thanks, Candy! Close - but not close enough. But no regrets.
I haven't walked in 11 days. Weather, seasonal gloom, rum causing sluggishness........... Looking back on last years logs I see that I was in the same place this time last year. I think I went the entire month of Jan. and most of Feb. without walking. I don't want to do that again this year.
Ketostix registered "mild". Demuralist suggested I try an evening test to see if that shows any better. The thing is - I always have to pee once or twice during the night so I'm wondering if my first morning pee is not at concentrated as is would be if I didn't pee all night. So, I'm going to do a bedtime test tonight and see what happens. I've never experienced the metal mouth, sweet breath thing that others talk about. Yes I feel the added energy and stamina, and once I was pee'ing about every 30 minutes. Anyway - I'll just see what the stix says tonight and then again in the morning. That should be sufficient to see if I should be testing morning or evening.
Food yesterday all good! Numbers were all perfect. I slept well Was up early again All good things.
Nothing really to report on a personal note. Things are going great with hubby - libido sunk into the gutter again once vacation was over, but I'm more than willing to "accomodate" his needs. My son is doing great! The step daughters are busy with their own lives and I don't see them very often. Even oldest SD is being nice when I do see her - although still very much totally self-centered and self-absorbed. How hard is it to say "so, whats new with you guys?" or "hey, how was to vacation?" Truth be told, she's not at all interested. I'm having a hard time accepting that. She was telling us about her p/t after school program job and it sounds like she is enjoying being the "mean" teacher that makes everyone follow instructions and isn't affraid to do whatever is needed to make the kids fall into line and do what she tells them. Partly thats a good thing - we need more teachers who aren't affraid of not being "liked" by their students - but on the other hand - she is going to be the teacher that everyone remembers, and hates. Her controlling nature is coming out with this job. She has full authority over these little kids and she's taking it all in! I sorta feel sorry for her students cuz I know exactly what they are dealing with. I expect parental complaints to come at some point.
On a personal note I'm feeling very blah! Winter is not a good time for me. I need to up my vitamin D maybe? I take 8000 units per day now, but it doesn't seem to get me out of the winter blahs. I'm not down or depressed at all - but I don't find a lot of joy in life either. I'm sure we are all feeling the same to one degree or another. Winter in the northern hemisphere is grey and uninspiring.
I'm going to take a shower now and purhaps take a short walk before going to work. Work is picking up and I will need to start planning to get there earlier. I have been working consistantly about 4-5 hours a day now and I still need to have more time to finish the tasks that are being given to me. Its all good. More time on the clock is more money in my paycheck - meaning more money on the mortgage. We decided to forego any "big" vacations until the mortgage is paid off - so that will be my focus. Our 15 year mortgage will be paid off by October of 2021 if I can swing. Thats a 5 year early payoff. I want to hand my husband the mortgage paid in full on our 20th anniversary. and then - I'm going to retire!
1. Love ME no matter what noises are screaming at me, or who is trying to tear me down.
2. Eat to heal
3. Move to live
4. Embrace today
5. Live with intention
6. Respect my body
7. Cultivate joy
8. Find my passion
9. Meditate on peace in my soul