Fibromyalgia and Fat - Tomi's story page 108

[tomi]

Can I count pushing the black triangle of death as a workout activity? They've been busy lately!

no kidding! I hate those things - and sure wish there was a way to keep them out!

[tomi]

I already know he has sleep apnea - but it isn't very bad. Once in a while he'll have a pause in his breathing and I'll nudge him if I'm awake. He sleeps very solid and is always rested. I talked to him about having he sleep study, but our insurance doesn't cover it and he wouldn't use the CPAP anyway - so no point in going there.

I talked to him today about the weight issue. I asked him if he would consider getting back down to 180 so the snoring will ease up. I sent him a text............ haven't got an answer yet. I've noticed that when ever I talk to him about losing weight or making his diet more primal --- he goes hog wild in the other direction! He wants me to make homemade ice cream, he buys the MEGA bags of M&Ms at Costco, he wants me to bake his favorite cookies....... My husband doesn't like being told what he "should" do --- it makes him run in the opposite direction! He'll do the same with rum. I normally go to the liquor store if we want for the weekend...... but if I say I'm not drinking for a while for my weight loss efforts and maybe he should think about not having any too - he'll go to the store himself and get some. He has this thing about being "denied" what he wants -- unless it is totally his own idea. Then he can be very disciplined. He's a strange creature.

[Judg]

Yesterday was a good day on my logs! Calories = 1288 with carbs at 10%, fat at 68% and protein at 22% --- That works perfectly! I've had 3 FULL days of no sugar, grains or alcohol. I'm doing ok with no sweetener in my tea - but I do prefer it with honey. When I get my weight off - I'm adding honey!

You go girl! Keep this up long enough and you'll get used to it and genuinely happy with your new way of eating.

I'd like to know you're opinion on having breast implants once the weight is all gone. I was hoping to keep my womanly frontage - but I can see that it isn't doing to happen. I don't want to be a size A or nearly B again. I've come to enjoy having some cleavage - and of course hubby LOVES it! Is it totally vain for a 52 year old woman to have a boob job? I mean, I wouldn't get crazy and have D cups or anything - but a full B or slight C wouldn't be too bad. If history predicts the future then my future at 135 is going to be an A cup. Misquito bumps. Hubby says he has no problem paying for that kind of thing (duh). So, its something that I need to be thinking about. I've always thought having a boob job outside of reconstructive surgery due to a mastectomy was just totally vain and unnatural.......... but I'm sorta changing my opinion on that one. And I wouldn't want them to look all perky and stuff at my age...... they would need to be sorta naturally sagging. Can they do that?

Hubby is noticing that I'm getting smaller, but no one else has notice yet. I'm down 24 pounds since going primal a year ago - and down 34 pounds from my heaviest. I guess since the 24 pounds have come off over a years time no one really see's the difference. Whatever - the thing is - I'm not doing this for anyone but me (and hubby) so it really doesn't matter much if anyone ever says anything. But, compliments are always nice for the ego! I'm sure someone will notice at some point and then I will have stroking that I would like.

Personally, I'm scared stiff of implants.

We would be happy to stroke your ego IF YOU WOULD EVER GET AROUND TO POSTING SOME PROGRESS PICS! Ahem...

And at the moment that insensitive ass is snoring so loudly that I AGAIN can't sleep. How do I gently tell him that if he would just lose about 25 pounds I'm pretty sure the snoring would nearly go away. When he was at that lighter weight he snored, but it was very soft, and I almost enjoyed it ............. it wasn't the gutteral growl that he has going on now. I nudge him or wake him up enough to get him to stop - and 30 seconds later he's at it again. I hate wearing earplugs - but its all I can do. Tonight I brought pillow and blanket to the couch. I think I will be camping in the livingroom tonight.

Just nudging isn't enough. You've got to get him off his back and onto his side. Mine is pretty well conditioned now to rolling over when I push on his shoulder. And even though he's resisting going genuinely primal, he still has managed to take off about 20 pounds over the last couple of years, so it doesn't seem to be quite as bad as it was.

Congrats again on your Day 4! You can do this!

[tomi]

Friday! I love fridays. Today I don't have to go take care of the mom's but I do have lots of other things to do. Direct TV had to come out this morning and do some repairs to our dish - we were getting that aweful "searching for signal" message everytime it rains! There was something corroded on the incoming connections. All fixed now. This afternoon I have a mammogram, and I have to do some banking and mail some bills, and I need to go to the fabric store and get the rest of the fabric for the 5th wheel re-do. I need 8 yards to make all the side curtains - sheesh! thats a lot of fabric. Hope I can find something on sale. I've already paid bills and prepared the deposit for the boatshop. I've collected some data that I need to send to the company who does our payroll, info for W-2s and some end of year stuff. I've updated Quickbooks and checked on the all bank balances to see exactly where we are financially. (so far so good)! So, I'll take off in a little while to run all my errands before I go get my boobies smashed. I would love to give myself a TREAT for the misery of having to go get a mammogram -- but I'd rather see those days of success add up more than I want some food treat. I know -- I go buy something nice for myself

We should signing next week on the re-fi - a 15 year commitment of a higher mortgage payment....... scary! But - in the end we'll be in good shape to entire into our golden years - and retire with no mortgage payment! Gotta love that.

Weight is holding steady at 182.4. I was hoping to see it easing down a bit - but its being stubborn. I'm still hoping to see anything under 180 on Wednesday. 179.8 would be just fine with me! Its a stretch - but I'm hoping. 2.6 pounds --- I need to walk a lot more - and do some more yoga if I will have any REAL hope of seeing that number. Right now I'm having some glut pain! I was up and down a ladder yesterday cleaning the boat - and now my butt hurts! Both sides, but the right hurts more. I need to do some deep streches and walk!

So........ I was thinking about how long I've been doing this high fat/moderate protein/VLC thing............. I think its been a couple months - maybe 3? I don't know. But I've lost more weight since going high fat than I did when I was eating the other way.

Breakfast today - 4 bacon 2 eggs. Lots of calories - but I think it will hold me until dinner. 400 calories already - and its not even noon. 2/3s of my daily calories are gone for day. That makes me nervous. the other thing that makes me nervous is what hubby and I planned for dinner tonight............. oh dear. there is honey in one part of the dinner. If I have to put 1/4 cup of honey into 1 1/2 cups of other sauces - and I only use about 2 TBs on my own food.......... do I need to count that amount as having sugar today? Its such a SMALL amount! I think I'm going to say that little but of honey doesn't count. Its HONEY - not refined sugar. although my goal is to cut out ALL sugars, and honey is technically sugar. Right? Okay - I'm leaning towards letting this one slide since its such a SMALL amount! but I'm going to take you're opinion into account.......... so what say you all? Count it or don't count it?

If you say count it --- I will just leave it off my dinner cuz I don't to blow my challenge.

Okay here's the menu: Shrimp and crab lettuce wraps. Made with Mango salsa and topped with Sriracha Sauce (Sriracha, mayo, sweet chili sauce and honey) ......... oh boy, I just checked the sweet chili sauce! It has HFCS as the first ingredient --- okay people............... decision made - no sauce for me. I will have to come up with something else or just eat it plain. Plain will be good cuz there will be plenty of sweet in the mango salsa (mango, cilantro, red onion and cucumber - all chopped up!) It will be just fine! There......... I'm under control!

Now time to get going............

[tomi]

You've got to get him off his back and onto his side.

nope..... he snores on his side also! its very frustrating! I don't have a chance....... the only hope is for him to lose weight. He texted back and said "lets just say 25 pounds....." I returned with, "lets shoot for 30 and see what happens at 25" -- he seemed to be okay with that one.

Now...... lets see if he follows through and changes his eating so he can lose weight.

thanks for the encouragement, Judg! I'm feeling like I can do this! And I will see that goal weight by my birthday!

[Judg]

I say count the honey. Just put a different dressing on yours. Honey is primal only in the sense that it's a lesser of evils, and seeing as you're battling with sugar, it would be better for you to be strict with yourself.

Excuse me, are you on a 600 calorie diet? Yikes!

[Pedidoc]

Excuse me, are you on a 600 calorie diet? Yikes!

That was my reaction! That is way too few calories........

[tomi]

??? where are you getting 600 calories? I must have had a typo somewhere. No, I eat 1200-1400 most days sometimes a little more, sometimes a little less. Trust me - I'm not starving myself.

I decided not to have the sauce at all. I ate the shrimp and crab with the mango salsa and it was very refreshing and tasty!

I also decided that I just need a day of not measureing and weighing and counting anything. So, I've eaten totally clean and primal today - but haven't tracked the calories at all. Hope it doesn't bite me in the butt tomorrow. Hubby and son had homemade ice cream (that I made this afternoon) and I was not tempted. I played with the idea of having a piece of cheesecake - but only briefly, and I chose not to.

tomorrow - hubby is going to dad's day at OSU with daughter #2 - but daughter #1 is also going. they are going to the evening football game - so I'm free tomorrow to do what I want - well, after 2:00 pm as thats when he is leaving. I think I will start to work on the rest of the curtains for the 5th wheel - I got the fabric today.

hopefully I will be able to sleep tonight. I might just start off with the earplugs in - that seems to work best.

[Pedidoc]

You were at 400 calories for breakfast and said you were 2/3 done with daily calories. 200x3=600. Glad you are at a more reasonable number. Can't wait to see pictures of all your sewing. Hope you sleep like a baby!

[Judg]

Yup, that's where we got it from.

High fives to you for keeping your eating clean! Keep it up. We're here cheering for you.