You know, when I had my hysterectomy I totally freaked out, too. I don't know what the deal was, if it was the medications they had me on or being confined in a bed and surrounded with tangled tubes and wires and not being able to really move plus having these rubber cuffs puffing away on my legs and the whole deal, but the first night there I just started freaking out. I was overwhelmed with panic and fear. And even though I was in my right mind and knew my panic was unreasonable I couldn't help it. I totally freaked out. Fortunately my mom pulled a full-on Terms of Endearment scene on the nurses until they gave me something to help calm me down. I can only imagine how much worse it would be if you were not aware of what was happening, how confusing that would be.
Female, 5'3", 48, Starting weight: 163lbs. Current weight: 135.
Starting squat: 45lbs. Current squat: 145 x 4.