My Journey from Sugar Burner to Fat Burner - jenn26point2's Primal Journal page 199

[tomi]

Hope all went well with the party!

I have to give you high fives for being honest about how you will handle things and not put undue stress on yourself to be different! Thats a good step in the whole process too - just understanding how you're going to handle things, and being okay with it.

I've got to the point where I can forego the goodies and just enjoy the event without thinking I'm being dreprived. I like that feeling. Now, if I could just transfer that same thinking to having goodies in my home! Its much harder to resist the goodies when they are taunting me from the kitchen counter. UGH! If they aren't in the house I'm good to go - but if they are I'm in trouble!

[jenn26point2]

Sorry I haven't checked in. Wednesday was busy busy with the holiday party, which I think went very well, by the way. A little miffed that my bosses thanked everyone on the committee personally at the party but didn't say anything to me... wth is up with that? I feel more and more every day that I don't belong here.

Yesterday I stayed home b/c of Snowpocalypse 2012 version 2.0 (we had a Snowpocalypse in February as well, so yesterday's is version 2.0). I cleaned my house - well, 3 rooms of 8. I did a LOT of decluttering in the kitchen. Mostly paper clutter. Mail and what not that I never went through. Got all that taken care of and now the house looks great.

Tonight Brad and I are going to finish up our Christmas shopping. We have 1 gift and 3 gift cards to acquire. The 1 gift may end up being a gift card too... who knows.

Food has been shit. And, as a result, I feel like shit. I'll leave it at that.

Saturday: make something for that night's Christmas dinner.
Sunday: Christmas brunch...
Monday: Christmas with my kids, then Christmas with my stepdad's family
Tuesday: Christmas with Brad's parents, then my mom & stepdad, then Mom's family, then my dad...
Wednesday: back to work and starting 21 day sugar detox and VLC/HF plan. It is TIME to get things back on track!!

Anyhow, chances are I won't check in this weekend given the craziness of our schedule. I hope you and yours have a very Merry Christmas!!

Oh, and my heart is heavy given it has been a week since the tragedy in Connecticut. I feel so much pain for the families as they endure their sadness. This time of year will never again be as happy for them as it used to be. Many missed birthdays and Christmases. If it were me, I think you'd find me curled up in my bed for months to come.

[namelesswonder]

Merry Christmas! I got your card yesterday, thank you! I hope mine gets to you without too much of a delay, from the weather.

Stay safe, stay warm.

[Pebbles67]

Merry Christmas Jenn!

[tomi]

I'm happy to hear the Christmas party went well --- but mud pies to the idiots who skipped over you in the credits! Morons!

If its any consolation --- my last to days have been aweful! I gave in to a box of Lorne Dunne cookies. Those are like potato chips - once you start eating them....... before you know it the entire pack it gone. UGH.......... my tummy hurts.

I think I'm angry and punishing myself for not meeting me goal this week. Stupid huh?

Have a great weekend celebrating with your many families!

Christmas hugs!

[Judg]

Glad your party went well, and yeah, I would be wondering about the lack of credits.

I don't expect to be 100% pure over the holidays. What I am going to do is try to keep my cheating very, very small, just enough to feel like I'm celebrating and not enough to get sick. That will probably mean something sweet but wheat-free. So my strategy will be to look around and find out what my cheat is going to be, and pass on everything else. Chances are I will overeat on the good stuff, but I'll just eat less the other days. Not trying to follow rules here, just to be good to myself in ways that won't make me miserable.

This might sound nasty, but if I end up at a meal or a restaurant where there's nothing I can eat, I just won't. And I will cheerfully explain that being fat-adapted means that it is not a great hardship for me. And then I'll watch them squirm.... LOL!

You're plan sounds like a good one. I'm doing it too - but not waiting till after the holidays - I'm starting now. I know if I wait I will eat poorly and will be that much further from meeting my goal by my birthday. I have several gatherings to go to - the first one this Friday at a restaraunt in Portland. Then the family christmas gathering on Sunday. Then a 40th anniversary party on the 28th. There will be tons of food that I won't eat. I just don't focus on the food - I focus on the company January should be fairly quiet, but then theres our annual super bowl party in February - and then we're taking a week of vacation. I figure there is ALWAYS going to be something that involves food that I shouldn't or don't want to eat -- what better time to learn how to deal with it than right now?

My hope is to get through the "gaining season" and actually LOSE weight! That would be totally awesome!

Sounds like an excellent plan, Tomi. And one day soon, you are going to find the key that will help you say no to the stuff at home too. Victories usually come one step at a time and you've already had a few. That will be next.

[jenn26point2]

Ok.... time to regroup... these last few days have been a whirlwind! Yow! We celebrated Christmas 8 times since Saturday. Saturday at 4 pm we had a family dinner. Sunday at 11 am we had a brunch. Monday morning we celebrated with our kids. Monday night we celebrated at 6 with another side of the family. Then Tuesday we celebrated 4 times! FOUR TIMES!! Ugh. Needless to say, my pants don't fit - even on their 4th wearing without washing. I'm hesitant to wash them at this point b/c I'm afraid I'll be absolutely miserable in them...

But, I know that if I get right back on track, they'll fit again in no time flat. So, with the exception of breakfast today, I'll be on track. I was so worn out last night after a whirlwind day that I chose to skip making breakfast and opted for buying breakfast from the cafeteria upstairs. Their oil choices suck! I can taste the bitterness or maybe that's just the yucky after taste or something. It's definitely not a good flavor.

I had already committed to going out for pizza with a gal I went to college with on the 29th, so my 21 day sugar detox will start on the 30th. Brad and I have no plans for New Years - we don't party... sorry - probably won't even stay up til midnight either b/c we'll be knocked out on the couch. So it'll be easy to get through that holiday with no major indiscretions... Unless we opt for pizza for dinner or something, but I'll cross that bridge when we get there.

Brad and I decided to pool our Christmas money and get a handgun for hunting. We have one picked out and the funds raised, now we just have to get a permit to purchase it. Because I'm prior service, I can go to the jail with my discharge paperwork and will be issued a permit to conceal carry, which will work as a purchase permit as well. With any luck, we'll be able to purchase it this weekend. I guess when you go to the jail, you pay the fee for the permit and fill out the paperwork and then they mail the permit to you, so I won't get it immediately. I plan to duck out of work a little early today and stop in to fill out my paperwork. Might even browse the internet for the form and have it filled out and ready to go before I get there. The one we're looking at is nearly identical to the sidearm I fired in the Army, with the exception of being a higher caliber. We're getting a 40 caliber, whereas I fired a 9mm in the Army. The DNR won't allow you to hunt with a 9mm b/c there's a higher chance of injuring the animal and not killing it, which is inhumane, but a 40 caliber is approved for hunting in Iowa, so that's what we're getting. We're tossing about the idea of getting a "finger safe" which is much like a fire proof safe you may have at home, but has a keypad on it for quick access - for those wishing to have a gun for home security. Right now we keep our weapons unloaded and locked in a gun cabinet in our bedroom, but Brad likes the idea of the handgun having dual purposes and is considering keeping it loaded (but not chambered - meaning a bullet ready to fire), whereas I prefer the idea of just keeping a loaded magazine readily available. We have little hands you know... but, that's where the "finger safe" comes in. It's just large enough to hold a handgun and a magazine, but is locked by combination. I guess the idea of having a finger safe next to my bed takes away the sense of security I feel in my home. I feel safe at home, like nothing will harm us there, and having a gun by the bed makes me think our home isn't really as safe as I imagine it to be... but then again, I'd hate to be in a situation where it's not safe and there's no way to protect our children... so I'm torn.

on the other hand, the finger safe would keep the gun completely out of our kids' reach as they would NEVER know the combination so there's very little chance that there could be an accidental shooting, ya know? I don't know... I'm torn by it. We'll probably go ahead and get the safe, but NOT keep it next to the bed. we'll mount it to the wall in the master closet or something - like a safe.

Anyhow... work is super slow and boring today b/c there is NOBODY HERE!! So I imagine I'll be able to easily get caught up with the journals. I hope everyone had a very nice Christmas (or other such holiday) and I look forward to getting caught back up with everyone.

[naiadknight]

The rifles and shotgun are squirreled away for safety and to make it harder for thieves. The Glock .40s (his is the compact version, mine's full size)are kept in two separate places. His is right beside the bed in it's holster, loaded but not chambered. Mine's in my nightstand, unloaded but with the magazine right next to it. With kids, there'll be a gun safe for the larger ones and we'll probably get trigger locks and holster locks for the Glocks. Mine'll probably hide out in the gun safe, his... I'm not sure, we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

[namelesswonder]

You can hunt with a hand gun?! That produces a funny mental image to me. Like a police stake-out for a deer.

[jenn26point2]

we do stake outs anyway. We sit in trees and wait for them to walk up... it's less hunting and more waiting... I think the handgun would be more for a second shot at an animal as we hunt with muzzleloaders which are one shot weapons. It takes a while to reload and if you've missed the animal and have to fire again, you're pretty well screwed - the point is that it's more challenging and encourages you to become a better shot. Handgun would require the animal to be closer (like no further away than 100 yards for accuracy). Additionally, if you're tracking a deer you shot with your rifle and find it, but it's still alive, suffering, getting away, you can use the handgun to bring it down. But, you could also use it as your primary hunting weapon if you wanted.