Hey longing2bfit, I'm another Santa Barbaran. If you can find DeyDey's chicken it's really super good. I get it at IV Food Coop. I get half chickens. They have a stand at the Sunday farmer's market at Camino Real Marketplace, too. They mostly sell grass-fed beef, but their chicken is better than their beef.
Leida, maybe you should try raw vegan for a while. You've tried everything else.
As for me, I find fat very satisfying. I also find protein satisfying. It's better if I do both. It seems that the ratio that comes naturally in meats works well to calm my appetite and make me feel good, but it can't be too lean a cut of meat, like one that they've cut all the fat off around the edges.
I'm finding that organ meats and the "odd bits" actually do wonders. I put oxtails in the crock pot and the gelatin and fat and meat all work to make me feel good. I put pork belly that has skin on in the crock pot (and then later broil the skin to crisp it up). The collagen, gelatin and fat all work with the meat to make me feel so happy and satisfied. My latest organ meat to try is tongue. Today's the first time I've ever had tongue. I'm not sure if it has special properties like other parts I've tried, but cold it's the best thing ever.
I don't even care that my organs and odd bits are not always grass-fed or pastured. This stuff really makes me feel healthy.
I find if I use tallow or bacon grease food becomes a meal. Coconut oil, olive oil, making things "lite" or trying to eat higher volume, low calorie foods so I can have more just doesn't have the same effect. I eat coconut and olive oil and have salads and vegetables, but meat has to be a major part of my diet or else my appetite goes nuts again. If I get to a point where my appetite is out of control, it takes more than a couple of days before it will calm down again once I get back on track with the meat and fat.
Female, 5'3", 49, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135 (more or less).
Starting squat: 45lbs. Current squat: 180 x 2. Current Deadlift: 230 x 2