Primal Journal - Siobhan page 28

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Oh Siobhan the spider story is impressive - sounds so yuck! And having to bend over to clean up tenacious spider guts doesn't sound like the best thing for your back either! I am also not into large fast critters in the house with me! I am ok with them being outside but they just aren't welcome in my home Growing up in South Africa there are no screens on the windows and the house is far from 'sealed'. You have to share with all kinds of critters from rats and mice to gecko's and spiders, mosquitoes, large moths etc etc. However I can tell you now that if I ever moved back there I would make a plan to have screen installed as it makes your life so much nicer when you don't have invasions of whatever is in the mood for visiting!! I have a few fun stories about night time escapades with some of them

I am so glad to hear you are feeling somewhat better ... And I am so sorry to hear the nasty remarks made about your thoughtful gifts esp. from your own family! Wow! I love bookmarks and think that a bookmark with a personal touch is special indeed. But then I always have a number of books being read at the same time and need lots of them Glad you found some folks who could appreciate them!

I'd be up for a cup of tea and a big t-bone steak - just got done eating a ribeye with my fingers.... they're all greased up and ready to go -lol

[Siobhan]

Well, my back has taken a horrible turn for the worse. I actually had to leave work last night, something I have never done in my life. I was doing okay, I bent over to pick up something from the floor and POWEE! Can you believe, my doctor was actually at the hospital doing an outpatient procedure. I went into the ER to beg the ER doc for a muscle relaxant or something and there he was. It was like heaven-sent. The Flexoral or whatever it is doesn't really do anything but make me sleep, but sleep is pretty good right now. At least I am sleeping instead of lying in bed in agonizing pain. I got up and tottered around, took care of the kitties. They are very puzzled by this turn of events. I had to go to the grocery because I was out of cat food, wouldn't you know. Although I think the short walk was good for me. In fact I know it was. I'm not going to spend much time on the computer but I do want to record this in my journal so I can look back later. Have no appetite whatsoever. Ate a fried egg this morning. Food of all types is disgusting. Probably the medication. I should choke something down because this is no time to fast. I am very thirsty, though, and drinking a lot of water.

One of my co-workers is having an open farm day at his goat farm on Sunday, I hope I am better by then! He has baby goats and lots of goat products. I love goat milk soap, just the thing for my sensitive skin.

I need to get into the shower and clean myself up. Just the everyday maintenance stuff is so hard. I have cleaned up after the cats and now I need to clean up me. Sure wish I could pee standing up. Now I know why some people have those raised toilet seats.

Just made a doc appt - I don't think he can do anything but I feel I should go because if I have to miss more work it will look really bad if I don't go to the doc. No one thinks I am faking it or anything, but I want to be above suspicion if you know what I mean. The first thing people ask is "did you go to the doctor?" and if you say no, there is a long telling silence...like if you were really sick, you would have.

Well, I should set out on my errands now. Hope there are no spiders in the shower.

[KerryK]

I am so sorry you are not doing well. Are your friends or your ex-husband back from their trips? Now would be a good time to let them know what's going on and perhaps let them do some shopping for you or just be aware you aren't doing well. I sure hope you get better soon!

Thoughts are with you...

[Sabine]

One thing that gave my father relief when he had his back troubles was hanging (pull-up style) from the door frame, sort of letting his body weight pull him straight. Just throwing it out there for what it is worth- I'm sure you have 101 pieces of advice, why not 102?
Thinking of you.

[Siobhan]

Oh yes, that is a good one! I've been hanging in the living room doorway, it has a large frame. Won't take my whole weight of course, but doesn't have to. Weight bearing exercises seem to work the best, although they can be hard to devise. My ex has offered to come up, I told him to hold on and see if I improve. If I'm not better towards the end of the week I'll ask him. I don't feel weird about asking him to do stuff, for some reason, whereas I feel a bit weird asking my friends to do things like clean out the litter box and maybe wipe down the bathroom (I'm a bathroom clean freak) and do some laundry.

I ate a hot dog and 3 large strawberries.

[JudyCr]

Sending you healing energy right thru this awesome iPad

[Siobhan]

Thank you, I feel it...

Had eaten so little today I had to force feed myself some chicken sausage and an egg. I am sure the meds are killing my appetite, probably by causing some low-level nausea. Still, I am feeling a little bit better. I no longer scream in agony when I get up or down, and I can find a comfortable reclining or semi reclining position to read or listen to music instead of the relentless pain. So progress is being made. Sorry to be so boring, if I have any readers you are probably saying to yourself,
"hope she gets better soon, because this is pretty damn dull." Yes, it is!

[Judg]

No, I hope you get better so you won't be in pain. At least you are being taken seriously. Hope they can get to the source of all this.

[Siobhan]

A little better this morning. Slept quite well. Of course a narcotic will do that. I'm not going to take anymore though - I'm past that stage for certain. Pain is still bad but I'm pretty mobile. I can't believe I'm not getting bedsores as I have spent a great deal of time lying on my bad side. For some reason it feels better to lie on the bad side.

The roofer is coming soon, so I had to rouse myself and make myself semi-presentable. At least wearing clothing instead of pajamas. Did I mention the roof is leaking again? It is. Had two really bad places last fall that got fixed, now a new leak has sprung. I'm glad I don't own this place. It's a money pit.

Can't stand to think of eating. I ate a pear this morning because I had to eat something to take pills and that was the only thing I could imagine getting down. Hate to break my fast with carbs but what's a girl to do? This is when protein powder would come in handy. Drinking gallons of water, thirsty, thirsty, thirsty.

Roofer is here, he likes my kitchen. Men always like my kitchen.

[Sabine]

Did you read Mark's post on fasting for healing? Hopefully, your body is throwing all its focus on fixing you up. A pear is probably all it wants to handle at this point.
Glad you are feeling better enough to post. Not too much at time at the computer, though! Be careful.