A bit of a deep one from me today
During my time on MDA I've always felt a resonance with your posts. We're of a similar build, height, have a similar background with our weight, and both struggled with that recent fat gain that wouldn't budge. However, I've had a major breakthrough in the last few months, and I really think what I went through might apply to you too. Firstly, I switched to eating high carb and some weight fell off. Then I plateaued for a month... until I readjusted my carbs, and cut back on my exercise! I'm not going to bore you with the details but I was exercising a lot (though less than you) and the stress response was causing me to store everything I ate as fat. Anyway, now I'm losing steadily again, sleeping better etc.
I really thought that I was stuck at this weight that I hated, but my body was just reacting to stress (caused by the wrong macros for me, and the wrong exercise).
Anyway, I know people are always making suggestions to you about what to do so you will will probably discard this, but I just wanted you to know that I know how you feel, and I really believe that the answer is more simple than we realise.
Hugs to you. <3
"I think the basic anti-aging diet is also the best diet for prevention and treatment of diabetes, scleroderma, and the various "connective tissue diseases." This would emphasize high protein, low unsaturated fats, low iron, and high antioxidant consumption, with a moderate or low starch consumption.
In practice, this means that a major part of the diet should be milk, cheese, eggs, shellfish, fruits and coconut oil, with vitamin E and salt as the safest supplements."
- Ray Peat