Fibromyalgia and Fat - Tomi's story page 75

[tomi]

I share your fears of no SS... I have a bit longer to go before retirement though... try 35 years compared to your 15... I think even after I retire though, I'd have to have a part time job doing something I love - not for the money, but for the joy of doing the work. Currently, I'm dreaming of working the garden center at Menards! lol Or at a nursery (garden nursery) like Wallace Garden Center or something like that.

I'm amazed that you can keep your calories so low. I always feel so unfulfilled when I eat 1200 or fewer calories. Maybe that will change as I lose more weight and change my body composition more.

I never thought to add honey to my almond butter! Good idea!

By the way, fiber is counted under carbs with sugar, so something is wrong with the calculations CK gave you. Unless CK doesn't count fiber as a carb and pulls those numbers out of the carb numbers for a net carb percentage instead of a total carb percentage, in which case that's could be misleading.

Anyhow, have a nice day at work. Stay warm!

EEESH............ I'm glad I don't have 35 years to go! But, they started saying we wouldn't have retirement benefits from SS when I was in grade school......... that was like a hundred years ago! okay...... maybe 45, but still. I've lived with the "fear" my entire life - of being old and destitute because some government idiot messed with all the money that I paid in for my entire life! I blame the generation before us really....... why did they have so many flippin' babies!!!! Now we have a generation of baby boomers started to draw money out of a pot that isn't big enough to go around! Oh well.......... what can we do? If hubby and I are ever in a situation where we don't have the money to keep the house - we can always live in the 5th wheel, or the boat! We will never be homeless........... I hope.

I would love to be doing something that I'm passion about right now. Working in a gardening store sounds wonderful! But I would spend my entire paycheck on stuff to take home and plant. But I think you're plan is a good one....... spend your golden years doing what makes you happy.

I can do okay on 1200 calories. I know it seems low - but its only 300 calories less than I get by on at maintenance level. Well, maybe in all honesty I complete stay stable at about 1800. I have slowly lost about 5 pounds keeping the calories close to 1500 - but we're talking over the course of 6 months. So, I need to drop it to 1200 if I'm going to really see a steady drop. I still have 53.6 pounds to get to my goal. I'd like to see at the very least 1 pound a week - but 2 would make me totally happy!

I'm gonna look at the carbs a little more......... maybe I should switch to sparkpeople ???? I know lots of people use that one. Normally I'm finding a totally right around 97% - so maybe I just recorded something wrong. Technically the insoluable fibers aren't "real" calories - as they pass through without being absorbed at all. But I don't think it could possibly total 10%!

[Judg]

Well, you know I'm a great fan of losing slowly. But a couple of pounds a month is fast enough to keep people oohing and aaahing, trust me. Half a pound a month is just too slow, even for me.

Find a way to enjoy your alone time. It can be done. And the best of luck with your 21-day challenge.

[tomi]

thanks for the encouragment. I really needed something to latch onto to help me get grounded again. I have been getting a bit lax on my resolve to stay as close to 100% as possible. And of course, that is MY definition of 100%. I still use commercial ketchup and salad dressings, and we occassionally marinade our meat with some store bought concoction that is full of sugar and "bad" oils. For me, absolutely no grains, beans or legumes and very limited carbs - and keeping those other conveniences to a minimum is MY 100%. The amount of those condiments that I consume would be less than 1/2 cup per week, if that. But the last month I have found myself saying - these french fries won't kill me - or this brownie is too small to worry about. Those are the things that I need to purge from my justification vault in my mind!!!!

I will enjoy the time alone - but sure will miss my honey too! I spent 20 years missing him when we were married to others - and now being away from his is almost physically painful. He has been my best friend and soulmate since high school......... we just let our paths veer off in different directions for a while....... Once we found our way back together I realized just how deeply I missed him - and what a hole he had left in my heart when he walk away from me. ...................... oh dear --- that got sappy didn't it???? Sorry. Long story short --- I love the guy to peices!

I have some projects lined up for the 3 day weekend........ as I don't have to take my mom shopping this friday - I will have 3 days completely free! Yeah! It won't be so bad - he'll be home Tuesday night. I can't imagine being away from my husband for as long as you are.......... that must be really difficult!

[Candy in Wonderland]

Go Tomi, Go Tomi!

[jenn26point2]

Tomi, I use my fitnesspal. It's pretty accurate and has a really big database. I've also used Sparkpeople but seem to trust MFP a bit more. I've been at SP since 2006. Maybe it's that I find MFP to be easier to use...

[Judg]

Yeah, the problem with justifications is that once you start with one, the next one is so much easier, and pretty soon there is a crowd of them. So I try to strictly limit the number of justifications I make any one day. A day with none is great! One or two little ones, acceptable. Several little ones or a big one, well, it's time to reset the dial.

Spend your weekend doing stuff that your hubby isn't too excited about doing with you. See all your girlfriends, stock up on make-up, whatever. You won't miss him as much if you're doing things he wouldn't be doing with you anyway. And you're a great projects girl, got a project simmering?

[tomi]

Hubby drove off a couple hours ago with the other 3 guys that make this annual trip. He was so excited - it was wonderful to see the 4 of them all pumped up about spending the next 5 days on a boat in the Pudget Sound! I love that he does "guy" things. The boat was loaded up with all their stuff - a dingy, and 2 kayaks! They still have to do their food shopping....... and boy do they eat well on these trips!!! 2 of the 4 LOVE to cook -- and all 4 LOVE to eat!

So, I started my day a bit earlier than normal - since I got up to see them off. I didn't sleep well at all last night. We went to bed at 10:15, a little passed my 10 pm goal. I feel asleep fine, even with hubby snoring like a grizzly bear! But then I woke up about every hour and had to get up to go pee. I think I pee'd 6 times last night! I also had a nightmare that a friend from hs had died. I have dreams inside of dreams......... its very weird. So, basically I was dreaming about dreaming that a friend had died. I woke up from that dream, still inside the other dream, and had to sort it all out! Then when I woke up completely I had to sort it all out again. I dream in layers........ its very weird. So............ that being said - I'm a little tired today.

I might go for a shorter walk today and try to get in those body weight movements that Mark says are so wonderful! I'll do those first and see if I have any energy for the walk after I get home from work. I go in earlier on Thursdays, so I will have the entire afternoon to walk or bike or garden. It is a gorgeous day in the Willamette Valley!

I feel like I'm losing weight......... but I'm staying off that darned scale until October 1st - my last day of the 21 day challenge. But I plan to continue with the same goals once the challenge is done. If I do well with this I think the weight will come off, I will continue to get stronger and build more stamina, and I will be all the better for it!

I am VERY hungry this morning. I haven't eaten anything yet - but I will before going to work. Eggs that my friend gave me from her very own chickens. Free range? didn't ask. But they have to be better than the mass produced eggs I get from the store. They were wonderful colors - green and almost orange! Easter Eggs straight from the chicken! what fun.

As for projects........ I need to do some fall gardening. Fall clean up - and a little planting. I want to get some perrenials and some crocus bulbs. I have a couple things in the house that need to be fixed, and a good cleaning is in order. I also need to find Sikkens Logs House sealer to seal the pergola before the rain starts. I would also like to start cleaning up the shop and deciding what to do with so much of the clutter and stuff that has gathered in there! UGH! I just know there are spiders in there waiting to bite me! ick!

[Judg]

You don't have to do Lift Heavy Objects and Move Slowly in one day, you know. One or the other will do. Remember, more is not more.

I figured you'd have a bunch of projects in mind. Good for you!

It's nice to only get on the scale when you can feel that things have gone down. When I put my hand on my hips and am surprised by how thin they feel, that's a good sign that there is good news on the scale. Right now I'm feeling fat, because I've jumped up a couple of pounds from my low. It's a normal pattern, but irritating. So I am on a Eat Only When Hungry routine until I've settled at my low point. Not trying to push lower right now, just to stabilize at a lower level.

[jenn26point2]

Spiders.... ick. They're the reason I don't weed my flower bed and need a zero-maintenance garden... Ugh, spiders! *hikes skirt and runs away*

I hope sleep is better for you tonight.

[tomi]

You don't have to do Lift Heavy Objects and Move Slowly in one day, you know. One or the other will do. Remember, more is not more.

You're totally right............. and today I'm feeling very sore and swollen after 6 miles in 2 days. I'm going to take it easy today. I'll do some arm work on the bowflex, and maybe a few push ups. I think my legs need a rest.