That's right Jenn, he gave it a try - didn't have a very good experience and is ready to move forward. I'm so proud of him because of the way he's handled things. He's been very careful to do things legally and respectfully, even though his "renters" have not been so mature and kind about it all. And he's been careful to protect himself along the way by not pissing anyone off and having them retaliate. As it is, as kind as he was to the exotic dancer, even protecting her from her abusive ex-bf -- she still stole some things when she moved out, and left a mess for him to clean up. I'll be so happy when he's out of that house and all this is just a bad memory and a lesson learned. I'd like to see him in a newer house in a better part of town.
I'm working on getting my mind in the right place again. Eating clean and keeping it on the low end of the caloric needs, and getting lots of movement is the only way I'm going to reach my goals. Michelle Matangi @ Primal Journey on FB has been a real inspiration to me. She's now doing videos on Youtube and sharing her experience and information. I like her because she is very real -- I feel like we'd be friends if we weren't in different parts of the world. She makes it sound so basic and simple. Her journey was VLC in the way of no starchy veggies, but lots of low glycemic veggies, and then a good balance of meat and healthy fat. She never talks about exercise, but I'm sure she had to do some type of movement. I have been off balance for a couple months -- sorta in that "whatever, nothing works anyway" place. I don't like that place. I'm still not really sure what caused the 10 pound gain. I was eating a lot of cashews at that time - and then I started on the hormones. I just need to get and keep my head in the right place. I'm getting pretty good at keeping my trigger foods out of the house. Nuts are an absolute no-no, as well as chocolate in any way/shape/form. Honestly my biggest hurdle has ALWAYS been mindless snacking - or eating out of boredom. The couple times I've done the "eat when your body is truly hungry" thing I've done pretty good. I guess I've always been a "grazer" But its hard to graze on healthy stuff - unless you always have lots of fruits and veggies at the ready. I don't eat much fruit - except in the summer I will eat melons, but they don't agree with me so much. I don't like raw veggies so that won't work. I've yet to find an affordable and good tasting jerky. I just need to get out of the snacking/grazing mindset. There is nothing wrong with just eating meals and nothing in between.
I made 3 eggs fried in butter at 8 am just cuz my tummy was really grumbling this morning. Normally I don't eat until about 11 am. I'll take a bottle of Kombucha to work with me - that is always enough to get me through the afternoon. But when I get home from work at about 5:00 pm I want something to eat --- and I know dinner won't be until at least 7:00 when hubby gets home. Last night dinner was at 9:00 pm cuz he had bible study. Our dinner is never before 7:00 pm. So - what do I when I get home from work? I've been reaching for the corn chips. I don't pig out - I just nibble - but that's the kind of thing I want to stop doing. Any suggestions?
As for movement.......... I've got the treadmill now - plus I got 3 Barre3 DVDs - and I have the jumprope. My shoulders are keeping me from doing a lot right now. I've decided to wait until after I find out what is happening with our health insurance before I pursue treatment or even a diagnosis. I'm not sure that my current plan will even pay for x-rays or an MRI. Hubby is having a root canal to the tune of $2000 so I need to be careful with money right now. Anyway -- movement is sorta restricted to the treadmill, careful jump roping, and Barre3 that does not require overhead arm movement and absolutely no bodyweight on the arms.
The pain in my right shoulder does not seem to be getting better - so I'm beginning to think it is more than just bursitis. It hurts all the time, even when I'm laying in bed, flat on my back. It grinds and pops and does not move smoothly in the joint socket. So - I think I have either rotator cuff issues or calcium deposits. One article I read said that high levels of vitamin D supplements can contribute to calcification of joints. I have been taking 8000 IU/day for a couple years because I have always been deficient. The last time doc checked my blood she said my vit D was really good and to keep doing what I'm doing. I will need to do some more research on the connection between vitamin d and calcium build up.
Seeing doc today. Well woman exam, schedule the yearly mammogram, get new Rx for progesterone and estrogen cream and request an increase in my Armour (maybe). No night sweats since starting the hormones - but no libido yet either. Its only been a month - and I've only used the estrogen patch about 3/4 of the month because the darn patches won't stay on more than 2-3 days at a time. GRRR.
Okay............ blabbed enough for one day.