I'm hoping after I voiced my disappointment that there was no Village Inn coconut cream pie at Thanksgiving that said pie barer will bring a coconut cream pie for Christmas. But, the reason for breaking my whole30 when I am isn't so much so I can enjoy a sweet treat, but because the food in general won't be made to whole30 specifications, so I'll be forced to break the rules or not eat.
So, I was thinking about this last night... I want to make my office mates (bosses, co-worker) some cookies and give them a Christmas card. Except, I already filled out ALL of my christmas cards by signing them "Love, Brad, Jenn, Brady and Makenna Tyler"... do I give my office folk cards that say "Love" us?? Or should I just go buy 4 more Christmas cards and sign "Merry Christmas/Happy Holidays, Brad, Jenn, Brady and Makenna"?
My graduate project is coming to a close I think. Initially I was told there was a problem with Soldiers not doing their jobs as sponsors, but based on the survey answers I'm receiving, our organization is top-notch in regard to sponsorship success. I've gotten a lot of surveys back from new arriving Soldiers stating that this is the best sponsorship program they've seen or that their sponsor here was the best they've ever had. I think I'll be bringing my research to a close in the next few days, I'll had over the survey responses to the personnel office and wash my hands of it. No major changes needed as there are no problems according to the soldiers. I have gotten a lot of feedback for ways to improve, but they're minor improvements that can be easily made. I'm shocked, really... oh well. I'll still pass the class.
Which reminds me... I still have a paper to complete - which is where the REAL grade comes in... it's not so much about how the project went, whether my project was a success or whether my employer took my suggestions... it's about me doing a project and learning about myself and then writing about my learning... *eyeroll* I'm so ready to be done... 1 paper, 1 ten-minute powerpoint presentation and a semester to go!! lol
Hummm.......... does your relationship with the office staff warrant a "love" on the signature? I would probably say buy a little inexpensive box of cards and sign them with the standard "happy..........." they normally come in 8-16 in the box so if there is a variety you can save the others for next year, or give them to your hair dresser, or postman, or whoever you wouldn't want to say "love" to. Brads co-workers?
YAY on the end of the school project!!!! So, how much school do have left before getting your graduate degree?
The holidays seem like a good time for love, even if you wouldn't be saying "I love you" to your officemates. Do whatever makes you more comfortable.
I keep forgetting you're doing school still on top of everything else. Wonder woman!
Journal on depression/anxiety
Currently trying to figure out WTF to eat (for IBS-C).
Tomi, I have 2 classes left after this class is complete. One of those two classes is my thesis. It's a 16 week class (standard semester length). The other is called Strategic Planning and I hear it entails a 30 page paper - which coincidentally is also the length that my thesis is supposed to be... I'm NOT looking forward to the first 8 weeks of next semester...
Can i just say this paper is kicking my ass?? It's one of those "assess your learning for this period" papers... UGH. I hate bullshit papers. I'd rather write about what I discovered while analyzing my research project... Not how I developed as a "leader". *sigh* Almost done... almost done...
I feel your pain. Touchy feely stuff. All carbs, no meat.
As for the cards, I agree with NW. Do what you're comfortable with. I mean, with the whole family's names in there, they aren't going be getting funny ideas.
5'2", 55 years, Primal since April. Pre-Primal weight loss, from 216.6 to 157.8
Primal low: 140.2 (Dec. 3) Goal weight: 135?
Main Primal goal: beating back my CFS enough to function more normally and start writing again
More and more, our life has been governed by specialists, who know too little of what lies outside their province to be able to know enough about what takes place within it.
- Lewis Mumford
So last night I was pretty upset about something that was far away from me in regard to personal involvement. There are two girls who have been missing from Iowa since July 13. No one has had any leads on where they might have gone, who might have taken them, etc. Yesterday, some hunters found the bodies of two young people in the woods. It's really bothersome to me for two reason. 1. I have kids. and 2. I lived in that area during between 1998 and 2002 while I was attending college. The town was really close to where I went to college so we would sometimes end up there for food or haunted housing, etc. I'd been following this story from the beginning and while I don't know the girls or their families, I have been hoping for their safe return.
Yesterday when Brad called me to tell me the girls were potentially found, at first I was relieved for the families to finally get closure on what happened to their daughters. Then I was very sad for them because they'll never get to see their little girls alive again. You know they likely bought Christmas presents for the girls in hopes that they would be returned in time for the holidays. I cried when I found this thought. This is not what Christmas is about! It's not supposed to be a time of sorrow and mourning! It's supposed to be a time to rejoicing the wonderful things in our lives and someone took that away from them! Then I got angry b/c some sick bastard has been walking around since July after having taken these girls and plotting their death, all the while living as if nothing he (or she) was doing was wrong.
I had hoped beyond comprehension that they would bust into a house and find these girls inside, alive and well. What I fear is that the person who did this lives close to the grandmother, was possibly a friend or acquaintance of the grandmother (the girls were in the grandmother's care when they were taken), like a neighbor a few doors down or something. And if that's the case, then I'll be pissed that the police didn't sweep every single house in town! Any right minded person would willingly open their doors to allow the police to check if children are missing. I would, anyway. Anything to help out with the search.
Of course, the police department is under scrutiny b/c they didn't file an Amber Alert right away (initially they thought the girls had drown in the lake b/c they found their bikes on the bike path next to the lake), so no Amber Alert was given (besides, since there are no witnesses of their disappearance, they had no vehicle description or anything else to broadcast at the time).
The police haven't disclosed where the bodies were found - just saying a "wooded area", but it was in the same county they were abducted from, so likely they were found not far from home.
I'm so terribly saddened for the families. I can't even imagine what they are feeling right now. I can speculate about how I would feel if it was me, but I'm sure that's no where near what it would actually feel like. This is where my anxiety comes into play. I tend to put myself in other people's shoes when bad things happen and it makes me scare that the same thing could happen to our family. When that happens, I try to remember that instead of trying to feel their sorrow, I should be counting the blessings I have. My children are healthy. They're safe. They're loved by everyone around them. But even through all that, I'm hesitant to let my kids play outside without me there to watch... Because kids can get snatched way too quickly.
WARNING: Agnostic/Athiest views follow
I posted something on facebook about how I feel terrible for the family, blah, blah, blah, and someone posted that they're praying the family gets the closure it needs, and I just wanted to ask them Where was your God when you were praying for their safe return?? Where was your God when this person made the choice to snatch those girls?? Where was your God when these girls were being murdered? If God is all powerful, then he should be able to overpower all the evil in this world, for believers and non-believers alike. If we are all truly God's children, this kind of stuff wouldn't happen. What kind of Father would allow his children to be kidnapped, sexually assaulted (this didn't happen to the girls - as far as I know), tortured, tormented, and murdered??? You can't tell me that this is God's Plan b/c if it is, then God is just as evil to allow evil doings to take place. This is exactly the type of shit that happens in this world that makes me firmly believe there is no God. There can't be.
I'm sorry if I offend anyone with those statements. I don't usually talk religion b/c I don't agree with it. I know that Christians, and other religions, have a way of justifying terribly heinous events, but I don't buy it b/c that would mean our Protector, the most powerful being in the universe, fails all too often.
Jenn - I'm so sorry you are struggling with this. It is terrible that there are sick, psychotic people who would intentionally do harm to others, and its especially bad when they harm children. But, God is not to blame. He created us with FREE WILL. The will to choose right or wrong - and we are responsible for the consequenses of our choices. God's way is always good and perfect - but man can choose His way, or the way of the evil in the world. Most unbelievers I have talked to base their feelings on this very subject. If there is a God - why is there evil in the world? And why do bad things happen? Many believers also struggle with these questions - especially when the bad things hit home or close to home.
I find it interesting though that when bad things happen many unbelievers wrestle with this topic............ Is there a God who would allow these evil things to happen? And then I wonder ---- IF they truly DO NOT believe in any kind of God - why does this question keep coming up?
My answer is that we all need to believe in something. Something bigger and more powerful than us. So, when we are trying to make sense out of these horrible events......... we try to find something to blame. We try to figure out why something in the universe didn't step in and stop this from happening.
I believe in God. And I believe that there are times when He does intercede and stop bad things from happening. I don't know why He doesn't do it ALL the time. But, I still believe in Him. Thats faith.
When I was younger I was trying to concieve. After 2 years of trying the doctor put me on clomid. I concieved twins after the first dose. I was so excited because I had always hoped to have twins. At 21 weeks I went into labor.......... my babies died. I gave birth to 2 tiny little perfect babies and they died. My cervix was too weak to carry the weight of twins, so that doctor concluded. I didn't blame God for it. We live in a fallen world - with imperfect and frail bodies - with imperfect and frail minds that sometimes decide to do really aweful things. God gave us all the good in the world......... The evil comes from our having free will to choose.
I don't expect any of this to change the course of your thinking on the subject......... but I wanted to share my thoughts.
I hear your argument about God and will accept your argument as logical in theory. I just still have a really hard time believing. My analytical brain makes it very difficult to believe in something that can't be proven or disproven, ya know?