I'm a fucking idiot. Everything was going great, then I got tired. I should have napped yesterday - I could have, if I'd chosen to. I ate too much steak, which started an IBS flare. So then I was on meds for the pain, and feeling horrible as well as tired.
Today I went to a place I'm not familiar with for lunch. It was a tense lunch, because I kind of know the person I went with, but don't know him well enough and I wanted something from him. So I followed his lead, had a curry (at least I had the common sense to check that it was dairy free), naan, poppadom, and a glass of wine. I didn't like any of it very much. Then had a kind of tour with him (he's a lovely person, so it wasn't a hardship at all - just not really comfortable) before I dropped him off. Then I decided I was thirsty and without any kind of conscious thought I was in the supermarket.
On the plus side - no aspartame. On the negative, some mango slices, jellybeans, and Ch'i (flavoured with stevia). Mostly it was gross, but now I have the shakes and am so bloated that even my trackpants feel confining.
Here ends my rant. I'm going to pretend that today hasn't happened, and get on with eating clean. And get some decent sleep