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    The Perils of Periwinkle Pitstop

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    When last we left our errant adventurer…wait…we didn’t leave her anywhere yet…She’s just getting started. Let’s backtrack…

    Hi everyone! I decided to keep a journal partly to track my food and my mood and partly to keep track of my life because it is about to get really crazy. I am 39. I have a four year old daughter and a two year old son. On July 21, the kids and I are moving into a two bedroom apartment and I get to begin my journey as a 40 year old separated, divorce pending, single working mom. I don’t recall that being my fervent dream as a young flower, but it must have been…because here I am.

    I am 4 feet 9 inches tall. I love to wear 3 inch platform heels…because…whoo-hoo…it’s like I am 5 feet tall. Back in 2003, via weight watchers, I went from 150 to 126. I think I might have weighed 126 for about a month and then started the long climb up. I gained 56 pounds with each pregnancy. I think I got back down to 170 after my little man was born and then began to slowly, insidiously creep up. In September of 2011, my scale got sassy with me and told me I weighed 189 pounds. When I considered that the next time I got on the scale it might be so bold as to tell me I weighed 190…I responded (as we do here in the south) with: “Oh hell no…” and I meant it…I was not going over 190 unless I was carrying around an extra person. From September to April I got down to 176 using CW, calorie counting, low fat, blah, blah, blah…and got stuck.

    Luckily for me, I stumbled onto Good Calorie, Bad Calorie. I am an RN and I am working on my Master’s in Nursing. I was disgusted with the sloppy research used by Keys and all the rest of it. And it left me at a huge loss. What the hell WAS I supposed to eat? I started looking into paleo eating and found MDA and decided that this was a great place to start. Because really…any way of eating that encourages bacon can’t be wrong…

    I haven’t eaten grains (with one exception) or processed food, or beans or sugar in 3 weeks and 2 days. This past Tuesday I ate the gluten free egg drop soup and pepper steak at PF Chang’s and had about a cup or so of white rice. I puffed up like a blow fish and gained 5 pounds and had little pains in my abdomen. Dammit. I love PF Chang’s. I guess once a month I’ll just have to rock the blow fish look.

    I’d like to rave about how all the pounds went poof when I gave up grains…but alas…I am not a poofer. I am a scale addict, so I have watched my weight drop to 169.5 and then go back up to 172 and then hit 176 after the PF Chang incident and now it is hovering at 173.5. I was 174 when I started. So clearly, this isn’t going to be a quick trip.

    I haven’t quite made up my mind to give up milk. I drink raw milk from a local farm. It is awesome. It is creamy and sweet and their cream is like heaven. I am flirting with the idea of giving up milk and my other mistress (85% dark chocolate) and trying for a Whole 30. But I have decided to hold off on that until AFTER the kids and I have moved out and my life has settled down a bit. Milk and dark chocolate are my antidepressant.

    Other odds and ends: As I said before, I am an RN. I work in an elementary school right now, but I have experience in mother/baby and in the NICU. I have two hamsters – Cinnamon and Mocha. My dream is to own a little farm and raise sheep, goats, a milk cow and a giant garden. If I ever make it back to Dallas, I plan to go through a post master’s program and become a Women’s Health Nurse Practitioner. As an NP, I think I could even tell my patients to adopt a primal lifestyle without freaking people out. If I told the kids at my elementary school to give up grains, men in black would descend and escort me from my clinic and brainwash me and replace me with a clone. So I guess I have to content myself with discouraging processed food and sugar…for now.

    No idea where this journal is going to go…but you are welcome to come along for the ride.
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    Nightshades hate me…I feel scorned...and a tad bit sick...

    So…a few days in to my primal journey, I decided to eliminate nightshades and see if the aches and pains in my body got better. I don’t think they did. However…I had a white potato on Friday after 3 weeks without eating white potatoes and I had some moderate GI upset and shooting ankle pain. Tonight, I had some homemade tomato and garlic sauce and I ate maybe ¼ of a whole tomato. This evening I noticed acid reflux and a feeling in my lungs like a tickle or an allergic reaction or maybe like a jump in my asthma. Poor Periwinkle. No Nightshades for me. It is good to know. I think it is one of the few experiments I have done that I feel like I have a definitive answer to.

    Just focusing the rest of my energy on going through the boxes in the garage and choosing which books to take to Half Price Books and which to keep. I am kind of a book hoarder.

    Still eating clean, non-processed foods. But my love affair with nightshades is no more. Hmmm I wonder if it was the bell pepper in the pepper steak that made me sick as opposed to the rice....something to investigate in a few weeks.
    It's just another day in paradise
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    You'd give anything to silence
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    You thought you would be satisfied
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    Learn to be still
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    Welcome. I like your sig line. That is one of my all time favorite bands and favorite songs.

    I wish you well on your journey. It sounds like you are doing well with learning to take the hints that your body is giving you.

    This way of eating does work but it is not a quick fix for everyone. Keep at it and you will do just fine.

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    Thanks Paleobird. I love Learn to be Still. It is my goal. I have felt anxious all of my life and have looked away from the present (to quote Yoda: All his life he looked away, to the future, the past, never his mind on where he was...what he was doing...). I had a brief time in 2003 between nursing school and when I started my first nursing job, about a month, where I felt peaceful and "still." I hope to feel that way again.

    I am frustrated about not losing weight, but I have no desire to go back and eat grain or processed foods at this time. Milk will be the hard thing to give up, if/when I decide to do that. Due to a stressful personal life, I am sure my cortisol levels are all wacked to hell. I worked 12 hour over night shifts from Summer of 2008 until Summer of 2011. I manipulated my sleep schedule with lots of benadryl for years. I took Lexapro from October 2010 until October 2011. I grudgingly accept that it may take a few months for my body to figure out how to work optimally. But it sure would have been the cream on the cocoa (instead of the icing on the cake) if my body decided to drop 20 pounds as a thank you.
    It's just another day in paradise
    As you stumble to your bed
    You'd give anything to silence
    Those voices ringing in your head
    You thought you could find happiness
    Just over that green hill
    You thought you would be satisfied
    But you never will-
    Learn to be still
    -The Eagles

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    I thought I would throw some measurements out there:

    June 19 I was measured/weighed/etc…at the YMCA:
    Chest: 40.5
    Waist: 37
    Thigh: 25.5
    Hips: 46.5
    Arm: 12.25
    Weight: 174.8
    Lean Mass: 111.44
    Fat Mass: 63.36
    Average BMI: 36.25%

    Height: 4ft 9 inches
    It's just another day in paradise
    As you stumble to your bed
    You'd give anything to silence
    Those voices ringing in your head
    You thought you could find happiness
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    You thought you would be satisfied
    But you never will-
    Learn to be still
    -The Eagles

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    A kind poster on my intro thread suggested a good book called The Diet Cure by Ross since I feel like I am addicted to milk and chocolate. It has been very interesting. So...I today I started taking 500mg of L tyrosine, 500mg of dl phenylalamine at mid-morning and 1 mg of melatonin at bedtime. Dr. Ross suggested melatonin in her book, but I have since read some antecdotal reports saying that melatonin isnt good for you...so I will have to keep an eye on that. I also got some GABA for times when I am feeling anxious.

    My plan is still to consume raw milk and 85% dark chocolate until the kids and I are settled into our new apartment and I am no longer in daily contact with my soon to be ex husband. He lives in the house still, and we are pleasant for the sake of the kids...but I am filled with anxiety and other emotions. So...in 2 weeks, I'll have one less stresser, aminos on board, and I'll try for a Whole30.

    I have pork hash on the stove. I used rutabegas instead of white potatoes. It has a sweeter taste than I am used to. i spent a lot of time as a child in South Carolina. For me...pork hash means a specific kind of barbeque you cant get outside the Carolina area. Hash also means the canned corn beef hash. I am planning to fry up my rutabega and pork hash in the AM with some fried eggs on top. I hope I like the way it tastes. I love bacon...but I dont see my single working mom mornings as always having time to fry up breakfast and it would be nice to have it almost ready to go, like hash. This pork was way too lean though. I need to pick up some Boston Butt for a nice hash. I added bacon fat and what little butter I had in the fridge and about 1/4 cup of whipped cream that I had from some raw cream from my favorite farm just to give it a little fat.

    Still at 174-174.5 I am slowly coming to the acceptance that I am going to have to go 30 days with no dairy...but that doesnt mean I like it. :P
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    But you never will-
    Learn to be still
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    Ok...it is 3:11 am Periwinkle time...and so far...1 mg of melatonin has failed to impress me. I fell asleep at 10 pm, fairly easily...my daughter woke me up at 2 am to potty and then I couldnt go back to sleep. I just laid there and thought about all the packing I still have to do, how I have to go get a copy of my sons's birth certificiate b/c I never did that and he is 2 and now I need it for his daycare in the Fall. I keep going over and over my 7.5 years of marriage and how mad I am at my husband for chosing his addictions over his family. I have used benadryl for sleep for so long, I guess my body is confused by the melatonin.

    So I got up and came downstairs and had a cup of milk and some GABA and piece of chocolate.

    If you ask for pictures of "Periwinkle" the internet will come up with 5 common items. Periwinkle refers to a flower, a snail, a cat on the show Blue's Clues, a color, and most recently, a Disney Fairy. I love the Tinkerbell fairy movies, so I picked the Disney fairy as my avatar picture. I am not very good at coming up with names for forums, so I tend to choose a name from my list of World Of Warcraft characters. Periwinkle was my druid. I havent played in a while...but my old characters are still my go-to for names. It took me forever to come up with the character names then...might as well recycle them.

    Hope everyone else is having better luck sleeping.
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    Learn to be still
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    When last we left our errant adventurer...she was in the clutches of insomnia. Sadly, it was 5:45 before I really went back to sleep and then I slept till almost 10 am while it thunderstormed outside.

    When I realized that my trip to the adjacent county's courthouse to get my son's birth certificate would take me past a small hole in the wall Italian place with awesome pizza, I dove headfirst off the wagon (Or was tripped by the sister of Gay Panda's Fairy of Debauchery. I think Debauchery's sister is the Fairy of Self-Sabotage). So I ate pizza, french fries, breaded chicken strips for lunch and later ate chinese food with at least 2 cups of white rice. I dont feel much worse for the wear physically. but I am kicking the fairy of Self-Sabotage out in the morning and have decided to start my Whole30.

    So starting tomorrow, I am eating meat, veggies, fruit, EVOO, Coconut oil, coconut, pecans and cashews, herbs, eggs. I have learned to my great sadness that if bacon has sugar added, then I can't eat it. Wellness meats has sugar free bacon...but it is $16 per 1.5 pounds...not doable right now. So I ran out to the store and bought some ground 80/20 pork and mixed it with herbs and spices and poof: breakfast sasauge. I have made it before and it is tasty. I assume the pork was raised badly...I'll have to work on better pork...but if I cant have bacon...I have to have sausage and eggs. I never seem to just want to eat left over dinner meat. It just isnt that satisfying.

    I also have some fish oil coming in the mail. I picked one from the Weston A Price website.

    So Starting July 13 until August 13...Whole 30 here I come. The idea of not drinking milk is the hardest part. I love milk. I only just discovered raw milk...it is so yummy, it makes me sad to stop drinking it. I hope if I have some accountability via this journal, I'll stick with it.
    It's just another day in paradise
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    You'd give anything to silence
    Those voices ringing in your head
    You thought you could find happiness
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    You thought you would be satisfied
    But you never will-
    Learn to be still
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    Today I have eaten breakfast sausage, 1.5 eggs, like 4 strawberries and 7 blueberries with some pecans. I ate the fajita steak, some onions, some peppers, and some avocado. I had some cashews. I feel like a truck ran over me. I have been irritable all day and right now at 5:30 pm, I am exhausted. For dinner, planning hamburger, avocados, and carrots roasted in raw farm butter and cinnamon.

    I would really like to drink some milk...but I wont.
    Last edited by Periwinkle; 07-13-2012 at 03:43 PM.
    It's just another day in paradise
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    You'd give anything to silence
    Those voices ringing in your head
    You thought you could find happiness
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    You thought you would be satisfied
    But you never will-
    Learn to be still
    -The Eagles

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    I have some Annie's Organic Yellow Mustard: Distilled White Vinegar, water, mustard seed, sea salt, tumeric, paprika and clove are the ingredients. Can I eat it on a Whole 30? Thanks!
    It's just another day in paradise
    As you stumble to your bed
    You'd give anything to silence
    Those voices ringing in your head
    You thought you could find happiness
    Just over that green hill
    You thought you would be satisfied
    But you never will-
    Learn to be still
    -The Eagles

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