Female, 5'3", 49, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135 (more or less).
Starting squat: 45lbs. Highest squat: 167.5 x 2. Current Deadlift: 190 x 3
Leida's goal weight is well under the bottom end of the healthy range if you read her posts on other threads. I am not interested in continuing to enable her eating disorder and hope that she finds some sort of help soon.
“If I didn't define myself for myself, I would be crunched into other people's fantasies for me and eaten alive.” --Audre Lorde
What I'm seeing in Leida is classic eating-disordered thinking, which is not healthy no matter how much she weighs. Even if she was completely average and within the middle of the healthy weight range, she wouldn't be "healthy". I really hope she gets some help.
Note, however, before we heap on too much on poor Leida, that she's just at an extreme version of what passes for "normal" for most Americans. Most women, in particular, have this sort of thinking to some degree or another. I'm currently dating someone who is significantly overweight - she's got something like 40 lbs. to lose on a very small frame. She goes to a nutritionist and uses CW calorie-counting for her weight-loss (we haven't dated long enough that I can push Primal principles on her; it's none of my business). This produces a minor starvation response. She's a lot more interested in sweets than I am. For her, food is a much bigger deal than it is for me. She feels guilty when she eats too much. It's all minor - she's not fantasizing about apples or obsessing about food - but it's there nonetheless.
These type of threads just tend to bring out the worst of the drama queen in me. I try to be honest, but come across as a resident nutcase. I just need to learn to tone down my typing, is all, or, better shut up. I am not starving. I have less food restrictions than other people 'round. I don't count calories. I enjoy my training. I am fine. It's just that soul-baring that gets me in trouble.
Really, shutting up is the best solution.
Last edited by Leida; 08-31-2012 at 06:57 AM.
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