Fibromyalgia and Fat - Tomi's story page 38

[tomi]

good grief! I came home from work and totally pigged out on almonds! I bet I ate 600 calories! So, I'm pretty much done for the day.

this is what I ate today:
4 eggs
2 thick sliced bacon
2 oz Kokanee
4 oz Almonds (estimate)
4 oz Kokanee, w/ranch dressing

If I want to eat anything else today it will need to be fat free, cuz I'm at 66% fat.

I'm certainly not at be best today.

[tomi]

Friday morning - lots to do today. Cleaning and shopping. Tomorrow is the graduation thing for oldest step daughter and neice. Then Sunday is the party for both, at our house.

Feeling blue......... tired, lethargic, and I don't really give a hoot about anything. I'm wondering if my overdose of cookie dough earlier this week is the culprit. Oats, flour, sugar and peanut butter! Stupid me.......... I want to go back to bed, but I have a guy from the parks department coming by to discuss the need for no parking signs on our street. Ugh.

Its going to be a long weekend..........Usually we want the weekends to last forever. But, this one I would like to be done with quickly.

[jenn26point2]

Sorry you're having such a rough time, Tomi. I hope it's just the cookie dough and it'll be gone in a flash with some purely primal eating. Don't fret about the nuts. Sure you may have gone overboard, but they're primal!

My guess is that SD will be a great big pain in the arse on Sunday since she's not the center of attention. I bet she'll try her dangedest to become the center before it's all said and done. Or she'll pout about it if she doesn't get her way. People like that amaze me.

Do you think maybe the Armour isn't working yet b/c you have the side effect of cookie dough blocking the positive effects of the Armour? I wonder how it would feel if you hadn't gotten off track. Hopefully this weekend you can remain primal and finally see some results from the meds.

I might not pop in this weekend, so if I don't, I hope you have a nice time at the party and that no kids soil your carpet!

[tomi]

Thanks, Jenn ---- I think the cookie dough definitely has had a big impact on my energy all the way around. I'm starting to feel it all lift this afternoon about ready to tackle the housework and other chores needed to put on a great party!

As for SD...... I think you may be right. She loves being the center of everyones attention. To be honest, I suggested we do this joint party for just this very reason and I was thrilled to hear that the parents of the other grad liked the idea also. Also, SD has to work Sunday morning until 1:00 - party is at 2:00 - so hopefully she'll be tired and low key.

I'll get through it - I have gotten through MANY other of their parties, usually with their mom present - so this should be a piece of ..... hum --- not cake....... STEAK! That works! Thanks for the encouragement.

I realized this morning that I ate ZERO veggies yesterday, and only a small salad the day before. So, I'm going to steam some cauliflower and make a mash for an afternoon treat!


EDIT: I made the mash and I ate the WHOLE thing!!!! It was a small head of cauliflower........ but still My tummy is FULL.

[tomi]

So - last night as I woke up for the 5th or 6th time, after having a hard time falling asleep, I remembered reading on here (Jenn?) that women sleep better when the carbs are kept up closer to 80 or 100 grams. I have been sleeping LOUSY for the past couple weeks, and looking back over my logs, I have been averaging right about 45 --- I'm wondering if that is my sleep problem? So - I'm going to up that to about 80 and see what happens. That means I'll have to back on fats - which is very doable. Almost all my fats come from almonds or ghee OR eggs and bacon. Those are all easy to cut a bit.

Any thoughts?

[Judg]

I don't think cutting back on the fats is necessary, personally. Don't overthink this.

I would suggest you try about a week of not tracking at all. Just concentrate on your food groups instead. Get your veggies and protein, throw in a small carb source every day, and make sure you get enough fats. That's it. I think you are wearing yourself out with too many rules and obsessing over details, when they really don't matter that much. Take a cue from your cauliflower experience; if you eat enough veggies you will be nice and full and much less likely to cave on other things.

If the week isn't a positive experience, go back to tracking. But I suspect you will find it both liberating and successful. Tracking works well for some people (Siobhan loves it) but for other personality types, it becomes more problematic than anything else.

[tomi]

Judg - I think you're right. I get so caught up in the "how" to do this......... I forget that relaxing is a part of the equation. I'm gonna take your advice this week and see how it goes. thanks............

Loving seeing all the conversation on the She-groks page. This is exactly why I started it - so women have a place to go to talk about the stuff that men don't want to hear about - know nothing about - and shouldn't be offering advice about. Its great to see!

Had a great weekend and the party for the step daughter and neice went really good. Step daughter was on her best behavior. The whole day was very low key and relaxed. No big hoopla about the graduation and nothing more than cards were offered to the grads. It was really good. Step daughters both hugged me at the end of the day! an added bonus to part on sweet terms. They have given me enormous stress over the years - but I chose to love them the day we all became a family - and love them I have - for better or for worse! I do love my step daughters. Today I saw some huge steps toward maturity for oldest step daughter. I needed to see that to ease some of the negative feelings that have been stirring in me.

Hubby is totally worn out and sleeping on the couch next to me. We've had a very busy weekend with the graduation Saturday and the party today. Better get him to bed................ forgot to take my knock out pills......... better do that right now and let him sleep for a little while longer until the pills kick in to help me go to sleep.

[Candy in Wonderland]

Happy to read the party's been good and SD has been nice to you!

[Judg]

So glad to hear things went so well. We so often work ourselves into a lather needlessly, don't we?

I'm also glad you're going to work on relaxing a bit. I think it's good to track occasionally, to prevent us from going into denial, but for many of us, it becomes a stress factor if we do it daily, and it doesn't give enough back to justify it. I just try to think, "Protein good? Two or more veggies? Have I had a small amount of quality carbs?" And that's my tracking procedure most of the time. I look back a couple of meals and if one area has been deficient, I try to make it a priority in the next meal, or whenever it's convenient. And I remember what Mark says about the average being what matters, not the single-day numbers. Of course, I am the kind of person who hates measuring, and keeping track day after day after day, so it suits the way I'm wired. On the other hand, weighing myself several times a day doesn't bother me or throw me off, like it does for so many people. Go figure. When it does bug me, I just quit doing it...

[tomi]

oh -- monday morning.

Okay - so I ate pretty good all weekend, with the exception of the ice cream. I don't think I'm committed to the whole30 thing anymore. I made it a whole8! that has to count for something. I'm losing my taste for alcohol - and I'm loving that! Hubby was wanting to get some rum last night after the party ended, but the liquor stores were closed (yeah). I told him I wasn't going to have any cuz I wanted to feel good today - not yucky, and rum always makes me feel yucky. Friday night we ate out, he had a drink, I had water.

I never drank at all until hubby and I got married, and I was 40 years old by then. It was a couple years after we got married that I found a good shot of rum would help me sleep when the fibro pain was roaring! And I found that I really liked rum and coke. Then we started having it in the house just to kick back and relax on the weekends. I enjoy the taste, and in all honesty, we have a lot of fun when it makes us a bit goofy headed! I think I was living out my crazy young years (when the 20 somethings are out doing their partying) cuz I skipped that part of life. But, I've been doing some research on the effects of alcohol on the body - and I'd rather learn to live without it, for sure!!! Plus, I hate the way I feel the next day........... blah! I think I'm past that phase now......

Weight is fluctuating as always but today was back at 186.6 --- so I'm good with that. Next goal is 185. I'm not setting any date/weight goals anymore, cuz I never make them. As long as I'm seeing a steady decline that will fullfill my goal. I'm following the advice I got from Judg this week and not tracking - just being mindful, and making sure I'm getting in my food groups.

So - yesterday I had:
B - 2 eggs
Brunch - 1/2 cup of beef biryani (curried beef in basmati rice)
about a cup of Balti Butter chicken
1 papadam (an Indian rice chip of sorts)
snack - ice cream

This morning I'm feeling very hungry - but have no appetite. I think I'll just cook a couple eggs so I can take my pills. Then I need to get ready for work.

Have a good day all!