Fibromyalgia and Fat - Tomi's story page 22

[tomi]

Yes, Judg - fat in moderation. Moderation is a word I need to burn into my brain.

Weight is holding steady even though I've made some poor choices over the past couple weeks. A few cheats here and there. I think my resolve is low because I'm not seeing results, and I'm waiting on these tests. I have not developed the virtue of patience, I'm affraid. I'm not terribly impatient - but waiting is a source of frustration for me.

okay - so intestinal report: I think the calcium is helping. Not curing or eleviating, but helping. And at this point, I'll take that. I may need to increase my dose. Right now I'm taking 1000 mg in the morning and 500 mg at bedtime. I might reverse that since I always have the problems in the morning hours. Maybe the higher dose at night will help with the morning issues.

I feel like a never ending science project! What will work to lose weight - what will work to stop the intestinal issues - what vitamins and minerals do I need to get my levels up to normal and keep them there - what do I do about my cholesterol and CRP levels - what foods are going to negatively impact my fibromyalgia --- UGH. I will say, journaling helps. Its gets the thoughts out of my head and someplace where I can see them and organize them and make some semblance of order out of them. Input from others is a big help too - keeps me from veering to far one way or the other - as I'm sure you've learned I am prone to doing.

So, the plan is to get the boat in the water tonight. Hubby needs to replace the alternator, I need to go to the store to get a few things we "need" - like some cheap silverware, a small vacuum, a small coffee maker, a roll up table and a paper towel holder. The lake is 45 minutes away so I hope we get out of here around 6:00 pm. We do have a little help waiting for us up at the lake to launch this ship - so that is comforting. Hubby and I could easily launch the ski boat - but this one is a good 8 feet longer, 2 feet wider and weighs about 6500 lbs more! My biggest fear is backing down that boat ramp and losing the BRAKES!!! Good thing the trailer also has brakes! I'm a bit nervous about this launch........ But also very excited. This is a new phase in our boating experience. We're moving out of the "its all about fun for the kids" stage of life - to "its all about us" stage of life. The summer should be fun! Stay tuned for tomorrows report on how the launching goes!

[tomi]

I've never had bad catfish... lol I use a bit of Chef Paul's seafood seasoning, saute it in butter til the edges are cooked and then flop it onto a baking sheet (lined with parchment paper) and toss it in the oven until done. I'm crediting Primal Cajun with this recipe even though I don't think it's exactly the way she makes it. It's fantastic!

I've never had salmon. We have salmon steaks on display at the meat counter but I've never had it and I'm apprehensive about buying it (expensive) and screwing it up.

Oh - you HAVE to try it! Cook it just the same way you cook the catfish! My mom used to put it on tin foil - add a big dollope of butter and some salt - wrap it up tight and bake it. Not sure what temp or for how long - but it was the greatest treat! My husband and I either grill it on the BBQ, or pan fry it in butter and olive oil. If its a thick fillet or steak you have to cook it slow so its cooks all the way through. When it flakes with a fork its done. oh, if you BBQ it make sure you put it on a plank or on foil cuz it will fall apart and end up under the grill! NOT GOOD! Let me know if you try..........

[jenn26point2]

What kind of freaking boat do you have!?! We have a 17 foot Lowe fishing boat. That's enough boat for me.

[tomi]

What kind of freaking boat do you have!?! We have a 17 foot Lowe fishing boat. That's enough boat for me.

It's a 1989 27' Carver with a 10 foot beam. It has a good sized deck and a full stand up cuddy and separate sleeping room that is below the deck, (so you have to get on your knees before entering), it has a bathroom with sink and toilet - (and shower if you don't mind getting the entire bathroom wet! we'll be "bathing" in the lake, or on the swimdeck with the deck washdown hose) We got a killer deal on it! The guy seriously needed to sell it. He bought it thinking he would be going deep sea fishing - but his first time out he got violently sea sick! Took it home and put up for sale. He was asking way too much, so it sat for a year on consignment. This spring he dropped the price 10K - and my husband snatched up! When we sell the ski boat (Sanger Tournement 20') we'll only be out about $3000. Its basically a camper on the water! Hubby has already got a boat BBQ for it - its loaded up with stuff and ready to launch.

I'm SOOO excited! I'm waiting for hubby to get home so we can GO!

[jenn26point2]

That would be so awesome!! DH and I used to have a camper, but after a while our weekends were too full to really use it so we sold it. Shortly after we sold it, we found out we were pregnant with our son, so it worked out nicely. I miss having a camper, but my kids would need to be older before we'd camp next to the river again! Enjoy your awesome buy!

[Candy in Wonderland]

I want to see pictures!!!

[tomi]

We will enjoy - thanks! I will take some pictures this weekend. It was scary launching the thing! WAY bigger than the ski boat! It has a glitch of some kind - couldn't get it up on plane....... it felt like we were dragging something really heavy! And couldn't get the speed up. Hubby thinks maybe it has the wrong sized props and is going to check that this weekend. Good thing he's a boat mechanic! But, its all safe and sound at that marina now. Can't wait to spend the weekend on it!

So....... Marks report on peanut butter was good. I used to be one of the peanut butter addicts he talks about in the post. I could eat buckets full! and I think it was responsible for a particular 20 pound gain a few years ago. I'm happy to be not eating it anymore.

I didn't eat very good yesterday. bacon and eggs for breakfast, then some sausage links for dinner. Another bowl of ice cream. and then a large bowl of steamed veggies at 11 pm (after we got home from the boat launching) So - lots of FAT - the bad ice cream. I think thats my new addiction. I went for a LONG time without it - but then I found the natural kind - just milk, cream and sugar. That was a bad choice to try that stuff. Then they stopped selling it my store - and I found Tillamock. CLOSE to natural I thought. Okay - let me explain - I wasn't eating the stuff every day --- we'd buy a container once every 2 weeks or so - and sharing the 1/2 gallon with the family it went pretty quickly! But, now my husband likes to have it in the house (its a summer thing for him). So the other day he walks in with a gallon of the stuff! GRRR! I need to stamp it with the skull and cross bones and leave it alone! Put it in the "I don't eat that stuff" catagory, along with peanut butter, bread, rice, oatmeal, cereal......... and this list goes on and on!

I will eat only healthy real foods today! The bad stuff tastes good for a minute - but leaves me feeling guilty and weak minded for days!!!!! So - on that note........ I'm going for a walk now. Will finish my thoughts when I get back.

........... OH - that felt great! What a beautiful morning to go for a walk. 1.5 miles in 20 minutes. We have a great neighborhood to walk in. Lots of older homes with established landscaping and lots a beautiful flowering shrubs. It is a joy for sure! I decided while walking that my next landscaping purchase is going to be a Lilac. So pretty!

Still no word from the doc about test results or the colestid. Calcium report --- I don't know. The first 2 days seemed to be showing an improvement, but since then I've had issues every day. I've increased my dose to 1000 mg in the morning and 1000 mg at bedtime. But, my bones should be benefiting from the added calcium. Just hope 2000 mg isn't too much for my kidneys. Although, I see that MANY of the patients at the clinic are taking 2000 mg a day in divided doses. I think it should be fine. Next time I get vitamin C I'll make sure there is not added magnesium. My multiple vitamin has that in it.

Okay - just random thoughts today....... how boring. Sorry to those of you who bothered to read this........ Please have a wonderful day!

[Judg]

You have a wonderful day too.

Try setting up a negative image of what all that sugar in the ice cream is doing to you. Blood sugar spikes, insulin spikes, fat accumulation, blood sugar crash, fatigue, irritability, depression, oh such fun! Now look at that ice cream and picture it as a gateway to misery. LOL! Seriously. And as long as you're eating more than a smidgeon of sugar, if I understand the science right, you are not going to be staying in fat-burning mode, and you won't be able to lose much weight. Sure, Mark has his square of chocolate a day, but it's just one, and he has had his metabolism running in the right direction for years. We mustn't think that we can have 3, 4, 5 "treats" a day and watch the pounds fall off. We're short-circuiting the whole process.

Another trick I use on myself is to say to myself, "Why don't I save that cheat for a time when it will be more satisfying?" I have always allowed myself to cheat, but I try to push it off until later as often as possible. Somehow "later" is easier on the morale than "no". "Sure you can have that ice cream, but why not wait? Losing weight is more fun anyway."

Good luck! I hope something in my toolbox is useful for you.

[jenn26point2]

If you know someone who has a lilac, you can dig up a shoot and transplant it. Lots of volunteers come off of lilacs. I don't know about dwarf lilacs, but the standard one produces offspring every year.

Ice cream used to be my nightly treat. Ice cream floating in Mt. Dew (do your teeth hurt yet??? lol). I switched that out for strawberries, coconut, heavy whipping cream and occasionally some dark chocolate chips tossed on top. Yummo.

[tomi]

I love the image of the sugar being the gateway to misery....... I'll hang on to that one.

Ice cream and Dew? YUCKO!

Well, the house is dark chocolate free, ice cream free, and rum free. My 3 weaknesses. If I can just convince hubby not to buy ice cream or rum life will be much easier for me. Sheesh - we sound like alcoholic fatties! Okay, we both need to lose a few - me more than a few - lets say 50 pounds........ hubby needs to shed about 25. But I can't get him motivated. He HATES the word diet - and is not interested in a lifestyle change. Its hard eating healthy when the other person in the house wants oreo's and milk every night. I don't cave to that snack - yucky. All that white stuff in the oreo is just gross. But, he brings ice cream into the house and my cravings win! Dang!

Okay -- focus.......I'll try the "later" trick (thank, Judg).

goin' to bed now............. night all.