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    I think I'm in "give up" mode... I just don't feel like anything I do today is going to amount to anything positive, so why bother?

    And I realized I failed to let my dogs out this morning... I don't know the last time they've been out... I feel so badly for them. Normally they prance around and bounce by the door. They didn't do that this morning and I'm used to Brad letting them out about 5, so there's no need for them to go out at 6:30 (and usually when I let them out, they do nothing but cause trouble) so I'm not in the habit of letting them out in the mornings. And since they weren't prancing, I didn't think about it. Now they're probably dying to pee. Poor dogs.

    Feeling pretty inadequate today... shit, I can't even remember to let my dogs out...
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    I'm inclined to wonder how things are going for you lately. You are having trouble beating the sugar demon, but I can't recall how you've been eating aside from that. How's supp intake? What's the weather been like (overcast? getting enough Vit D?)? How's sleep?

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    Sleep has been about the same as usual... last two nights were great b/c the kids slept all night long, so I was able to sleep all night long. Last night, Brad left for work at 1, son woke up at 2, daughter woke up at 4 and alarm went off at 6.

    Aside from the sugar, everything has been pretty primal... no gluten to speak of. Just Dove dark chocolate, "just add water" vending machine cappuccino. If I recall, last night I didn't have any sugar at home - just summer sausage b/c I was ravenous.

    Supplements are the same as usual. Might bump the Vit D up another 5,000 mg to 15,000 per day. Currently taking 10,000.

    I think sugar is the biggest issue with my mood. But, I'm at a point so low right now that I don't even care to fight off the sugar anymore. I make the decision to stop consuming sugar when I'm at a high point in the day, but once that low point hits, I say fukitall and partake in the sugar.

    Might not be getting enough fat... that's probably a large part of it too. That and sugar. Fat and sugar. Too much sugar, not enough fat...
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    Don't like to see you down like this, Jenn. Would it be foolish to tell your boss that you've finished all your work for the day and you'd be happy to do some of his (her?) work for her? Any way to initiate a project on your own? Declutter the filing drawers? There has to be something around there you could improve. I sort of know how you feel. Office jobs bore me stiff if I'm not creating something. Not that I have a lot of experience there, but as a student I had a part-time office assistant job. After I had created the filing system from scratch (former head just threw everything in a drawer), graphed all the budget files, and got everything in order, I got bored filling in my own forms and just keeping graphs up-to-date (this was pre-computer, you understand) and I quit. I was replaced with a real secretary who apparently took five hours to do what I would do in one.
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    I think part of the problem is that I, too, work too quickly. I've been told time and time again that I get stuff done too fast and need to slow down to extend the work a bit... I was told this at my first "real" army job. I don't know if it's because that project was honestly supposed to take me longer or if the boss just couldn't keep up with me.

    Asking my boss to help with her work is a no-go. She's a decision maker. A BIG decision maker... like affecting how the Army operates sized decisions. I am not qualified to do her work... Nor am I qualified to do any of the Colonel's work b/c he makes bigger decisions than she does.

    Literally, my job is to answer the phones and take messages. Update the calendar when someone wants an appointment, print the calendars daily for the bosses, and man the office when they are gone to greet visitors. I am grossly overskilled for this job. And it drives me nuts b/c there's really no way to "excell" at it. I mean, how do you excell at greeting people who come in the door, or excell at answering the phone? No bonus potential if you cannot excell...

    I need an analyst job... that's what I was doing when I came onto post. But, I was working for a contractor with no guarantee of having a job for longer than a year, so I took an admin job b/c it was permanent and I won't have to worry about being let go because the contract wasn't renewed - which is set to happen this very next year (my female boss is one of those who makes the decision to contract with the other companies, thus affecting how the army works and how much money they spend). My only hope is that when the contract goes away, a couple of analyst positions open up to replace the contract employees so I can put in for them. I am not content with this job. It's not challenging enough, it's not filled with enough time consuming tasks, and it always looks like I'm effing around b/c I don't have any actual work to do to keep myself busy.

    To answer the question about filing - the only paper filing we do in this office is personnel records - for 5 people... they only need updated once a year to insert their annual evaluation... everything else is electronic. Paperless Army, you know...

    My sponsorship project is on hold b/c the gal I need to talk to at the Sponsorship Program office is on leave until Wednesday... And there is nothing to do/coordinate for the party... *sigh*

    I'm bored. And I suck as a secretary b/c of it... There's too much work for one person in this office, but not enough for two... Even the other guy in the office asked me yesterday what he's supposed to be doing b/c he was sitting there bored too... maybe there's a TON of stuff to do and neither of us are educated enough for these particular jobs to know what those tasks are... or, maybe there's REALLY nothing to do...

    Oh, and I called my neighbor who let my dogs out. I don't have to feel badly for them anymore. And they behaved for her, which is nice. I really appreciate my neighbors. They're good people.
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    Create something to do? Some sort of phone log, visitor's log, something that requires transcription from handwritten to computerized and filling in the blanks.
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    I am up to 190 today... with that...

    I have decided I am doing a Whole30 starting November 25. It will last until December 21, with December 22 being opened up for whatever holiday meal items I wish to partake in (that is the "usual" day of our first Christmas dinner).

    It is with great hope that I plan to lose 20 lbs like I did with previous Whole30 attempts, but if not, at least 10 lbs. I will be going onto Vitacost's website today and using my $10 voucher for signing up to purchase ghee. Tasha, start looking for your $10 voucher for recruiting me!! (Yes, I still have not placed my first order... so none of the vouchers you have received recently have come from me... I sowwie).

    Off I go to Vitacost!! See you soon.
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    No worries

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    It turns out I may have waited too long to use my $10 coupon... asking Vitacost if they would issue me a new one. I didn't realize it had an expiration date... guess I should have used it sooner... oops. I guess if nothing else, I could order the supplements we're out of to boost our total and at least get free shipping...
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