My Journey from Sugar Burner to Fat Burner - jenn26point2's Primal Journal page 29

[jenn26point2]

Jenn- you can buy empty little gelatin capsules to make your own salt pills. A compounding pharmacy should have them, or a feed store. Or you can order online. Some health food stores have them, too.

Oh, what a great idea! Thanks, Sabine!!

[jenn26point2]

i am feeling sluggish and exhausted right now. In need of a nap which is way different than how I felt this morning. This morning I was ramped and energized... Why? What changed?

I walked 3.15 miles over lunch, but I don't think that's what made me tired... What I think made me tired was the decision to eat a Mounds bar... Sugar. I was feeling peckish after my walk and needed to break my $20 so I could pay my water club dues, so I stopped at the littel shopette on post. Of course, the only almonds they had were honey roasted... In hindsight, those were the better option, but the PUFAs in that steered me away. Then I saw the mounds... dark chocolate - Primal... coconut - Primal... That's what my mind said... nevermind the sugar content and the soy content. And nevermind that the dark chocolate used in the mounds bar is garbage dark chocolate...

So now what am I doing??? To stay awake, I'm munching on peanuts coated in MSG and corn flour... *sigh*

Dinner will be better. I promise me that it will be.

Now, back to writing the paper that is sending me to snoozeville...

[Judg]

Rejoice! Rejoice! It is incidents like that that strengthen our willpower in the future. Next time you look at a Mounds bar you will say to yourself, "Is it really worth the misery?" and happily walk on by.

But seriously, stock your purse with nuts or something... I swapped out my bag of Scotch mints for home-made trail mix, no peanuts and only a small amount of dried fruit.

I know, I'm being annoying. Sorry. *runs away*

[jenn26point2]

Hi Ho! (and not Ho like "you're such a ho") lol


Wow... logged my calorie consumption for yesterday and somehow I stayed within range... I had to have left something out b/c there is no way I should have remained in range...

Oh well. Today is a new day and the scale was nice. Still reading 209.

It's raining again today. Guess I'll be walking on the treadmill over lunch... Supposed to walk with my sister tonight too, but I wonder if that'll be happening. My mom was supposed to take all 4 of our kids to my uncles house to see the new baby calves, but I bet that doesn't happen with the rain. The farm would be all muddy and the kids would come home filthy.

I told ya this weekend that I reduced my lexapro dosage from 20 mg to 10 mg. Everything was great at first, and then yesterday I was plagued with brain zaps when I was up moving around. They weren't frequent, and they weren't severe, but they were noticable. (For those that don't know, brain zaps are a withdrawal symptom of some antidepressants - for me all antidepressants - and feels like an electrical charge going from your brain, down your face, and into your arms or feet. They're really weird and disorienting). I kind of thought about cycling the meds. 2 days at 10 mg, 1 day at 20 mg to ease the symptoms, but they weren't bad, so I'm going to continue on this track. My doctor won't mind my dosage adjustment b/c I'm not suicidal and I'm not manic. I don't have severe depression or anxiety. Just enough to disrupt my life a bit. She knows I'm chainging my diet in an effort to reduce or eliminate the meds. The army said I'd be on meds for the rest of my life. I intend to prove them wrong. My psychiatrist thinks I may have PTSD but if I do, it's mild because I don't have nightmares, but 90% of my anxiety came after one specific event. But, that event really no longer haunts me. (That event being preparing for deployment with a 3 month old son at home - sent me into manic states of anxiety, irrational thoughts, paranoia and post partum depression - the army ended up kicking me out b/c I couldn't deploy as a result). Since I didn't end up leaving my son afterall, the stress of that time is not that bothersome anymore. Plus life keeps me pretty busy so I don't think about it much.

Since discontinuing the Adderall XR, things have greatly improved. And changing my diet did the rest. My depression is gone. I still have low days (which I call mellow days) where I'm not bubbling with joy and happiness, but they're few and far between anymore. I still have days where I don't want to do something (like go racing) but it's more because I don't want to deal with the cold, deal with dragging 10 tons of shit to the track because it's cold or because I'm taking my kids, or because we just don't have the money that week. But I still go. And I tend to enjoy myself unless my kids are driving me nuts or it's so cold I'm miserable... lol

So, bottom line, the medication reduction is working out nicely and I'm hopeful that eventually I can eliminate them entirely! I'd like to keep the l-methylfolate though... it's a 15 mg (15000 mcg) dosage that is supposed to help with neurotransmitter transmission. But it's a VITAMIN, which is the big thing for me. Something my body needs anyway.

Nothing special planned for today. Just work... booo... it's wednesday so it's a slow day... it's also that middle day of the week that I think sucks b/c it's so far away from the weekend yet... And it's rainy so that just makes it that much worse. it's a good day for napping on the couch with some lifetime tv, I think. Except, I don't watch lifetime, I watch HGTV and DIY. lol

I'm gonna eat my breakfast now. i hope everyone's having a good day.

[Candy in Wonderland]

Lol, it's so strange to read you're going to have breakfast, while I'm preparing dinner

[jenn26point2]

Haha Candy, I agree. Just pretend that I'm going to eat breakfast for dinner!

[jenn26point2]

And it's rainy so that just makes it that much worse. it's a good day for napping on the couch with some lifetime tv, I think. Except, I don't watch lifetime, I watch HGTV and DIY. lol

I has stopped raining and looks brighter outside... but I'd still like to crash on the couch and watch me some YardCrashers on DIY... LOVE that show and want Ahmed to come to my house and crash my yard!! He does amazing work.

[longing2bfit]

Good morning Jenn~those brain zaps do not sound fun at all but I so understand the need and desire to get off all meds. That is what spurred me on in this wol and eating plan!! and it worked for me.. I am pretty much completely med free at leat 99% of the time. The other 1% is mostly OTC pain relievers as needed!! I have not had a prescription in over a year now!! The first time in at least 15 years! Have a great day love!!

[jenn26point2]

Good morning Jenn~those brain zaps do not sound fun at all but I so understand the need and desire to get off all meds. That is what spurred me on in this wol and eating plan!! and it worked for me.. I am pretty much completely med free at leat 99% of the time. The other 1% is mostly OTC pain relievers as needed!! I have not had a prescription in over a year now!! The first time in at least 15 years! Have a great day love!!

I love it when you stop by my journal!

I don't count OTC tylenol and ibuprofen as "taking drugs". Everyone gets a headache once in a while or a sore joint.

The rain has stopped so I'm going to walk to the gym. Will take my umbrella just in case it starts up again while I'm gone, but I don't think it's supposed to. I'm ready for some damn sunshine already!! This is getting old. Glad I take 2000 mg of D3 each day or I'd probably be depressed as hell!

[longing2bfit]

Hey I just read something we have in common~Excess noise!!!! I am exactly like that!! My DH gets quite exasperated with me at times but I cannot help it.. We went to this resturant one time that was so crowded and noisy and as time passed all I could hear was dishes clanging and people talking and I literally had to get up and leave. And OMG you should see me at the movies if everyone around us is eating popcron.. I almost jump out of my skin!!