Crazy busy at the moment, and have been struggling a bit with motivation. Yesterday I had a miserable time - I went to Auckland to a workshop on how to fill out these stupid forms I'm working with, and the woman who ran it was waffly and confusing. I nearly cried. I binged on sugar.
This morning I have lots of energy and have been really focused. But I also know I have to do something more about the sugar problem. I took my herbs, like a good girl. I know for sure that the craving would go away if I drank a coke zero. That's the feeling I'm looking for, and the taste. Since I'm not going down that road again, my mind focuses on sugar and it's like I don't have an off switch.
So - lack of motivation, tiredness, mood in the dumps, bloating and sugar cravings. That's my life. Oh, and guilt because I have so much to do and I'm just not getting through it. Blech.
So far today I'm fasting. If I have time, I'm going to read JS Stanton's paper on hunger and see if I can spot a different approach. For now, my main (maybe my only) focus is on not going backwards and sucking down that diet drink.
I can totally see how I've caved all the other times I've tried to detox. This is hard work! It'll be worth it when I come out the other side, though