Weekly Recap 4
The 20%: 2 pieces of homemade poppyseed cake; split pea soup; tea with white sugar; lots of tortilla chips the one night (at least... like 30?? I dunno didn't count); 1.5 super sugary chocolates; probably more mayo that is usually acceptable to my normal 20%; 2 bites garlic cheese bread; few sips of Dr Pepper; a tiny bit of noodles in my tomato soup; London fog (probably had more sugar than i would have liked)
Felt like I was losing some of my resolve this week. I mean, I DID avoid A LOT of bad stuff AS WELL, but it just felt like my hardest week. I think mostly I was just at a super low emotionally, which makes everything seem that much harder. I basically have one more week left. Kind of. Then I'm going camping and I'll be back for a few more days. But I'll figure that out later.
I'm just really tired. These last few weeks have felt like I'm on a diet and I hate it. Primal has never been a diet to me. But in these circumstances that's exactly what it feels like. I give a serious kudos to those out there that can do primal while being surrounded by people who are not primal. It is hard, and it sucks. I feel deprived and bitchy, and that's not how I normally feel. Primal's always made me feel completely satisfied and full of abundance, right now I feel the opposite: it's turning me into a monster.
But the problem is, I'm not willing to stop being primal. So I'm just sort of stuck.
Okay I should stop being such a baby, and just get over it. One more week. Then fun times camping. Also fun times coming up tomorrow - going to a winery for a girls' day out. I just need to forget last week and start again and readjust my attitude. I'm not sure how I'm going to do this... hopefully having a fun day out will help tomorrow.
Sorry, I really hate being such a downer. I will try my hardest to be more positive this week.