Journal Attempt #2 page 11

[Leida]

On the whole, not a bad day yesterday, though I had to catch a ride from the rec center, which cut down my walking time. But the weather was nasty and that gave me a chance to stay in the steam room/hot tub for a bit longer & do a good stretch. I thought I could do a bit higher calories because of the cardio I put in this week, but the scale did not think so. I did feel bloated after cauliflower yesterday, so dunno, hopefully with depletion w/o starting today the weight will start dropping off. This time around the weight seem to fluctuate after the carb up. Before it was simply dropping off. Not sure what causes that. But I am a lb lighter than last week atm, so fingers crossed to get a pound down this week. I would be so happy to get under 120 lbs at last, but patience....

On the sleeping front, the unfortunate development is the early winter, so I will have to get up 30 min earlier to engage in the traditional Canadian winter sport of snow shoveling. 20 min today, not bad. Still had enough time for the full morning walk. I guess, at least I get the cold thermogenesis kicking in want it or not.

Can't do steam room today The cooking night. (Sigh)

And oops, it was 121.6 lbs, not 120.6 lbs last Saturday. Wishful thinking!

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to --)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs tbd, 20 min snow shov, 30 min walking, tbd

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Leida]

It was a wonderful day yesterday in terms of fitness, but miserable weather wise. One of those snowing & blowing days which feel much colder than they really are, and no sun. I was working and did not feel like venturing out into the storm, so I worked through lunch and added some cardio after the depletion #1 workout. Feel tired right now.

Depletion #1 was great, I could feel the burn, the tempo was right and the weights were right. My shoulders looked pretty darn cool on the 'vanity' portion of the workout, delt raises and curls. Sheesh, wish they looked like that without the aid of 35 lb bar!

But, despite the depletion w#2 coming what I am really freaking about is tomorrow. I am taking (finally) a day off, between the snow and my husband still having the truck (his car doesn't have snow tires) I am sooo afraid of being stuck at home with food on 1,000 cal limit. I have shopping plans (if the car handles reasonably well en route to the gym) and I have 100 or so glad bulbs to separate from stems and store carefully for the winter, I have a PT appointment, and I plan to do extra cardio in the gym and soak forever in the tub & steam room, and still I am FREAKING OUT. Part of me just wants to crawl into bed, and see if I can nap through half the day! Alas, that will probably prevent me from falling asleep at night & the night is worse than the afternoon. If the snow was better, I would pick my kiddo earlier and go sleighing but the layer below is melted and refroze, so it's yuk snow over ice. And since she broke her collar bone last year during the same conditions... Hmm. Maybe climbing wall.

Again, PANIC ATTACK. I was doing reasonably well with hunger due to being busy with meetings, and I am afraid of food. Also, calories are hard to estimate on something like bortsh, so I dunno, I might have under-wrote? Sheesh. But weight is down this morning.

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to --)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs; 900 cals, 38 g fat (39%), 33/9 g carbs, 108 g protein; Depletion W/O #1, 20 min snow shov, 60 min walking, stretch
Oct 24, 2012 W:122.7 lbs, tbd

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Leida]

This morning I woke up with the feeling of a completely empty body. Insanely, that's the first time this week the hunger got me. I don't know if it is good news (hey, who likes going hungry? Not me!) On the other hand it makes me paranoid in more ways than one. First, I am always worried about overestimating calories (complex dishes, fat gambles with meat). Second, I am worried about metabolic rate and hormones plunging down and keeping me fat despite low calories. It is hard to eat yourself out of that hole. Sheesh, I can't believe how many people deliberately put themselves into that hole in hopes to lose more and faster (creepy!).

I won't lie - I was worried on Thursday morning when I stepped on the scale, and it was in the same place. On the other hand, I checked the muscle mass, and it was up by almost a pound, & I had a huge thirst episode overnight, so i assumed water problems, and tried to hydrate like a fish all day yesterday.

I do have a drop this morning (keep faith with Lyle), but it also has a corresponding drop in the LBM. The WW scale I am using is quite fooled by the ketonic state however, dehydration confuses the heck out of it. This is one reason I think a weigh in after starting a carb up is a good idea, as the numbers are not so confused. We will see tomorrow.

The Gym Chronicles place me into sore and depleted category today. I know, Lyle thinks cardio in the am is a great idea today, so I am going to try a tabata with burpies and mountain climbers. I went for a run last week, but this week it's icey, snowy, and I have my reservations about running in the hiking boots. but if the magic of coffee gets me going, maybe I can do a very short run (15-20 min). Outdoor runs are nice....

Also, no screwing around this time. It's gonna be Jack3D before the Intensity Workout. I want it to be super-strong and I want to go from 2 to 3 sets at least on some stuff. Fingers crossed!

Today's chapter will be "Why Try? It Won't Work Anyway" thoughts. Funny, in the past three days, I have been having those episodes of finding the inner calm and telling myself confidently that this time I will succeed. It feels like I moved past cautious optimism and guarded hope towards blind faith. It's not that I know Lyle is the shit, it is that I am starting to like my body. Three years down the road, and I believe I am starting to get used to it, and maybe even getting over the phantom weight.

So far, I have not experienced one of the horrid black depression spells. Probably because my fats are much higher. This is one reason I am probably going to take 2 weeks break after 4-5 weeks on the UD2.0 and then re-start it rather than doing full 8 weeks.

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to --)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs; 900 cals, 38 g fat (39%), 33/9 g carbs, 108 g protein; Depletion W/O #1, 20 min snow shov, 60 min walking, stretch
Oct 24, 2012 W:122.7 lbs, 970 cals, 47 g (43%) fat, 35/5 g carbs, 101 g protein; Depletion W/O #2, 20 min X-trainer, stretch, 90 min walking
Oct 25th: W: 122.9 lbs, 1064 cals, 62 g (51%) fat, 26/4 g carbs, 99 g protein, 40 min learning cable pulls & BP with a PT; 16 min X-trainer+ 25 min recovery swim; 25 min walking against the current in the lazy river (counted as stretch), stm.rm; MS+play (shopping, belaying)
Oct 26th: W: 120.5 lbs, tbd

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Leida]

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to 120.4, 17.6% BF)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs; 900 cals, 38 g fat (39%), 33/9 g carbs, 108 g protein; Depletion W/O #1, 20 min snow shov, 60 min walking, stretch
Oct 24, 2012 W:122.7 lbs, 970 cals, 47 g (43%) fat, 35/5 g carbs, 101 g protein; Depletion W/O #2, 20 min X-trainer, stretch, 90 min walking
Oct 25th: W: 122.9 lbs, 1064 cals, 62 g (51%) fat, 26/4 g carbs, 99 g protein, 40 min learning cable pulls & BP with a PT; 16 min X-trainer+ 25 min recovery swim; 25 min walking against the current in the lazy river (counted as stretch), stm.rm; MS+play (shopping, belaying)
Oct 26th: W: 120.5 lbs, 1400 cals, 200/19 g carbs, 25 g fat (15%), 101 g protein; Intensity WO, walking 70 min, tabata (9 sets burpies, 1 set JJ), stm.rm
Oct 27th, 2012: W:120.4 lbs, 17.6% BF (WW Scale); 2800 cals, 640 g carbs, 1% fat, 91 g protein + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stm.rm
Oct 28th, 2012: W122 lbs; tbd

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Leida]

Ladies, uhm, how do you wear leggings properly? I am experimenting with a short dress and leggings, it looks good, but on one leg the leggings won't fit into the sock, so there is a slash of skin (eww). Do I need taller socks in some cool pattern, leg warmer-style? This kind of clothes makes me feel perky & hip. Probably a sign that I am getting old, missing 80'ies. But ANYTHING for not having to wear pantyhose!

I had a fantastic day yesterday, with the exception of the powerful appetite-driven eating! But I think I needed it, because I did not sleep well on Saturday night after my massive carb-up, but slept like a baby today, not waking up till 3:30 am basically at the get up time. Feel tired, sore and happy (and not really hungry).

The sun broke through yesterday afternoon, so the kiddo and I had a lot of fun sliding down the hill - I ended up in my tee-shirt and snow pants, lol.

Power training was super-cool, though doing 3x5 on 120 lbs squats got me winded mid-way through the session. I also mad a mistake of pushing the second push-press which jolted something in the back, hence only one deadlift. The back is not hurt, just slight discomfort. Today it's Okay.

Today's plan is to fast till supper to compensate for the caloric over-draft yesterday (~300-400 cals above perfect), and do cardio and work on the small muscles with the pulley machine. My PT gave me a good session on it, and I want to start working it while I still remember the basics! I am thinking to also do Russian twist & ab rise to round it into an ab session. I am half tempted to repeat deadlift, but I know it is NOT the smartest idea!

This week has Halloween, and I will be busy, so my goal is to just come back to 120-120.5 lbs, instead of seeing the coveted under 120 lbs. Patience, I will get there and farther if I am patient. I am loving this lifestyle. There is just something psychologically GOOD about not having to have limits on Saturday and Sunday - in both eating and training. I believe that is one of the keys to this diet being more successful than the 1,300 cals every day, and you can have fruit meaning 'you can have a slice of an apple'. Lol, if you saw my yesterday's log, it reads like a grocery store fruit isle inventory!

The log:

Week 3: (~ 126.2 lbs to ---)
Oct 29th: W: 126.2 lbs, tbd

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to 120.4, 17.6% BF)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs; 900 cals, 38 g fat (39%), 33/9 g carbs, 108 g protein; Depletion W/O #1, 20 min snow shov, 60 min walking, stretch
Oct 24, 2012 W:122.7 lbs, 970 cals, 47 g (43%) fat, 35/5 g carbs, 101 g protein; Depletion W/O #2, 20 min X-trainer, stretch, 90 min walking
Oct 25th: W: 122.9 lbs, 1064 cals, 62 g (51%) fat, 26/4 g carbs, 99 g protein, 40 min learning cable pulls & BP with a PT; 16 min X-trainer+ 25 min recovery swim; 25 min walking against the current in the lazy river (counted as stretch), stm.rm; MS+play (shopping, belaying)
Oct 26th: W: 120.5 lbs, 1400 cals, 200/19 g carbs, 25 g fat (15%), 101 g protein; Intensity WO, walking 70 min, tabata (9 sets burpies, 1 set JJ), stm.rm
Oct 27th, 2012: W:120.4 lbs, 17.6% BF (WW Scale); 2800 cals, 640 g carbs, 1% fat, 91 g protein + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stm.rm
Oct 28th, 2012: W122 lbs; 1700 cals, 29 g fat (15%), 218/40 g carbs, 152 g protein; Power workout, stretch, Play

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Owly]

I like to wear slightly longer thin socks that I can put the legging bottom over rather than under. But this time of year they look fantastic with stylish boots. You wear the boots over the leggings, thus eliminating the whole sock exposure problem.

[Leida]

I can't wear boots all day in the office, my feet are too sweaty and uncomfortable I know, I know, i am high maintenance! I think I will try to knit leg warmers. Though at my pace they will be ready by 2014-2015, sometime, lol!

Anyway, as I said schedule this week is crazy. Managed to fit in decent cardio yesterday, but I have to drive to get on time, so shorter walks

This morning, crzay, Jack3D workout: kept the weight the same, but shortened the breaks to 45 sec. Gosh, I wish gym opened up at 5:00 not at 5:30 am. I am sooo envious of 24 hrs fitness facilities. But, then again, can't complain given how much I get with my rec centre.

Aimed for 600 cals yesterday, but 3 oz of turkey meat just did not cut it, after weighing the bones from the neck and the wind, I over-drafted it by... twice. Still under 900 cals, and get protein in. Still went to bed hungry, but slept decently. Trying for another day like that today.

Also, seem I got sensitized to eggs, mostly I think egg whites, had a crappy, horrid indigestion spell after eating a cup of ew with 2 eggs yesterday. Normally, I don't care for a little bloat and stuff, but that was actually bad enough to consider laying off egg whites. I really hope that hemp proteins makes it this week, I will need it this weekend if ic an't have egg whites. Gonna try 2 hole eggs today if it fits in calorically, see if I am okay with whole eggs, and it's just massive dosage of egg white that makes me sick now.

Week 3: (~ 126.2 lbs to ---)
Oct 29th: W: 126.2 lbs, 860 cals, 38 g fat (40%), 12/1 g carbs, 107 g protein. walking : ~ 60 min, X-trainer 45 min, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 30th: W: 122.8 lbs, Depletion W/O #1, 20 min X-trainer (HIIT), tbd

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to 120.4, 17.6% BF)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs; 900 cals, 38 g fat (39%), 33/9 g carbs, 108 g protein; Depletion W/O #1, 20 min snow shov, 60 min walking, stretch
Oct 24, 2012 W:122.7 lbs, 970 cals, 47 g (43%) fat, 35/5 g carbs, 101 g protein; Depletion W/O #2, 20 min X-trainer, stretch, 90 min walking
Oct 25th: W: 122.9 lbs, 1064 cals, 62 g (51%) fat, 26/4 g carbs, 99 g protein, 40 min learning cable pulls & BP with a PT; 16 min X-trainer+ 25 min recovery swim; 25 min walking against the current in the lazy river (counted as stretch), stm.rm; MS+play (shopping, belaying)
Oct 26th: W: 120.5 lbs, 1400 cals, 200/19 g carbs, 25 g fat (15%), 101 g protein; Intensity WO, walking 70 min, tabata (9 sets burpies, 1 set JJ), stm.rm
Oct 27th, 2012: W:120.4 lbs, 17.6% BF (WW Scale); 2800 cals, 640 g carbs, 1% fat, 91 g protein + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stm.rm
Oct 28th, 2012: W122 lbs; 1700 cals, 29 g fat (15%), 218/40 g carbs, 152 g protein; Power workout, stretch, Play

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Leida]

Okay, the 800 cals did not happen yesterday. Slightly over 1000 cals. Woke up bloated this morning, and had a bad sleep, probably extra coffee/Jack 3D. Never managed to sneak in a stretch, running late, my husband get held up as well, so just not happened.

The good news are that hole eggs are fine. I am just reacting to the plain egg white. I guess, it's time to stock up on tuna, lol.

This morning I had a brief but intense session on the elliptical, will try to fit in a brief walk at lunch & trick or treating, of course. It's pretty cold out so I don't think we'll T&T for long....

I am tempted not to keep track of calories today, not that I am going to eat any candy or fruit, or gods forbid anything grain, but lox and veggies and the mushroom cups stuffed with sausage and celery are just too hard to count since they are non-standard food. This week is non-perfect anyway, with workouts on the wrong days & judging from my weight a maintenance is the best I can do. Cleaner carb up this weekend is the must! Oh, well, we'll see.

Week 3: (~ 126.2 lbs to ---)
Oct 29th: W: 126.2 lbs, 860 cals, 38 g fat (40%), 12/1 g carbs, 107 g protein. walking : ~ 60 min, X-trainer 45 min, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 30th: W: 122.8 lbs, 1015 cals, 50 g fat (44%), 36/11 g carbs, 109 g protein. Depletion W/O #1, 20 min X-trainer (HIIT), 60 min walking
Oct 31st, W: 123.8 lbs, tbd, 35 min X-trainer

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to 120.4, 17.6% BF)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs; 900 cals, 38 g fat (39%), 33/9 g carbs, 108 g protein; Depletion W/O #1, 20 min snow shov, 60 min walking, stretch
Oct 24, 2012 W:122.7 lbs, 970 cals, 47 g (43%) fat, 35/5 g carbs, 101 g protein; Depletion W/O #2, 20 min X-trainer, stretch, 90 min walking
Oct 25th: W: 122.9 lbs, 1064 cals, 62 g (51%) fat, 26/4 g carbs, 99 g protein, 40 min learning cable pulls & BP with a PT; 16 min X-trainer+ 25 min recovery swim; 25 min walking against the current in the lazy river (counted as stretch), stm.rm; MS+play (shopping, belaying)
Oct 26th: W: 120.5 lbs, 1400 cals, 200/19 g carbs, 25 g fat (15%), 101 g protein; Intensity WO, walking 70 min, tabata (9 sets burpies, 1 set JJ), stm.rm
Oct 27th, 2012: W:120.4 lbs, 17.6% BF (WW Scale); 2800 cals, 640 g carbs, 1% fat, 91 g protein + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stm.rm
Oct 28th, 2012: W122 lbs; 1700 cals, 29 g fat (15%), 218/40 g carbs, 152 g protein; Power workout, stretch, Play

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Leida]

Looking at my weight behavior, I think I will have to cut back from 3 day carb-up to 2 day carb-up as I did originally. So, an extra carb and calories depletion and cardio day tomorrow & start carb up on Saturday with an Intensity-Tension workout. Obviously, this week is special, with extra caloric load during Halloween (but I was probably rather low carb still, since I was just eating mostly cheese, lox and stuffed mushroom cups, but I did have almond butter and yogurt to keep myself out of the sweets, of course). Anyway, not so bad, but probably will pile up a couple of lbs as a result. Hopefully will be able to drop it next week, back to 120. Heh, yet another time starting with 122 lbs.

Week 3: (~ 126.2 lbs to ---)
Oct 29th: W: 126.2 lbs, 860 cals, 38 g fat (40%), 12/1 g carbs, 107 g protein. walking : ~ 60 min, X-trainer 45 min, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 30th: W: 122.8 lbs, 1015 cals, 50 g fat (44%), 36/11 g carbs, 109 g protein. Depletion W/O #1, 20 min X-trainer (HIIT), 60 min walking
Oct 31st, W: 123.8 lbs, ~ maintenance calories, nc; 35 min X-trainer, ~60 min walking
Nov 1st, W: 124.1 lbs, tbd, Depletion WO#2

Week 2 (~ 123.4 lbs to 120.4, 17.6% BF)
Oct 22, 2012 W: 123.4 lbs; 980 cals, 47 g fat (43%), 34/9 g carbs, 109 g protein; 60 min walking + 45 X-trainer (SS), 15 min stretch, stm.rm
Oct 23, 2012 W: 124.1 lbs; 900 cals, 38 g fat (39%), 33/9 g carbs, 108 g protein; Depletion W/O #1, 20 min snow shov, 60 min walking, stretch
Oct 24, 2012 W:122.7 lbs, 970 cals, 47 g (43%) fat, 35/5 g carbs, 101 g protein; Depletion W/O #2, 20 min X-trainer, stretch, 90 min walking
Oct 25th: W: 122.9 lbs, 1064 cals, 62 g (51%) fat, 26/4 g carbs, 99 g protein, 40 min learning cable pulls & BP with a PT; 16 min X-trainer+ 25 min recovery swim; 25 min walking against the current in the lazy river (counted as stretch), stm.rm; MS+play (shopping, belaying)
Oct 26th: W: 120.5 lbs, 1400 cals, 200/19 g carbs, 25 g fat (15%), 101 g protein; Intensity WO, walking 70 min, tabata (9 sets burpies, 1 set JJ), stm.rm
Oct 27th, 2012: W:120.4 lbs, 17.6% BF (WW Scale); 2800 cals, 640 g carbs, 1% fat, 91 g protein + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stm.rm
Oct 28th, 2012: W122 lbs; 1700 cals, 29 g fat (15%), 218/40 g carbs, 152 g protein; Power workout, stretch, Play

Week 1 (~ 125 to 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF)
Oct 15, 2012: W: NM; 835 cals, 30 g fat (32%), 23/11 g carbs (10%), 123 g protein; ~ 100 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 16, 2012: W: 123.5 lbs; 995 cals, 56 g fat (50%), 20/5 g carbs, 106 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 1; 90 min walking + 15 min stretch
Oct 17th, 2012:W: 125 lbs; 1150 cals, 62 g fat (47%), 27/7 g carbs, 120 g protein; UD2.0 Depletion 2; 90 min walking (with a bit of jogging) + 15 min stretch
Oct 18th, 2012: W:123 lbs; 985 cals, 42 g fat (38%), 28/9 carbs, 119 g protein; ~ 70 min walking, 40 min SS X-trainer + 15 min stretch
Oct 19th, 2012: W: 122.5 lbs, 1390 cals, 18 g fat (12%), 198/12 carbs, 106 g protein; ~ 40 min walking/20 min jog, Intensity Tension W/O, NO stretch
Oct 20th, 2012: W: 121.6 lbs, 17.8% BF (WW Scale); 2500+ cals, 600 g+ carbs + Creatine Load; Moving Slow+Play, stretch, stm.rm
Oct 21st, 2012: W:122.3, nc but clean; Power Workout + stretch, MS+ Play

[Leida]

F**k, f**k, f**k, f**kity f**k

Gosh, I really LOVE how I feel right now, but hate how I look. Grr. So conflicted. I am compromising by keeping myself more fed, but hoping to be able to push more intense fitness. I doubt it will take the 10 lbs of fat off, but I want to see if I can even further improve my shoulders & keep ignoring my gut and saddle-bags on the thighs. I feel very well, but I look fat, of course, as I always do after cresting 122 lbs.

My shoulder is much improved after over-training injury (will I ever learn?), so I am kicking of my new programe.
The goal is 2x swimming (front kroll, no slacking!), 2x lifting max and then to failure; 2x strength balancing excersises + standing at work and walking and elliptical HIT as much as I can do without over-training and messing with the rest of my life.
I have been feeding a lot lately, so my weight is up, higher end of 120's, I am following slow carbs diet (basically primal + a cup of beans almost daily). In nutrition my goal is potato only carb-ups, nothing else allowed.

I can't even define my goals any more beyond fixing my sleep & making sure diet & fitness does not take my life over. I have written down my goals of doing specific things with my daughter on a weekly basis in addition to her afterschool activities and home work (pool 2x, reading new books, puzzle making and family Zumba if there is an opening and she is up to it).

I am not recording walking and standing at work - I now do it daily, so what's the point?

3 December 2012: Abs and elliptical (~ 30 mins maybe), stretch, pool play
4 December 2012: Light lifting (tried to do failure squats with 95 lbs, but it was too light, this Saturday I will do 100 lbs after 2-3 reps on ~ 135-140 lbs; did weighed tilt with 22.5 lbs and shoulder blades on the bench, sidesteps with 17.5 lbs, and 75 lbs 5x5 of split-squats + myotic crunch and Torture Twists; still owe myself Cat Vomiting exerciser); 20 min elliptical HIT
5 December 2012: stupid crazy day so all I could fit in was ~ 30 min walking and 25 min front kroll (>1K) - My kroll is much improved with Ferris tips, so I am going to build it up to 40 min (about a week at this rate) and start working on the flips so the swim is continuous.
6 December 2012: PLAN: Strength Balancing workout from Ferris: kneeling chops and lifts, 1 legged deadlift, TGU with 8 lbs and maybe some rope jumping; plus Cat Vomiting and Planks/Push-ups

Friday is swimming & Saturday I am starting the Max-out lift + 7 reps to failure, doing SQT and BBR + Myotic/TT

Weight is crappy so far this week, but I am psyching myself for potatoes only Saturday and if it goes well - Sunday as well.

Been trying to train my brain to vividly see things so I can apply the self-hypnotic technique to start abhorring stupid fruit FOR GOOD. Fingers crossed!