Oh, I think I just need to start all over again. Sigh, I haven't been on here consistently over the past several months. Am I mad at myself a little bit? Yes, I am. In the mean time, I've put on most of the weight that I had lost. I didn't platteu because I was just doing the same thing, I went back up because I got off track. When I chatted with Gabi about it yesterday she told me I could use this as my new years resolution. I told her I couldn't wait till then. I mean, who knows if I have till then, right? I know I got complacent in my attempts. Then I started to make excuses about sugar. I would just have one little bar of chocolate, then another. Then I thought, "It's dark chocolate, I'll be okay." Then I used the typical woman's excuse when that time of the month came around. Then I started to allow other things. It started to go bad quick after that.
This past weekend I let myself have pizza and cake. Gabi had her 13th birthday party on Friday so I ordered pizza for the kids. Plus, she had a cake that was decorated to look like an iPhone. Really good design. Then she wanted my boyfriend to come to her party since it was his actual birthday when we were celebrating hers (she actually turned 13 yesterday). So, I ordered a few cupcakes for him and then put candles in them. In the meantime we had a whole buch of junk food at the house because it was a movie themed party. However, when she went to her friends house the next night, I made her take all the junk food with her, minus the cake and his cupcakes. Then I got to meet his family on Sunday evening and we had pizza again. I didn't want to be rude, so I ate the pizza whole. The funny thing was that his grandmother scraped all the stuff off of her pizza and only ate the top stuff with no bread. I sort of mentally head slapped myself after that, lol.
This past weekend was the breaking point for me for the most part. I got on the scale yesterday morning and was aggravated with myself for letting this happen. I worked so hard and then just let it all slide. So, I need a do over now. It's not the bread and the grains that usually get me, it's the sugar. Today, I've decided to take it one day at a time. We're having a Thanksgiving lunch thing here at work. I chose to make some stuff that would be a little safer for me to eat. It's not 100% the safest, but it's better than what I knew was going to brought in.
That's it for now on the blog side of this.