Primal Journal - Siobhan page 163

[Coll]

Sounds like a really good swim could be good for what ails you. So sorry you're feeling blue ... I hope the feeling passes soon. Sometimes there is no explaining it, but it doesn't mean it isn't real, or difficult. Sing your heart out. Sometimes a good cry is the only thing that works for me. Praying for you tonight... hugs {{}}

[Pedidoc]

Well, here I am at work. Still melancholy. I don't know why.

Been pretty uninterested in food the last few days and the scale said 132 this afternoon.

Perhaps the holidays. Other than the cats you were alone for Thanksgiving and you haven't indicated how you are spending Christmas. As a society we are conditioned to be with family/friends/people then and maybe you are lonely? I'm worried about the disinterest in food, as with the melancholy it could be a very mild depression. Of course, I'm not diagnosing via a forum. Just throwing it out there, that you need to make an effort to do what you like. Swimming, plays, music, meeting friends for a movie, fighting the cats for tasty primal eats! . Tis the season for melancholy - I have a touch because all my chicks won't be home for the holidays. Unfortunately, it's not affected my eating... . Keep journaling Siobhan, we are listening and are here for you.

[JudyCr]

SS, are you still slinging your hammer? That makes me feel silly and happy.
Research taking L-theanine on an empty stomach everyday. I take one and can tell a difference.
Also, I have a good friend who added the l-theanine and takes St. John's Wort Gold and swears by that.
Sure hope you get to feeling better; holidays probably playing in there, for sure.
Ever since my dad died I have to fake a lot of glee this time of year. Big hug.

[Sabine]

The ghosts can hear you. I bet they love it. Their own private caroller.

Hope you are feeling more the thing this morning (whenever you wake up).

[Judg]

Well, here I am at work. Still melancholy. I don't know why. I've been singing Christmas carols. (No one can hear me, I'm alone in this wing at night.) Also practicing the songs for Sunday. I don't particularly like any of the choices. But it is the first Sunday of Advent. Also Communion Sunday and the Greening of the Church. A really nice day.

Been pretty uninterested in food the last few days and the scale said 132 this afternoon. I don't think it is real, it is just because I haven't been eating much. Despite my tapioca bread gluttony (which wasn't all that bad) my intake has been pretty low.

Wish I could go swimming.

Well, not eating very much tends to produce real lower numbers on the scale...

Check your PMs.

[Siobhan]

Thanks so much for all your good thoughts. What a time. This morning about 5 AM I got called to see a patient - one of those very difficult situations where the patient is having respiratory symptoms but they are secondary to another more serious problem that needs to be addressed. After arguing with the nurse about giving a breathing treatment vs. giving anti-anxiety medication, I caved and gave the breathing treatment. The patient was so agitated and although a couple of people were helping try to calm and hold her, she managed to tear off the fingernail on my left index finger. And yes, this hurt just as badly as you might guess. Luckily the ER doc on last night is totally cool and my favorite and he bandaged it up for me without stitches and without the masses of paperwork that normally are required. I finished up my morning rounds (why did I do that?) and gave report as usual. The coworker who relieved me this morning are both total idiots and expressed no concern whatsoever about the injury, just asked if I was still coming in tonight. I said yes, but after I got home and slept for a couple of hours, I woke up and called them and told them to find a replacement. Then I decided I was really, really hungry and ate a large meal of two fried eggs, pork sausage (Niman Ranch - highly recommended), and avocado. Made a cup of tea and climbed back into bed. One carnivore snuggled up on each side of me and purred and purred. How do they know what to do? I read for awhile and slept some more. It is snowing and I am awfully glad that I don't have to go out. I have some pain medication but as long as I don't move my left hand around too much it really isn't painful so I won't take it unless that changes. Might have a glass of wine later on though!

Thanks again, everyone. It really helps to know there are people out there thinking of me and wishing good for me. This is a great community.

[JudyCr]

Oh my, that was hard to read, I know it hurts.. So glad you can stay in!!
Your cats know exactly what their mom needs, bless 'em.

[Pedidoc]

I know personally how bad that hurts! Wishing you speedy healing and a relaxing day snuggling with the cats.

[Judg]

Ow! Please get better quickly.

Sounds like your coworkers are suffering from compassion fatigue. Apparently when lawyers are choosing juries for suffering compensation type cases, they avoid medical workers and pastors. They are too used to dealing with human suffering and don't go into paroxysms of sympathetic pain... Which doesn't make for juicy settlements.

Here's to cats and hot drinks and snow out the window!

[Sabine]

Ouch! I'm glad you are taking the night off. (Honey wants to know if you 'talked' - as in, that sounds like torture.) I hope it will be bearable tomorrow. I'm sending you a mom-kiss for it. You know those are the best for making boo-boos (even big ones) better.