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    I leave the house at 6am and get home at 4.45pm. It's not too terrible - I get to do dinner and bedtime with the small boy - but it's very rare that I stay late in the city or do anything for myself. *violins and sad trombone*
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    Badger - sleep well my dear girl................
    "never let the truth get in the way of a good story "

    ...small steps....

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    There are parts of young adulthood that are just there, like wallpaper, that are integral to the whole, but so 'deep background' as to remain unremarkable...until they pop up unexpectedly and transport you back magic-carpetwise into the past.
    Ladies and gentlemen, I give you 20 years of Steve Lamacq

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    So, so tired today. Madness how standing around can be more tiring than moving, but there. Just got to get through today and tomorrow and I can have Wednesday at home by myself to potter.

    I've - since this is ostensibly a food journal - settled into a workday pattern of medium breakfast, no lunch, big dinner. It seems to work more or less. I should Fitday it and figure out the numbers, but can I be arsed? No I cannot. As ever, wine is my undoing. However, owing to working the exam, the weekend was dryer than usual.

    I ache. Every part of my body is either stiff or sore or both and, as we say round these parts, not in a good way.
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    Woke up with tears in my eyes. Feel like it's going to be one of those days.

    Work is beginning to mount up, but my determination to do it has yet to ramp up to match.

    Last night came home to a dark house - husband had 'forgotten' to open the curtains at any point during the day - and a man in meltdown. Sometimes my emotional reserves are not adequate for the task, but I propped him up, took over the jobs to be done and told him that if this freelance teaching gig felt dodgy it probably was dodgy and, frankly, $400 is not worth him losing his mind over. I'll sign up to work all the exams I can. It's easier.
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    Badger - *hugs* to you and DH
    "never let the truth get in the way of a good story "

    ...small steps....

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    FUCKING BACON. This. So much of this.
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    Had small epiphany about parenting. So often husband and I have different takes on things regarding small boy. Because: gender, nationality, life differences. We usually work it out somehow - who knew (when we walked, stumbled, er, screwed our way into it) that it would work out this way - parenting is an act of compromise too.

    But. Ultimately. We are a united front.

    Child is able to petition and each parent can take child's part (and should) on occasion.

    However, joint parental rule cannot be circumvented, subverted or ignored. Mummy and Daddy have each other's backs. First and foremost.

    Interestingly, this was not how it went down in Badger Avenue. I wonder, now, how husband experienced it. In his childhood GOD ruled all...

    ...TBC.
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    can someone please just tell me:


    and, since we're talking husband, these are his songs.Both. Equally. All the time. God, I love him...and yet.

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    I used to think the kaleidoscope was a good metaphor for how we change ourselves around different friends - the same fragments of self, but different emphasis or shapes emerge. There was a measure of control to the process and the glass beads, or whatever it is that make up the patterns, could be relied on to stay the same. Not any more. I go to bed one person and wake up another. My sense of self is unstable in the extreme and shifts without warning from one state to another. Living with me must be fraught and exhausting. Work is a stabilising factor as is, to an extent, husband and small boy. I don't really know how to pull it all back together - to maintain a united front is beyond me.
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