I already know this, but it bears repeating: there is an inverse relationship between the amount of sleep I get and the amount and strength of carb cravings I get the next day. I've been taking a class that meets once a week, and ends at 10, which means I get home at 11. My roommate's dog AND cat died yesterday (oh my god, horrible) and she needed to talk to someone. I have to say, I was not the best person to talk to because I was falling asleep standing up.
There is also an inverse relationship between the amount of sleep I get and how much I care about any given thing. Work, sex, working out, being creative, or even being able to have a conversation with another human being. I'll be 31 in two weeks and 6 hours of sleep basically leaves me a carb-crazed zombie who could give a sh*t about sh*t. (I guess the good thing about NOW -- being Primal for almost 2 months now (wow!) -- is that "carb-crazed" means eating 3 squares of Lindt thins first thing when I get to work without even caring. And then stopping. Not a whole package of Oreos. I guess that's pretty great.)
I've just signed up for a 2-month acting class that meets on Sundays until 9 (earliest bedtime then would be 10pm), and Mondays until 10 (earliest bedtime would then be 11). UGH. I guess I could basically be saying goodbye to faster weight loss for the next two months, right? Having had a lot of sleep before this class, I'm realizing HOW IMPORTANT sleep is in my ability to handle stress.
I am not doing very well in stretching my food budget, even thought I've ballooned it. And then I look at my Mint, and I realize that even though I set a budget for food, I have obviously spent a part of it (a lot of it) on non-groceries things, and that is why I am left with chicken sausages, eggs, and bacon for the rest of the month. I read about Paleo Plan (Paleo Plan | Making the Paleo Diet Easier) on Tim Ferris' blog -- I wonder if it would be helpful to me with grocery planning. Or maybe I'm lazy and can do it myself. Or maybe it is like training wheels, and it will teach me how to do it myself.
I'm probably exercising too early on LR, but it makes me feel so good. I'm standing taller, walking more firmly on the ground. I feel more graceful and supported.
There's also a direct relationship between my dairy consumption and my weight. I've had like 4 small cups of cottage cheese in the past 2 days and my weight has shot up again. Good lord.
On the other hand, not eating after 4pm is helping me fall asleep as soon as I lay down, which is new. If I do get hungry, it sort of goes away. It's like, it's okay, you do your thing, I'll be back tomorrow. No need to get all freaked out about anything.
I've also been considering the idea that weight is somehow a protection thing. I've had my share of stuff happen that, if I think honestly about it, means I feel it's unsafe to be a slender, attractive woman. I have a lot of ambivalence about it. I think the best way to counter that is to take up some form of martial arts -- so I can protect myself should I have the need. Then I won't have to hide in this biological fat suit.