Last edited by oxide; 06-11-2012 at 05:34 AM.
5'0" female, 44 years old. Started Primal October 31, 2011, at a skinny fat 111.5 lbs. Low weight: 99.5 lb on a fast. Gained back to 115(!) on SAD chocolate, potato chips, and stress. Currently keeping food tracker.
I (try to) follow by-the-book primal as advocated by Mark Sisson, except for whey powder and a bit of cream. I advocate a two-month strict adjustment for newbies. But everybody is different and should tweak Primal to their own needs.
Your answers say it all, there is no rationality in them.
I'll see a doctor but I don't want to be weighed.
Can I get a referal on the basis of anxiety or depression?
I'm eating less calories than my body needs every day,
Then you say, I'm trying to eat healthy.
You are in denial of a problem, you admit it on an academic level, but not from your heart.
How is anyone supposed to help you if you aren't truthful with them.
You need to let go of this food obsession for now, stop counting calories at all.
You need to focus 100% on your exams, make some commitments, set some goals.
eg Once I finish my exams I will organise to see a doctor, until then I need to eat well, sleep well & look after myself so I can do my best in the exams.
Walking is an excellent therapy to clear your head, do whatever you need to just to push it back for a little while, knowing you will deal with it in the near future.
Make up a little mantra like:
My Body & mind needs nutrition.
You need to keep telling yourself this, every time the food thing comes up in your head or make up a mantra more appropriate for you, but you have to eat to get well.
You're telling her that she's not about to die, and I agree, she's not about to die from starvation. But her heart (let alone other vital organs) might be very, very far from healthy, and that's why I'm urging her to see her doctor and, along with that, really open up to a therapist.Ribbons, if you are 5'2" and ~ 130 lbs, you're not about to die. It's a healthy weight.
No need for us to argue; we're all on the same side here. We all want Ribbons -- and anyone else suffering with an ED -- to get the help needed to become healthy.
Btw I don't count calories on purpose anymore. I haven't done that in weeks (my sense of time isn't very good at the moment so I really don't know how long it's been). Like I said before, I'm not under-eating. I can't let go of the obsessions though and I'm not thinking straight so tell me if anything I said doesn't make sense.
A doctor's sole purpose is to make sure that your body -- whether or not you're embarrassed about it -- is working and is healthy.
The very fact that you don't want to go to someone who would see if you're actually healthy, someone who can help you, because you're embarrassed about your body, speaks volumes. You have an eating disorder, Ribbons. You need to get help. You need to get healthy.
You need to stop making excuses ("I logged into the site but I think they were busy"; "I don't want to be weighed"; "I don't want any sort of physical check-up because I'm embarrassed about my body") and start taking control. Right now, you are not in control. Your eating disorder is in control. You're stronger than that. You can take control of your life, right this very second, by making a doctor's appointment. Right now.
Be in control, Ribbons. Get to the doctor pronto.
Go do it.
If that is what you need to do then do it.
Make an appointment, tell the doctor you are suffering from anxiety & depression and you would like to speak to a psychologist/psychiatrist to help you work through this problem.