Sounds like you need more fat for sure. Since you've not found a good source for grass fed yet, maybe think about using coconut oil in your cooking? Also, it's no sin to eat conventional meat if that's all you can get. Is it ideal? No, but sometimes we have to make compromises. It's better than feeling hungry all the time! US Wellness ships directly to you, so that is an option I suppose. Also check out Eat Wild and Local Harvest (links under resources on this site) to find local sources of grass fed and pastured critters that have been treated well. Good luck!