Fibromyalgia and Fat - Tomi's story page 20

[Judg]

Not recently. I sometimes get that too, but then I know where it's coming from.

Well, it looks like our lives are going to be tracking each other again. My DS is making moving out noises too. I've been all alone before, so it won't be new to me. Of course, hubby will be home for the summer, so the all alone part isn't going to happen for a while. And then hopefully, I'll be preparing a move to the States.

[tomi]

@ Judg -- sure hope you can get your ducks in a row and make the move state side with the hubs. I hate seeing couples living apart for any reason.

I'm feeling so torn about my son moving out. I really want him to - but I'll miss him, and worry about him. His social anxiety issues have greatly limited his exposure to so much of life. But, he's ready to take it on so I am encouraging his choices. On the other hand - I'm SOOOO ready to be empty nesters. When Dennis and I got married his girls were 8 and 11, and my son was 15. We've never had time alone. I'm ready to be alone with my husband!!!!

[tomi]

Mother's Day 2012. It was a good day.

Breakfast was sausage and eggs. Lunch was Butter Chicken and Tandori Chicken - no rice. Dinner was a sweet potato with butter and a little bit of brown sugar. I'm changing out the b. sugar for cinamon next time round - TOO sweet!

The weather has gone from chili and windy to TOO DANG HOT! Typical Oregon spring temp swings. I hate it!

No biking or walking today cuz we went from church to MILs to moms to home, into jammies and crashing! I'm so tired! But I'll be up and walking in the morning!

Hubby is sleeping on the chaise - not sure why he doesn't just go to bed...... purhaps the fact that its not quite 8 pm has something to do with it. He refuses to go to bed before 10 even when he's falling asleep on the sofa! Silly man!

Tomorrow I will mail in the spit samples - I hope to have results by the end of the week. Doc said to make an appt for a week after I mail in the spit thing. So I'll call tomorrow and see when I can get in. Is it wrong to hope for a low thyroid or something to give me answers to my dragging behind? The kelp seemed to make a little improvement in my energy - but not much. I will keep taking it unless doc tells me there is no need.

Intestinal issues boarderline today --- tummy ache and urgent need to use the restroom right after church - but no diarrhea. I'm thinking the sausage gave me a belly ache. I won't eat those again for a while.

[tomi]

Okay - the spits in the mail! need to call and make an appt with doc for 2 weeks out.

Breakfast is eggs and bacon. As always.

Not feeling so good today. My gut is all messed up again this morning. Not sure if I'm going to make it to work or not. I have been taking calcium with magnesium - so I'm going to cut that one and take the kind without magnesium. Might have something to do with the sausage from breakfast yesterday still in my gutt. Its always a mystery.

Was just thinking - maybe I'll go back to tracking things again. I think I was doing better when I was counting calories and tracking my exercise. I think I'm less likely to eat stuff like ice cream if I have to be accountable for it in my logs.

[jenn26point2]

I hope you feel better soon.

I'm a long way off from being an empty nester as my kids are 5 and 2... But the days when DH and I can go out and not have to find a sitter or drag along two young kids and all their paraphernelia are appealing! But not so appealing that I'm wishing for time to pass. I like my wee ones.

[Judg]

Yay for empty nests! At least when we've watched our chicks fledge out and they're ready to take flight. I'm looking forward to my summer alone with hubs.

Tomi, I have very mixed feelings about moving. I want to be with my husband, but it will mean leaving everything else that means home behind: my kids, grandkids, my country and culture, French in the stores, the church where I have been happy for a dozen years. I've been down with my husband often enough to know his colleagues well, and have some real friends among them, so that will help. And if I can get involved with his students in some way, that would be really neat. I love young adults, loved teaching them when I was still working. It's a Christian college, so they wouldn't think it weird if made myself available in some kind of mentoring context, formal or informal. So it would be a relatively happy exile, but it would be an exile.

[jenn26point2]

Where in the states are you moving too? Please say East Central Iowa??? lol

[tomi]

I hope you feel better soon.

I'm a long way off from being an empty nester as my kids are 5 and 2... But the days when DH and I can go out and not have to find a sitter or drag along two young kids and all their paraphernelia are appealing! But not so appealing that I'm wishing for time to pass. I like my wee ones.

Yes, they are wonderful when they are little, but when they turn 26 you will be ready for them to fly the coop! Trust me!

[tomi]

Yay for empty nests! At least when we've watched our chicks fledge out and they're ready to take flight. I'm looking forward to my summer alone with hubs.

Tomi, I have very mixed feelings about moving.

So much of life is a trade off isn't it? In order to have "this" you must forego "that". Being with your husband will mean enormous loss, and enormous gain. I am sorry you will have to let go of so many things in order to gain so many. And purhaps from this side of things it appears you have to give up more than you would gain. Lifes transitions are never easy, seldom painless, and always stressful. But, very often they are the right thing and the best thing when we use our 20/20 hindsight sense. I will pray for an easy transition for you.

[tomi]

Didn't make it to work today. My stomach finally settled down around 1:30. I sent an email to my doc and asked her about taking Colestid for my cholesterol, since it is also used to treat bile salts diarrhea. A win/win if it does its job! Hopefully she will just write me a script and send it to the pharmacy. I won't see her again until June 7, as that is the earliest she had a morning appointment available. She will email the results of my blood work, but the saliva test might have to wait until I am in her office. I'm not sure....... I'm feeling pretty sluggish today. So knowing those results is heavy on my mind. I will so disappointed if all the trouble yeilds no answers. The bruise from the poorly skilled phlebotomist is beginning to fade. It ended up about the size of an egg! ouchy!

The scales were on the low side this morning! I always love seeing a smaller number - even if it is only a fraction smaller. Hopefully this will be my new "constant" and I will never see those bigger numbers again. I can tell I'm starting to lose muscle in my legs from not walking because my pants feel tighter - grr!!! I was planning to get up and walk this morning - but the stomach issues required me to be close to the bathroom. Maybe tomorrow.......... umph!