Ribbons, I have a Jewish mommy too, and I know them well. She wants you to be healthy, happy and alive! She wants this more than she wants you to get good grades and pretend that you're doing okay. You need to tell your parents how you are feeling ASAP!
Cutting yourself? You must talk to someone, anyone, as soon as possible. Ideally you parents, but anyone will do. Could you phone a friend? A cousin? Maybe an aunt? Who is your normal fall-back? If you send me you parents email address I'll happily tell them for you.
I need to do well at school so I can get into a good university. Otherwise I have no idea what I'm going to do next year.Actually, this is about the last time in our life when school matters. Up until now it has all been about school, but in less than a year (Jan 2013) it is all forgotten and you are officially grown up. Doing well or not at school stops mattering very soon, and it never matters again. So don't worry about the school stuff. Eating as little as you do is going to affect your school performance anyway, but what really matters is your own health and happiness, not school.
Thanks but no it's ok, I used to cut more and then I stopped for a while and now I only do it when I'm extremely stressed.Cutting yourself? You must talk to someone, anyone, as soon as possible. Ideally you parents, but anyone will do. Could you phone a friend? A cousin? Maybe an aunt? Who is your normal fall-back? If you send me you parents email address I'll happily tell them for you.
Nope, bodyweight is not related to starvation mode. You are either starving or you aren't, at any weight. It takes weeks of very large eating to get out of starvation mode. It doesn't happen with one meal, or even ten.I thought you had to be at a very low body weight though... And anyway if I was in starvation mode I'd be out f it now because of the amount of calories I had yesterday.
Yes, it is a property of wheat. It is why most people here don't eat it. Rice and starchy veg are fine. As hungry as you are now, wheat would actually be fine for you too.Yeah I know that I lose weight when I'm not eating grains and sugar and stuff but is there something in wheat that makes you put on more weight than other carbs like rice and starchy vegetables?No one knows why Anorexics feel like that. The only solution is to eat more, as that improves the mental processes and gets you out of that state. You can't think your way out because it is a mental condition. You have to eat your way out.I don't know why but I feel like I'm failing when I eat or when I'm full, even though obviously not all food is fattening.
Racing certainty. Your life and health is much more important then delaying some exams, and it should be obvious that anxiety about your exams is a primary cause. Taking your exams later or even dropping back a year doesn't matter in the slightest. Anyone can see you need an immediate long break from school and school related stress. This kind of thing (resits, dropping back a year, etc.) happens all the time and just doesn't matter in the long run - unlike your own health, which is the only real thing of value you have. I resat my own similar exams at 18, and it was much easier the second time round.Wow, no, there's no way I can do the exams later. I'd have to fail year 12 which isn't necessary since I'm not that bad. I wonder if my "eating disorder" is my way of procrastinating because I can't cope well with the stress of school.
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Please tell someone around you.
I taught HS physics for a few years. I had a student tell me he was cutting, I went straight to the social worker and from there nobody else in school found out.
My DH is a HS social worker. If he heard the things you are posting here from one of his students, he would send them straight to the hospital. You NEED help, like yesterday. Stop worrying about how others will react, you will get through this.
I coached a HS sophomore last summer. She was bright, athletic, a pleasure to get along with. From the outside it appeared that she had a great life. I spoke with the mom at the beginning of this calendar year and found out shortly after I stopped working with her that she started treatment for an ED. Her parents had high standards and did expect a lot out of her, but dropped everything to help her. They rearranged everything to be sure she was getting exactly what she needed to start feeling better. They even recognized that playing on a lower level sports team was better for her because it meant less pressure. I suspect your parents will have a similar response.