So sorry you're feeling sick, Tomi. Not fun.
I wonder if your body isn't functioning in famine mode, when it hoards every calorie it can get, and tries to pack on weight every chance it gets, and develops very intense cravings for fattening food. That's the result of trying to lose weight too fast, for too long. Our bodies need a break from deprivation, or they go into defensive mode. You might be better off forgetting about trying to lose for a while, and just concentrate on eating healthy and maintaining your weight until it is effortless. Keep in mind, I am not an expert, so I could be out to lunch on this. Do some research on ghrelin if you're interested.
Father issues. Hmm. I didn't go through what you and Siobhan did, (it was my mother who left at a very vulnerable age) but my father was very distant emotionally, so I did very much crave masculine attention. But at least I didn't have to deal with the security issues.
5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again
More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
- Lewis Mumford