Just thought i report back on my flight of last week. I won't go into detail as i am losing my privacy otherwise, but it was a former-sovjet state. I had to go there, attend smth + sign a paper and return! Everything went well but yes, i was nervous! The pilot had food 'rests' all over his uniform when welcoming the passengers, not that i care, but its the details that make it extra nervous wrecking. The co-pilot was very nice and talked a lot (we had to wait an hour in the plane before taking off)
I did slip in 2 glasses of wineand a wodka before the return flight. I don't do (much) alcohol otherwise, but hey.
Next flight is already on the 11th, i am not yet nervous which is a gooood sign
I don't like to fly at all either. I've taken Xanax, I was still scared just didn't give a rip, which I found to be a disturbing feeling all it's own. I have to have some cocktails and even then I end up crying half the time. I have decided that I won't let it prevent me from going places I want to go. I'll just deal with it. That said, it'd have to be an all expense paid trip to somewhere absolutely spectacular.
The argument that you're safer in a plane than you are in a car has never held water for me. There's nothing inherently safer about the mechanics of flying. It's just a numbers game. If we all flew rather than drove, we'd be safer on the ground.
I think your fear of flying may be more of a lack of lack of understanding. I am a pilot with with over 15 years in the industry and currently fly large airplanes a couple of hundred feed above the ground. I am a waterbomer pilot and am in turbulent conditions almost all the time. You would not believe just how much turbulence an airplane can take before coming apart. Here is a link to Boeings 787 wing break test. It is amazing just how much the wing bends before it fails.
Boeing 787 wing break test - YouTube