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    Let's get the party smiled! (Primal Journal of thesmilingone)

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    I figured today that I really need to share my thoughts and experience with others, publicity seems to be a great motivator for me, so here I come

    First of all, my goals:
    1. now that I have regained my healthy weight, I want to maintain it
    2. get rid of this frigging ED because I'm really fed up with it
    3. lose fat to reveal my precious muscles and make my favorite jeans fit just as they were meant to


    How I'm gonna achieve my goals:
    1. this might sound familiar: eat whole, unprocessed food; in my case this means plenty of chicken (crispy chicken skin for dessert, yum!), tons of broccoli and cauliflower and apples (and a whole lot of other veggies and fruits, but these are my absolute favorites)
    2. eliminate any form of grains and sugar
    3. eliminate even those sugar-free cakes and sweets, they really are not worth it
    4. "ease into it"; I tend to be too rigorous with myself, I need to take it easy and bring back joy and the ability to relax to my life
    5. with the help of my newest greatest passions: Hot Iron training (aka body pump), TRX and yoga


    As for my eating habits, I figured it is best for me to have one meal per day, but I usually make it a real feast. I prefer to have it sometime in the afternoon, usually around 3-5 pm. On training days I might have a protein shake if I feel the need for it.

    So today had been a pretty good day to start with. I had a great Hot Iron session in the morning, took a long walk around the neighbourhood and just enjoyed myself.

    In terms of food, I consumed a whole roast chicken with zucchini and eggplant, and ate apples with cinnamon for dessert. Then, to my great surprise I was craving sweets, so I bought a piece of sugar-free cake and a bar of sugar-free dark chocolate. And I found I didn't like them as much as I did before, which kinda reassures me that it's not really the "food" I need.

    *Note to self: I have had some really low-carb days (under 50g), and this seems to induce sugar cravings. Gotta see how I get on with higher carb intake.
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    Hello, Smiling One.

    ED? I am notoriously bad at figuring out acronyms. Or even remembering ones I used to know.

    Yup, that sounds like a feast all right. Yum. Have you been doing the one-meal-a-day routine for long?
    5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
    Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
    Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

    More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
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    ED = eating disorder
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    LOL. Thanks Hedonist. You always seem to have my back.
    5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
    Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
    Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

    More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Judg View Post
    Hello, Smiling One.

    ED? I am notoriously bad at figuring out acronyms. Or even remembering ones I used to know.

    Yup, that sounds like a feast all right. Yum. Have you been doing the one-meal-a-day routine for long?
    Well, I've been experimenting since Christmas, and I found the one-meal routine about the beginning of March, a little more than a month ago.

    About my journey to the stars today:
    I kicked the day off with a killer TRX session in the morning. I was totally destroyed, sweating like never before, couldn't put a sentence together for hours afterwards... And I've felt awsome ever since!

    As for my feast of the day: I had 2 roasted chicken legs with cucumber and tomatoes, and a huge bowl of apple-banana-pear salad and washed it off with peppermint tea. Told ya I'm gonna up my carbs a bit

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    Yesterday was a kind of disaster.
    I felt too sore from TRX to do anything else, so I just took a walk to my workplace, about 45 minutes. Did some yoga there during the day, but that was all. I had a terrible headache on top of it.

    As for food, I was just eating my way through the day: chicken liver, 3 roasted chicken legs, 2 spears of broccoli, 2 apples and a pear. That's what it's like when my good old friend ED strikes, I just want to eat and eat again and again even when I'm already full, I feel like I just need to eat more. However I know I have eaten enough, I'm just unable to stop till I hit a certain point. And I feel terrible afterwards, both physically and mentally I must stop this!

    Today I'll "throw in" a 24-hour fast to let my body rethink what happened and to make myself feel a bit better.

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    Hmm, I hope you don't mind me saying so, but I think you're trying too hard. You're saying "that's all" for what is a perfectly acceptable level of activity. And missing the very important emphasis on vegetables. Just two pieces of broccoli?

    Remember, four out of seven days, just move slowly. That's not copping out, it's good. That's where the fat gets burned.

    And if you need to eat, you should eat. This isn't about deprivation. Make more of it vegetables and you will be perfectly fine. I find the compulsive need to eat dies away when I give myself permission to eat. Take the time to rejoice in your food.

    And don't beat up on yourself when you do overdo it. Tomorrow is another day. You're not competing to win a prize here, and if it takes a little longer to get to your goal, well, a year from now it will be totally irrelevant.

    *hugs*
    5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
    Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
    Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

    More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
    - Lewis Mumford

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    Quote Originally Posted by Judg View Post
    Hmm, I hope you don't mind me saying so, but I think you're trying too hard.
    You seem to see right through me
    Impatience, that's my greatest vice, paired with being too harsh on myself and thinking too much. That's why I try to incorporate PB into my life, to be able to "ease into it" and let all the thinking and restrictions go. For more than two years now, I've been obsessed with calorie counting and weight loss which led to... well, anorexia (pancreas-inflammation more or less marked the beginning of my anorexic period), and then as it usually happens, it turned into bulimia and now I'm struggling with compulsive overeating.

    Worst is I know perfectly well what I should do: I overcame so much already since january, this really is the final stage. I must let go of all the calorie counting and I must find a way to keep my mind busy because when I don't have anything to do, I start to think about food and what I can eat and what I cannot and that just triggers overeating. These two steps are the last ones to take and I'm really close. But I will be even closer tomorrow. Every day is a new chance to live the life I should have lived long ago.

    Oh, and, today's pros: Hot Iron training in the morning, then some light rearranging of the shop and being totally nice and helpful to all customers

    And I'm looking forward to tomorrow's TRX session! I'm swimming in sweat just at the thought of it!
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    I lost my pre-primal weight by consciously developing a better relationship with food. A couple of my mantras: eat real food, and eat with joy. And like I said, I gave myself permission to eat pretty much whatever. But then I concentrated on eating good things, and almost never got around to the "whatever". Lots of honking big salads, which I savoured with great enthusiasm. I had to laugh when I saw Mark's BAS video; it was so similar to what I did.

    I can't help but thinking you could benefit from a similar approach. Stop thinking in terms of negatives and deprivation, and consciously love your food. Have all kinds of delicious veggie snacks ready to go. You can't get fat eating vegetables as your go-to food, you can only get healthy. By giving yourself permission to eat them whenever you want, as much as you want, with guilt-free joy, you will probably eventually destroy the foundation of your eating disorders.

    It is to me a profoundly significant thing that God made all the physical necessities of life such pleasurable things; I see this as a revelation of his love and also an indication of how I am to live - with joy.

    I did have a bit of difficulty when I first considered going primal; the thought of giving up all the grain-based foods that I loved so much was hard. It wasn't for nothing that I binged for a couple of days on carbs. It was a negative, a prohibition, and I reacted rather badly. But I was planning a trip out of country, so I decided I would cut back on grains during that time, without worrying about getting rid of them altogether - it would have been really tough to make such a major change while eating at restaurants or at the homes of old friends. Again, giving myself permission to cheat made it much easier, and I actually cheated very little. And now I am dealing with it by seeing it as a choice in favour of my health. I am not depriving myself of grains, but choosing a vibrant, healthy life. And there is a lot of amazing food to be enjoyed nonetheless. So I enjoy it.

    So there you are, that is my suggestion - don't choose deprivation, choose joy. Eat as often as you like, but eat both wisely and joyfully. While I am a great believer in intermittent fasting - yet another reason why I found PB a fairly easy choice - in your case it might be better to concentrate on eating a little more often to develop a better relationship with both your body and your food. Of course, you are the best judge of what will work best for you, but there is something to consider.
    5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
    Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
    Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

    More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
    - Lewis Mumford

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