Hey skittles -
So I haven't been doing great. Monday and Tuesday were fine, and I'm actually pretty impressed that I haven't craved my usual dark chocolate squares after meals. Maybe I'm breaking the mental reflex.
Anyways, yesterday was the 4th and I went down town to see the fireworks with a friend. She's been depressed lately because it's her favorite holiday and first without the ex...so I felt obliged to drink wine in a box and sulk with her. We bought Kettle Corn. WHY DID WE BUY KETTLE CORN?!?!?!?! It was so gross yet I still ate half the bag. Curse you wine-in-a-box-induced munchies!!!!
Then I came home and had a piece of cheesecake. I had been avoiding the ice cream in the freezer all day, and then my mom makes cheesecake. I.love.cheesecake. It's delicious. And it was delicious, although a store bought graham cracker crust so not even the best. Why do I self sabotage. Day 3 is always the hardest....
I also had a really improper lunch, both yesterday and today, which I think affected it. Was in a hurry yesterday so had a bunch of chicken and sweet potatoes and nuts and a few dried fruits (how can anyone eat more than one dried fig? It's a whole freaking fig!!!!) Dinner was rushed too...some more chicken and out to see fireworks. Probably why I was craving food last night. Good one jeeves.
So today was fine. Lunch was nuts at the farm because I had nothing else (forgot to pack and didn't want to come home). Also some snap peas from the field. No chocolate again. Bought some delicious raspberries at the farmer's market, but my trip there is so quick. Almost makes me upset that I don't have to go to any of the other farm stands because that's where all the attractive hippie farm boys are. Oh well.
Anyways, tonight. Dinner was cod and swiss chard. I used to love this meal, but now I dread it because it never ever ever fills me up. Cod lacks in fat! SO I had a spoonful of almond butter afterwards with some cherries and am now feeling sated but also a little bloated because I've eaten a lot of nuts in the last two days.
Tonight I have a date, and we're going for bowling and pizza. Gah. Why did I agree to this. At this point it would be awkward not to eat a slice. I'll see what happens, but chances are I'm going to feel like yuck tomorrow morning after eating pizza. Will try to keep it to one slice and call it a day. Either that or I'll pocket a bunch while he goes to the bathroom and leave them in my fridge, but I feel bad doing that because I don't want my family to eat this stuff. Gah! Dilemma.
So.freaking.exhausted at the farm today. Really didn't think I was going to make it, and I think it comes from major dehydration. Need to keep on top of that, but I drank ~4 liters of water today and was still parched. mom suggested gatorade, but I can't imagine putting that ish into my body.