I have to eat sustainably or I can't see the point at all - I've done low calorie diets, and they're a bag of crap.
I haven't weighed myself since, I'm trying to break myself of the habit or I get obsessive and any gain makes me upset and if I get upset I want jellybeans. But, what I noticed today was that even though I may WEIGH as much, or a little more, I FEEL so much better! I feel slimmer, I struggle to keep my size 16 jeans up, people compliment my new figure, and i feel strong enough to effortlessly do my chores and lug my enormous baby about!
Which made me think that maybe, I never will get back to my 18yr old self? I might get that slim again, but I may never weigh so little, because a) I am simply more mature now and have filled out and attained my full frame size, and b) I actually DO stuff now, not just sitting on a bus/behind a desk/on a beach.
And that made me feel happier, and I re-made my goal to just break this 13st barrier I haven't for years and be a size 14.
16st @ heaviest (during pregnancy, 15st5 outside pregnancy) 8wks in - down to 13st5
Goal - size 14, breaking that 13st barrier! 27/08/12 - fitting into some sz 14 things!