Originally Posted by Ribbons
This is the most amazing thing you've written in the entire thread!!! Do you think you can say that to the doctor? Even if you have to be alone with the doctor without your mom? May I ask how long you've wanted to lose those rolls of fat? (the doc may ask you this too, so you should probably have an answer) Yes, the doctor has to weigh you, they all do that. But ask the doctor if you're healthy. Is there good muscle on your shoulders? Is your heart beating like it should? Are you strong? That sort of thing.
I have to disagree with billp on the number of calories. 900 calories is not enough, true. But I don't think you'll starve on it, not yet, and it's certainly better than what you're doing now. The reason I asked about 900 is that I think it would help you if you had a constant number of calories a day, even if it's low. You're yo-yo-ing between 0 and 2000 and it's confusing the hell out of your body. Get used to eating a little and you can worry about ramping up later. IMO, it's more important that you don't freak out and have the bad thoughts that you had the other night.
[To be honest, I'm not sure about 2000 . On a normal (wheat) diet, I lived on 1200 a day. On Primal I think I'm closer to 1500, but I don't keep track. At your height you need a little more, but 2000 might be a wee bit too much, especially now.]
Are you trying primal? Have you been through carb flu or anything like that yet?
900 Primal calories will likely fill you up, until you get used to it.
What do you usually eat on a 2000 calorie day, the days that freak you out?
5'0" female, 44 years old. Started Primal October 31, 2011, at a skinny fat 111.5 lbs. Low weight: 99.5 lb on a fast. Gained back to 111 on sugar cheat. Currently fighting off sugar/candy cravings with bulletproof cocoa and a little rice.
I (try to) follow by-the-book primal as advocated by Mark Sisson, except for whey powder and a bit of cream. I advocate a two-month strict adjustment for newbies. But everybody is different and should tweak Primal to their own needs.