I just came off a 20 hour fast. Ate dinner at 8 pm last night (normal for summer dinners with hubby's late nights at the boatshop), dinner was only a chopped salad and some chicken, a little too heavy on the dressing though. This morning I was out the door by 8:15 am to take MIL to the doctor. She's a 25 minute drive away. I was thinking it would be a fairly short excursion. However - the doctors visit took 45 minutes after exam, counsel, flu and pneumonia shots, and a blood draw. Then she wanted a breakfast sandwich from micky-D's (yuck, by you know what - she's turning 89 in a couple weeks - at this point she can eat whatever she wants if it makes her happy ) - then when I got her home I found out she was out of a very important eye drop so I had to call the pharmacy and go get that for her. Then, there was a stop at BIL's shop, and another at my mom's to drop off her laundry that I did yesterday. UGH........... then I stopped at a fabric store after fighting through construction traffic and I spent WAY too long there! (but I did find fabric for the valance re-do in the 5th wheel) - and I didn't get home until 2:30........... then I de-spiderized the yard so I could mow without being eaten by a thousand nasty spiders.......... UGH! then I finally cooked up 3 eggs! I was starting to feel a bit fuzzed brained from going so long without food. Actually without water also cuz I forgot to grab a bottle before I left this morning. So now its nearly 5 pm --- and I'm exhausted! I'm going to suggest hubby pick up something on his way home and I'm having left over salad with salmon - unless he wants that too - but I doubt it since we just had salad and chicken last night. He gets bored with too much salad. but I'll send him a text and see what he wants. Hopefully he won't say salad - cuz then I will have to run to the store for more salad fixin's.
MIL is getting so forgetful! She can remember the year, the president, her birthday, stuff like that. But she can't remember that last night she was told numerous times by several people that she was going to her PCP today. She thought I was taking her to the eye doctor. Thats NEXT month. Today was a BP check, but she was totally taken by surprise when we pulled up at her doctors office. I wondered why she had all her eye drops in a little bag with her. ?? She kept asking me if I knew about the change - yes, I made the appts. No change - just an unexpected doctor visit to get BP meds re-upped at the pharmacy. She's such a sweet lady........ so gracious and kind. It breaks my heart to see her failing. In all honesty none of the family expected her to live long after Dad passed away. But he's been gone for nearly 7 years now. They were married for 65 years! Served as missionairies to India for 37 years! They are the most wonderful I've even known in my life. I love MIL WAY more than I love my own mother --- if can find a way to "measure" love that is. She is nearly blind now. Glaucoma, Macular Degeneration and now muscle atrophy behind her eyes. She doesn't understand why she can't see and keeps wanting to go to the eye doctor for them to fix it. There's nothing they can do. I'm going to talk to the family and see if I can get the ok to have the eye doctor fully explain to her what is wrong with her eyes so she knows there is nothing they can do at this point. I can't make that decision, it needs to be made by her 4 sons.
You can see that my heart is heavy for her today. I love her so and hate to see her in this stage of life. I feel honored to be able to serve her by taking her to her doctors appt and doing little for her. She always thanks me and say she's sorry that I have to do things --- I tell her I do them because I love her and she is never to be sorry! I feel that God has blessed me with a "mother" in my MIL --- since my own mother never was much more than a figure to fear and provide a meager home for me. MIL is my "mom". I hope she knows how much I love her.