Fibromyalgia and Fat - Tomi's story page 104

[jenn26point2]

My cervix does not like the little plastic bristle brushes the doctor uses to collect the cells. It spasms and then I cramp for at least an hour after. Never experienced a mammogram yet... Too young and doctors haven't found anything to be concerned about yet. Both my moms mom and her mom (my grandma and great grandma) had cysts in their breasts. Nothing more serious than that. I imagine it's got to be scary finding any kind of lump. I remember finding a lump in my arm pit at basic training. Turns out it was an inflammed lymph node, but it scared the living hell out of me. I cried continuously until the doctor told me I would be ok. I guess when you go from being a "getting fat" lazy slob to busting your ass constantly at basic training, these things crop up??? It went away and hasn't come back, so I got over it. But it was scary! Good luck to you.

I don't think I'll be tracking my macros. Not sure yet. I didn't measure any of my food for lunch today so I would have no idea where I'm at for today at any rate. Planning a high carb dinner for tonight (chicken scampy with basmati rice) for two reason - to work our way through the copious amounts of rice we have, and to use up the cream I bought yesterday before deciding I would also go dairy free, with the exception of butter. I will probably start dairy free on the 1st as I'll have cream for dinner tonight and for lunch tomorrow.

Anyhow. I'm rambling on your journal. *blush* I hope you're having a great DRY day!

[tomi]

Jenn........ sorry about the spasms - ouch! My first mammogram was at the age of 18. My boyfriend (now my husband) found a small lump. It was deemed to be a fatty tissue and nothing to be concerned about. Since I'm now 51 I've had one every year since I turned 35 - and then sometimes double because something "doesn't look quite right". So far no worries. My dad's sister had breast cancer so that ups my chances by a little. I did have a scare with cervical cancer. Thanks to the ex husband I developed cervical dysplasia (due to the HPV virus that is sexually transmitted - and with my sexual history he was the only possible source). I was fine one year - the next WHAM - severe dysplasia. Doc said she'd never seen anything grow that fast. The really scarey part is that I was going to skip that year - if I had I would have ended up with full blown cervical cancer - and likely would not be here today typing this message to you! I had a cone biopsy to remove the offending cells and I've been fine since. Last test showed that I no longer have the virus - yeah for my bodies ability to fight it off! So, that means I should not have to worry about cervical cancer again.

Women issues........ eeesh.

I have to track or I'm WAY off the grid! I could easily eat 2000 calories a day without batting an eye......... I do love to eat. Tracking helps keep my appetite reeled in and my calories under control. For example -- I came home from work and was feeling hungry-ish. I decided to snack on some almond butter. Normally I will be able to judge about when I have had a serving (32 grams) -- but I wasn't paying attention - and I was really enjoying it. Good thing I weighed the container before I started munching - cuz it turned out I had swallowed 94 grams!!!!! If I hadn't been weighing and measuring I would not have known that I just ate 540 calories --- 18 carbs, 51 fats, and 21 proteins. Its just too easy to go overboard. So, I watch everything that goes in my mouth. Dinner will be nothing but pork tonight.

[tomi]

Thanksgiving is at our house this year....... ugh. So many people. If it were just adult I wouldn't mind too much -- but its also children - misbehaving children. Not terribly awrnry - but the don't listen. "don't run in the house" gets met with a timid look and 30 seconds later they are flying by again! They are adorable children - I just don't want them in my house. They drop food and spill their drinks on the carpet - and the parents are oblivious! And this year - that same family has her sister and 4 children living with them - and I fear they will ALL be coming! Thats 11 people just from that household. UGH! I was going to clean the carpets before the gathering - but I've changed my mind. AFTER the big dinner and gathering I will have a professional carpet cleaning company come and do my entire house. It is in desperate need. I have a Bissle machine that I use - but it isn't the same as the ones that the pro's use. I will call ServPro. It will likely cost $500 to have the whole house done - but it will be worth it. I wish there was some way of getting out of having all those people here though. Okay - just that one family. I love them all enormously --- but the kids are out of control. They constantly ask for food or drink - and then don't finish it - or drop it and leave it where it falls. I'm having so much stress over this! I asked hubby if we could plan the gathering for the same day that they will be going to his mom's for their dinner. He laughed at me - like I was joking. No.......... I'm totally serious about this! I've considered trying to find a room to rent this year. I know another family who has grown to large to have their gatherings at anyones home so they rent a room at a local church. I think I will send out an email and ask for head counts on who is coming this year - at least that way I will know how many I need to plan for. Last year we had 25. if the "extra" people come we will be at 30 this year. My house is NOT THAT BIG! help.............

[Judg]

Perhaps you should try talking to the parents. This isn't the first time this has stressed you out.

[Pedidoc]

We are all getting spammed.

[tomi]

Perhaps you should try talking to the parents. This isn't the first time this has stressed you out.

I know......... I've kinda skirted the issue ............ they are pretty clueless. Their house looks like a bomb containing toys/clothes/food/dog hair and other misc garbage when off inside their house, and they don't seem to mind living that way -- honestly, it wouldn't do any good to try to talk to them cuz their kids have done this since the day they were born. I don't want to insult or hurt them at all --- I'd rather just love them and accept that they are okay with it in their home - but I don't want it in MY home.

Its just ONE day, right? I've survived before - I will survive again. But I'm dreading it......... ugh. Wish it was different so I didn't have to stress over it.

[tomi]

oh boy......... total calories came in at 1635 today - thanks to my almond butter binge. How can that creamy goodness be loaded with so many calories??? My macros look really good though with only 5% carbs! and 71% fat! thanks to the almond butter. Double edged sword there huh? Maybe I should have gone a bit easier on the pork ........ 10 oz. I was hungry. I think I will get out my Tae Bo DVD and see if I can work off some of those calories. Hubby is at bible study tonight and won't be home until 9 - so I have a couple hours to get sweaty and shower off!

okay............ here I go.

[Pedidoc]

Hope the work out went well

[tomi]

I walked 3 miles this morning - and I did 45 minutes of Tae Bo tonight --- I'm tired! But I burned a lot of calories Let hope it pays off on the scale. 179 here I come!

[Judg]

Don't go slipping into the chronic cardio mistake. You'll just make yourself hungrier. The goal isn't to burn off calories, but to ramp up your metabolism and burn off fat.