I'm sorry because you probably already said and I missed it, but why no butter? (I'm not eating it myself right now, so I do understand.) Is it a dairy intolerance? I'm asking because most people, depending on their dairy sensitivity, can still tolerate butter, and if not that, ghee (which is super easy to make, or you can buy it for a premium), b/c it's only the fat, no proteins or sugars to cause problems.
Along the same lines, a lot of people with cravings find they can't eat coconut products like cream, milk, flakes, manna, ... but can eat coconut oil ... just the fat. I'm one of those, too. Coconut milk or manna gives me the obsessive gottahavemore feeling, and does the same bleh stuff to my digestion that dairy & grains do (but on a lesser scale). I don't expect that to last forever, just till I fix my gut of the damage all that gluten did to it...
We all thought we just had bad habits, until we learned by experience that giving the body what it needs "miraculously" heals all those habits and makes eating well a no-brainer activity.
I get lard from the drippings of the meat I cook, by skimming the cooled fat off the broth I make, and by rendering (simply means "melting") the fat out of the big hunks of pork fat that come with my pig. You *might* be able to find some rendered or unrendered lard at Whole Foods or something similar, o rby using eatwild.com to find a local farmer who sells it at a farmer's market near you, but what you don't want to do is buy it at a regular grocery store, where it is almost guaranteed to be hydrogenated! (don't worry, it'll say so on the label)