Have you had any thoughts or feelings that this might be putting you back on that old rollercoaster again? At one point, I'd considered doing something similar after getting my thyroid straightened out, just to see if I could enjoy the health benefits without making myself crazy with the regular cycle of restricting and all of the psychology involved. Knowing me, I'd drive myself nuts and my perfectionist tendencies would rear their ugly head. I'd hate to get back to those all too familiar negative feelings about eating and food in general. Maybe it could be a different ballgame once everything else is optimal, though. We'll see.....or maybe we won't!
I hope you're able to nip the stressing issue in the bud and keep yourself from falling into that trap again! "Happy" is so vital to this whole process. You've got plenty of time to reach your goal, too - you'll get there by whichever method you employ, I'm sure of it!
Life is not a matter of having good cards, but of playing a poor hand well.
- Robert Louis Stevenson