I don't have any "mantras" or anything of the like. Nothing has ever seemed to resonate with me. Physical violence is at least out until next Tuesday at 1:40PM when I am cleared for physical activity by my doctor. I'm barely lucky if I can even begin to remember to take my vitamins. I pretty much just cry myself to the point of exhaustion(which is what I am doing now). That's what I've always done and its really much simpler for some strange reason. I've never been the type to really verbalize or do anything physical with my emotions other than cry unless its to the point of where I am just fed up with someone and I have to let them know exactly why I am tired of their shit and what they need to do to keep me from hitting the breaking point. I really don't think its the hormone levels right now. I feel like I really just want off this ride called life. I really need something more even keeled before I really go off the deep end. I just think I've been stuck on survival mode since I was a kid and I don't know how to stop. I know this is a frackton of ramblings and shit. I really don't think I'm making much sense anymore.
Geo, I just found your new journal. It will take me a little time to read it all and get caught up, but it is good to see you're still around. And hell, we're practically neighbors now that I am in the Northern panhandle of West Virginia.
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"I've come here to chew bubble gum and kick ass...and I'm all out of bubble gum."
Hey Geo, How are you feeling today?
The excavators are on their way here. Hopefully that'll get rid of some of my stress at home.