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    Indeed - we have a haunted Opera House right here in town! I believe it dates to the 1890's. There are many stories about ghosts there, many experiences in the recent renovations that have been carried out.

    I have another ghost story from my time at this hospital, and a second-hand one from a co-worker. I will type them up soon. Oddly, these sightings aren't frightening - mostly just puzzling.

    Well, I think I am mostly back to normal. Last night I was watching the news, and compared to what many are experiencing and will continue to experience, I have absolutely nothing to complain about. Really, being without power here is okay except for that annoying alarm malfunction. In other places I have lived, everything was electric and without power it was horrible, but not here. I can be warm, cook, shower in hot water, wash my dishes, listen to the radio, and read with my battery-powered lights. I have several friends that would gladly put me up if necessary. My car is all fixed, and it was less than the estimate. I took it to the car wash and cleaned the interior thoroughly. It is all gassed up and ready for anything. They told me, probably just make me feel better, that it wasn't as bad as they usually see - usually the spring breaks and ruins the tire and sometimes even the wheel. But I brought it in right away and saved myself a lot of damage. Well, like I said, they were probably trying to make me feel better.

    The repair place gives gift certificates when your repair bill is large - I got one for a little cafe that I like in the town. I can stay pretty primal there. Had a nice breakfast - eggs scrambled with roast beef and coffee with real cream. I also swam and pushed myself really, really hard. Felt good! There were disabled people there and once again I realized how fortunate I am.

    Yesterday I went to the animal shelter and played with the cats. I saw one of the housekeepers from work who was adopting two truly wonderful kitties. I was playing with them before I knew she was adopting them! I am so glad they are going to a good home. Then I sat in a rocking chair with another cat, a beautiful little white cat with pale gray spots on her head and tail. So friendly! A real lovebug. I can't stop thinking about her. I really can't get another cat...they also have a really nice pug who fortunately is also going to a good home.

    Time to chill out with a book.
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    Well, that was a weird experience, wasn't it? I have no explanation for ghost stories. I just think of that line of Hamlet's: "There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamed of in your philosophy." But for it to be so very clear is really strange. I can't say I've ever experienced anything of the sort. My supernatural experiences have all been directly related to God, and generally involve knowing something I couldn't have known otherwise, or having my car pull over to the side of a road to pick up a hitchhiker when I definitely had no intention of stopping, that kind of thing. And yes, that was really weird... Happened twice in the space of a year and then never again. I do sometimes get a quiet knowing when I'm praying of whether that request will be granted or not too. And it always works out that way. But nothing creepy.

    It sounds like all your stressors are working out very well.
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    Okay, here is my second story -

    Another night at this same hospital, I was delivering some equipment to the OR, which is normally deserted at night. In fact the entire corridor is deserted at night; just some offices that are not occupied after 5 PM. But it is not unusual to see people there. Cleaning staff, obviously, all of whom I know. And often patients walk there.

    I had just come out of the OR and saw a woman at the far end of the corridor, the end that is farthest from the rest of the hospital. She was quite young, had long dark hair parted in the middle and was wearing a Johnny gown. I often recognize patients, as this is only a 32-bed hospital, but I didn’t recognize her. Young women are often on the obstetrics floor, and I don’t know them, but they usually don’t come down to Med/Surg. But young patients often walk the corridors. She seemed to be in distress, however. She was just standing there at the end of the hall, and I had the impression that she needed help. I spoke to her, saying something like, “Can I help you? Would you like to go back to your room?” She turned to me and raised her arms. I had no sense of anything unusual. I walked towards her and suddenly on her gown appeared a large stain in her groin area. I ran towards her; she looked at me; she was white as a sheet. As I got close to her, she vanished.

    I wasn’t afraid, but I was stunned. I just stood there for a while. I think part of my brain still thought that it was a patient – that I needed to find her or something odd like that. Eventually I went back to my office. Later I saw a housekeeper at the entrance to the corridor, and I asked her if she had seen anything unusual. She asked if I had seen something and I just said yes, but didn’t go into details. She said, “I haven’t been down there. I won’t go down there any more. Evelyn does this corridor, she’s not afraid like I am.” I said that I hoped the cleaning was already done and no one had to go down there this night. She said yes, that it was done.

    The next morning, as I had done before, I told my colleagues what I had seen. The 30-year veteran said that used to be the maternity ward in the bad old days.
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    I thought that ghosts were supposed to haunt places because they were murdered. Somehow a miscarriage doesn't seem to qualify...

    But that is definitely very strange. Disappearing patients... Was all this recent? And you've seen each of these only once?
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    Yes, within the last two and a half years. I haven't had to go to that wing for the hospital for several months, ever since we switched to a new electronic filing system. I'm really happy about that, not because of the sightings but because I really hated the filing.

    My scale said 136 this morning! I am happy because I was afraid my new low was a fluke. But since it has held for two days I am hoping it is real weight loss. I feel like I am in a losing phase again, if that makes any sense. I'm not hungry all of the time, as I was for awhile, and I feel I am exercising good portion control.

    Last night I had a salad with chicken, bacon, avocado, and blue cheese - big favorite of mine. This morning tea with heavy cream (just a little - when I use heavy cream I measure it carefully). To be honest I prefer just a splash of milk in tea. I'm hungry but I don't feel like eating, so I will wait.

    Also last night I did a cleansing prayer ritual. I burned sage and walked around to each area of my house, saying prayers from my Celtic Daily Prayer book. I feel that after everything that has happened there is a need for a fresh start. Now I am going to go to my car and do the same thing.
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    Yes, the phases make total sense. Expecting a linear progression in weight loss is what makes no sense. Life never moves in straight lines. I find I go through times of loss, and times of maintenance. And I think that is the most natural and safest, wisest way to lose weight.

    As for the sightings, the closest I can get to understanding ghosts is the idea of a psychological shadow. You know how in Hiroshima, people left imprints on the sidewalks and it was all that was left of them? Maybe traumatic deaths leave something similar behind, in the sense of a psychological shadow. The person isn't really there as such, but their shadow lingers for a long time. Ghost stories are so universal, there has to be something to them, but my theology really doesn't accommodate them too easily...
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    Yes, the phases make total sense. Expecting a linear progression in weight loss is what makes no sense. Life never moves in straight lines. I find I go through times of loss, and times of maintenance. And I think that is the most natural and safest, wisest way to lose weight.


    This also seems to be true metaphorically!

    As for the sightings, the closest I can get to understanding ghosts is the idea of a psychological shadow. You know how in Hiroshima, people left imprints on the sidewalks and it was all that was left of them? Maybe traumatic deaths leave something similar behind, in the sense of a psychological shadow. The person isn't really there as such, but their shadow lingers for a long time. Ghost stories are so universal, there has to be something to them, but my theology really doesn't accommodate them too easily...

    As I am both deeply religious in a fairly traditional sense and a scientist (largely self-taught) I think in terms of string theory and quantum mechanics, which have not yet been reconciled in a purposeful way. The me that sat at this computer at this time yesterday is just as real as the me that sits here today. Perhaps there are ways to see the me of yesterday?

    Speaking of being religious, I performed the cleansing ritual prayer in my car this morning. I drove to a boat dock near a bridge spanning a river - a crossroads of sorts. I lit the sage and read the prayers out loud, going through it twice. Then I drove around for a little while. A great peace came upon me and I had the feeling that all will be well. I also got the idea to plan a short road trip as a demonstration of this faith. I have been so fearful of driving my car any distance that I have done little except go to work unless someone else is driving. That is no way to live. Perhaps a short weekend in Portland? (Maine) Or maybe in Freeport? (Home to L.L. Bean and many other shops and activities)
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    Quote Originally Posted by Siobhan View Post
    Yes, the phases make total sense. Expecting a linear progression in weight loss is what makes no sense. Life never moves in straight lines. I find I go through times of loss, and times of maintenance. And I think that is the most natural and safest, wisest way to lose weight.


    This also seems to be true metaphorically!

    As for the sightings, the closest I can get to understanding ghosts is the idea of a psychological shadow. You know how in Hiroshima, people left imprints on the sidewalks and it was all that was left of them? Maybe traumatic deaths leave something similar behind, in the sense of a psychological shadow. The person isn't really there as such, but their shadow lingers for a long time. Ghost stories are so universal, there has to be something to them, but my theology really doesn't accommodate them too easily...

    As I am both deeply religious in a fairly traditional sense and a scientist (largely self-taught) I think in terms of string theory and quantum mechanics, which have not yet been reconciled in a purposeful way. The me that sat at this computer at this time yesterday is just as real as the me that sits here today. Perhaps there are ways to see the me of yesterday?

    Speaking of being religious, I performed the cleansing ritual prayer in my car this morning. I drove to a boat dock near a bridge spanning a river - a crossroads of sorts. I lit the sage and read the prayers out loud, going through it twice. Then I drove around for a little while. A great peace came upon me and I had the feeling that all will be well. I also got the idea to plan a short road trip as a demonstration of this faith. I have been so fearful of driving my car any distance that I have done little except go to work unless someone else is driving. That is no way to live. Perhaps a short weekend in Portland? (Maine) Or maybe in Freeport? (Home to L.L. Bean and many other shops and activities)
    String theory, quantum mechanics - I am quite unschooled in these things, although at least I know a wee bit. There are things that are difficult to resolve in the physical universe too, aren't there? Which is why I am not too concerned about not having an explanation for everything. Nobody does. But ultimately what I want more than anything else is to know God, and to know him truly, not to worship a construct, either of my own or anybody else's making. And in the here and now, to be as faithful to him as I know how. And this informs pretty well every part of my life, or should.
    5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
    Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
    Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again

    More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
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    Well, fighting some stress again. I drove to work - on the highway - the car is so loud! I mean, it seems to drive just fine, but it is noticeably louder. I will tell you something - I am changing mechanics even though it will be quite inconvenient.
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    what kind of noise is the car making? you thinks its related to the repairs that were just done?
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