Non-Magical Musings of Mandi
My name is Mandi and I am a carb addict.
I've lived my whole life like this. Going from eating a whole pizza and drinking a whole 2 liter of mountain dew as dinner, to eating 900-1000 calories of CW good for you foods and exercising 1-2 hours per day. Neither way worked well, but somehow over the course of about 4 years of straight line CW diet and exercise, I was able to go from 360 to 280. I was constantly tired and sick. And I would hold epic battles for supremacy with the alarm clock every morning.
Then about a year ago I stumbled across the Primal Blueprint, Paleo, Insulin Resistance Diets, etc. Where my brain promptly exploded and I had to scoop it back up into my ear. All because I was diagnosed with PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome).
PCOS isn't great... but it's not exactly a death sentence either. I had some very bizzare things going on. Skin tags popping up all over my neck, hair in places that would get someone a restraining order, testosterone so high it was past male and entering minatar territory, etc.
The only way to combat my crazy body horomones was to lose weight. The only way to do that was the fixing my Insulin Resistance. I replaced white bread/rice/sugar/etc. with whole wheat everything and honey/agave. Then I progressively got more and more exclusive with my diet until I was about 90/10 on the PB. I was losing weight like crazy. Then, right around midterms with my college, I completely crashed and burned. I was down from 280 in Aug. 2011 to 240 in April 2012 and now after about 4 months of complete ineptitude, I'm back up to 270.
You see, I'm a very good lier, especially to myself. I particularly like to lie to myself and say I'm doing "okay" with my eating. It's a pretty little lie, all sugar-coated and shiney. I have every kind of "bad" item, ususally once or twice a day. I'm back in my sugarburning cycle of ups and downs, mood swings, and blood sugar crashes. Ususally one very strong coffee or a whole Monster a day.
I continually promise myself that I will get it back together. That after this weekend or after this vacation or at some random day in the future I will turn it around and just start back again. It's been 4 months of broken self promises and "reasons" why I'm currently not eating properly. It has to stop.
So here I am, ready to bare all before the world (aka the PB Forums) in order to hold myself accountable for the junk I shove into my piehole.
Last edited by pixiecatmandi; 08-15-2012 at 12:35 PM.
Starting weight, July 13, 2011: 286 pounds
Lowest weight, April 1, 2012: 242 pounds
Current Weight, Aug 15, 2012: 270 pounds
Goal: 135-ish, When I feel happy/healthy/right