Its 12:25 am. I can't sleep cuz hubby isn't home. I don't do well when hubby isn't home. I think we have critters under the house cuz I'm hearing strange noises. Oh joy............. I ask hubby to put something over the access holes to the crawl space. He must have forgotten.
Friday is my weigh in day............. and I'm fearing I will not see the number that will make me happy in the morning. But...... the scale is not controlling me anymore so it won't be so terrible. I ate well today....... or is it I ate good today? either way - I didn't eat anything awful. eggs and fish - that's all. Oh I forgot about the bite of brown sugar. Yes, I love brown sugar. Just a nibble. Its the ONLY sweet thing in the house. I was craving something sweet!!!
I did 30 minutes of Barre3 and jumped rope a little - a very little I also did some triceps pulls on the bowflex. I think I have 30 pounds on it. Maybe 20 - not sure. I don't really care as long as it toning and building some lean muscle. I do 10 very slow pull downs and resist on the way back up. My legs continue to get stronger. I can do a lot of squats now I'm happy with the progress I'm making - but I do wish the weight was coming off a little faster. I've been stuck at 180 again for several days. I had dropped as low as 178 for 3 days and then it climbed back up again. Stupid body! I'm feeling the pressure of the upcoming class reunion. I want to look good. Last reunion I was 216 pounds! Ugh! Since I've seen progress and the scales started moving again I am getting so very anxious too reach my goals! But - I can't control the scale - I can only control what I eat and how I move.
I really need to try to get some sleep. Sometimes when hubby is away for the night I can sleep just fine - but not tonight.