Fibromyalgia and Fat - Tomi's story page 6

[jenn26point2]

Hi Tomi! Just checking in. I hope you had a nice weekend.

[tomi]

Hey everyone! It's great to hear the successes and triumphs over the weekend! I had a FABULOUS weekend! the weather was unbelievably beautiful and my husband and I worked on the pergola and put in some new raised beds. And all pain free! We even got in a nice 4 mile bike ride last night.

Yesterday I splurged and had a carmel/mocha frappachino! It was SOOOOO yummy!

So - I'm seeing the doctor in a couple weeks to see if I have issues with my thyroid and adrenals. I hope there is something she can do cuz I've been eating healthy for months - and keeping my calories below 1200 - and the weight just isn't budging. Last week I even did 3 days of IFing - eating only dinner for those 3 days. Still no weight loss. I should be melting away, but I'm still stuck at 189. GRRRR! I did some questionnaire for adrenal fatigue symptoms and it says I have mild adrenal fatigue.

so ----- I'm feeling yucky today ---- IBS is killing me today. Since starting the primal eating my IBS is WAY better but I still have issues a few times a month. Had to call in sick to work. I think I'll just lay low - maybe theres a good old movie on tv or something.

[jenn26point2]

Ugh, I hope you feel better soon. I don't know what IBS is like, but I can imagine it's no fun. Glad you're fibro pain free! Especially after all that activity this weekend! I'm envious of your yard work adventures! I'd love to do a pergola and raised beds. with two young kids (2 and 5) it's hard to keep up with anything, much less start new projects! I bet it's beautiful and would LOVE to see pics!

[KimT]

Hi Tomi, glad you had a great weekend full of lots of fun, exercise, and pain free! I used to have a lot of IBS type issues. There were many times we would eat out and it was all I could do to make it home, sweating and in pain, running for the bathroom, then I would be wiped out for the rest of the night. I have been on a good quality probiotic for a while, as well as taking digestive enzymes, and I haven't really had any issues since. Not sure if you're taking stuff, but it might be worth looking into. If the gut isn't healthy, the rest of the body will be sick, and can manifest in different ways. The doc I worked with did hormonal testing and has me on adrenal support supplements along with the digestives and some other stuff. Good luck wi getting it all sorted out! keep me posted.

[Judg]

Hi Tomi, I'm glad you had such a good weekend too.

My IBS (which the doctor told me was just a function of getting older) has improved immensely as my iron levels have come up. Seeing as excess iron causes constipation, it kind of makes sense that a deficiency would do the opposite. Mind you, it wasn't really severe in my case.

[tomi]

I've had problems with my stomach since I was a teen. I used to take acidophilus - I really should start taking that again. I wish I didn't have to wait 2 weeks to see the doc about the adrenal and thyroid stuff. But what can you do? It will be a slow fix if it the adrenals - so I guess 2 weeks doesn't really matter in the big picture.

Now that the weather is better in the Willamette Valley I will start getting out there and MOVING everyday again! I miss my daily walks or bike rides! In fact, I'm going to work in a few minutes, and when I get home at 5 I'm going for a walk!

I don't know how to post pics on here......... but if I can get it figured out I will post a pic of our backyard when the pergola is done. I'm pretty excited about it! The guy was supposed to come this morning to see about building the center brace for us - but either he didn't show - or he didn't bother to knock on the door and talk to me. GRRR!

Have a great day, girls!

[tomi]

Is it wrong to be happy because we're going to put down our little dachshund? She's got some kind of skin cancer - in fact, both her ear flaps are sorta "rotting" away. One is missing a chunk of the tip, and both have icky spots in the centers. She has black spots all over and now she's starting to behave weird. So - its time, for her sake. But I'm feeling aweful because I'm looking forward to not having her. She's about 12 years old, so we've had her a long time. But she's one of those dogs who are sorta just in the way - no personality. I've never been able to "connect" with her. Unlike all the other dogs I've had in my life - this one is just sorta here. She has some gross habits, and annoying tendencies that have probably hindered my desire to like her. Dachshunds aren't known for being for smart - and training her has been difficult! She will still do her business in the house if the doggy door isn't open, and she much prefers doing her business in the garage rather than go outside. About 5 years ago she developed some kind of allergy or something, the doc couldn't figure it out - and she snorts and sneezes all the time. We've had to ban her from the furniture because she will just lay next to your leg and pee. Even the girls stopped letting her sleep with them because she would pee in their beds. I've been looking forward to the day when we can say goodbye to this one. I've known there was something wrong with her for about 6 months, but couldn't convince my husband so, I've been watching and waiting........... sounds so morbid!

The thing is....... I adore animals of all kinds! (ok, not reptiles, although we have a giant frog in our fish pond that I rather enjoy seeing) So, not liking an animal seems so unnatural and wrong. I feel like I should tell her I'm sorry I didn't love her........... I've always treated her well, so maybe she doesn't know I don't like her. She gets lots of attention and she seems to like to hang around me. But deep down, I just don't like her.

UGH............ This is a feeling I've never had to deal with before. I never met a dog I didn't LOVE. But now as I'm having to say goodbye to her, I feel guilty for not loving her........ actually I feel guilty for DISliking her. Makes me feel like a bad person.

[tomi]

breakfast today - so my vitamins absorb better. I made 2 eggs, and sliced up a left over sweet potato and fried it in butter. YUMMY. Why do they have to make calcium and multiple vitamin pills so dang big! I can swallow 5 or 6 capsules at a time -but I have to take those big ones one at a time. Haven't counted my total pills lately but I'm guessing its about 25. I have to put them in a bowl so they don't roll off the table before I can swallow them. I wish they all came in gel caps cuz those slide down pretty nicely.

So, I haven't tracked my food or exercise in over a week. It feels good to relax about it. My weight is still the same. You'd think with having chronic IBS I would be bone thin! No such luck. Speaking of bones I should probably have another DEXA scan. I'll wait until my doc suggests it.

I figured out how to add my signature and put a picture on my profile. woo hoo.

[Judg]

UGH............ This is a feeling I've never had to deal with before. I never met a dog I didn't LOVE. But now as I'm having to say goodbye to her, I feel guilty for not loving her........ actually I feel guilty for DISliking her. Makes me feel like a bad person.

No, of course that doesn't make you a bad person. There are people out there that I don't click with. That doesn't mean there's something wrong with them, or that there's something wrong with me. It's just that we're puzzle pieces that don't belong side by side. And I figure it works much the same with animals.

I figured out how to add my signature and put a picture on my profile. woo hoo.

Just one small step to figuring out how to add your avatar... (Hint: same as profile, just smaller dimensions.) I like it when people post a photo of who they really are. I find it hard to keep the anonymous avatars straight. In other words, I can identify with people online better when I can actually picture them. And remember who they are too. Hard to keep all the Groks straight just by name.

[jenn26point2]

Hooray for learning how things work!!

Sorry about the dog troubles. I have a hard time liking my dogs too. But I have big dogs... like 80 lb labrador retrievers. One is dumb as a post, but still sharp as a tack. The other is calm but mischeivious. I don't much like the dumb but smart one. They spend most of the year outside in a kennel because they drive me bonkers. They're always in the way, they take up a ton of room, they walk on my kitchen floor and their claws click click click and it drives me nuts. Not to mention the mess their fur makes all over everything. So, for the warm months, they are kennel dogs. In the winter they get to come inside to stay warm. Or in the summer when it gets blazing hot.

My husband loves the dumb dog. I like the other dog. I always offer the dumb dog up for sale or ask people if they want him (as a joke). The dumb dog just drives me nuts. He agitates my anxiety because he is an anxious dog. If you stand up from sitting on the couch, he leaps to his feet. He sneaks out to the kitchen when the kiddos are eating to wait for food to drop. He wanders through the house at night clicking his claws on my floors. He sleeps on my couch when no one is looking. He seriously drives me nuts.

I don't miss him when he's outside, so I don't think you should feel badly about not loving your dog b/c just like we don't like all people personalities, there's nothing saying we have to like all animal personalities.