My Journey from Sugar Burner to Fat Burner - jenn26point2's Primal Journal page 128

[namelesswonder]

Anyhow, sorry to download on everyone, but sometimes you have to dump the load and go through it to see if it's worth carrying around anymore...

No need to apologize, and you are exactly right.

[Sabine]

That's what your journal, and friends, are for. Just getting it out makes it better, I think.

[naiadknight]

Pfft. If you can't air it here, and let it out, then what good is the journal? As Tasha told me, "It's not audacious to bitch. You are entitled to whine. Anyone who tells you otherwise can take a long walk off a short cliff."

[namelesswonder]

Hehe

I griped at Boyfriend before I posted that on FB because calling a cliff "short" confused me (made me think of height, not length).

[naiadknight]

I always heard it as a "long walk off a short pier."

[jenn26point2]

I had forgotten about that saying "Long walk off a short cliff"... love it. Sometimes it just feels like I've always got something to complain about... My journal is so little about my Primal Journey and more like a public diary of my private life... but I am not a very private person so I tend to talk a lot... It's more like a "My life for your viewing" kind of journal.

[jenn26point2]

After some considerable thinking recently, I think... no, I KNOW, I need to work on my leptin output. I am at a point now where I don't eat just to eat, for the most part unless there is some tantilizing (sp??) little food number beckoning to me and the occasional handful of almonds. After reading the chapter on Leptin in Primal Body Primal Mind, I am convinced that leptin is the start of the whole hormone response mechanism within our bodies and all things that are right or wrong can be linked back to either a right or wrong leptin output. And, having a wonky leptin response can cause depression and anxiety, both of which I still suffer from, but not to the point of needing medication anymore. I need to keep reading in PBPM to see what her solution is to the leptin issue, but I think it's pretty much eating a diet that elicits very little insulin response. I'll check out Dr. Kruse's site again and see what he says even though I find his site to be VERY difficult to navigate...

But, basically, I'll keep doing what I've been doing - low carb, high fat, moderate protein per the reading I've done so far... only thing I'm concerned about is the running. Right now it qualifies as sprinting, but once I venture up past 20 minutes 3x per week, it'll border on what PBPM classifies as too much cardio. A 30 minute 5k might be ok, but eventually I am going to want to do another half marathon and possibly even a marathon. I guess I'll have to make the decision based on how my body feels. And hopefully some more weight loss will occur. I'm back up to 189 after my sinful weekend!

Off to do some reading while I sit around and wait for the new General to come to our office for a "tour" and staff visit. It's only oh so fitting that I'm wearing freaking runners today for shoes. Too danged cold to slip into my fast flats. Maybe if I can stay behind my desk he'll not notice??? lol

[jenn26point2]

Just learned there are 14 weeks left til the end of the year. That means I can use the next 12 weeks to go into ketosis, which would help fix my leptin and help me lose weight, allowing for some freedom over the last two weeks. I could theoretically lose 12 lbs in that time... starting the new year at 172 would be awesome.

Of course, I'd have to work hard to keep my brain fixated on the whole ketosis thing. I just learned that ketosis depends on a steady carb consumption, not overall daily consumption. For instance, you can't not eat carbs all day, then slam your body with carbs at dinner time and expect to stay in ketosis. Waiting to learn what the magic meal number for total carbs is. Dr. Kruse says to keep carb counts below 50gm per meal or no grams at all. I can do no grams at all for breakfast and I can skip lunch... but, dinner there are usually some carbs. How much is too much to remain in ketosis is my question.

Anyhow, all that to say that I'm working on a plan for the next 12 weeks. Probably pretty close to Whole30 the whole time. It'll end just in time to have coconut cream pie (sans crust) at Christmas!

[Judg]

I'll be watching. I could learn something good.

[jenn26point2]

Since Primal already calls for no bad oils and no wheat, pulling all sugar and dairy pretty much puts me into a Whole30 status. The no starches to stay low carb and live in ketosis is going to be the toughest, but this last week I learned that white potatoes just opens the doors to too many non-primal goodies. I am getting better about skipping the sugary treats. I no longer have that nagging longing and guilt when I pass up a cookie and THAT.IS.SO.LIBERATING!! I used to be a slave to the cookies. If I saw one or smelled one, I HAD to have one or it would continue to nag at my brain. I think I'm finally at a point now where that's not happening anymore so I can probably easily move forward with my no sugar thing.

Again, the hardest will be remaining low carb, but as long as I stay away from white potatoes, I should be ok. Theoretically... Good thing I love eggs!!

I think I'll even order Mark's new 90 day journal. idk on that yet. Not sure it's necessary. My primary concern is getting my leptin in check and having cortisol take its rightful place once that happens. Dr. Kruse says it could take 6-8 weeks for a person to notice a change in cravings and hunger. I think I'm already on the path to that b/c my cravings have diminished significantly and my hunger seems to come at two times in the day, and goes away if I ignore it. He says to stick with 3 meals per day until hunger starts to fade, but I can already go until 4 before getting hungry again after breakfast (longer if I don't work out).

I think maybe my biggest obstacle will be the sleep portion. Making sure I'm in bed at a decent time, and making sure there's a long enough gap between my last meal and bed. Kalli from her Leptin Reset Journal suggested I not eat after 4 pm, but that I don't see as overly doable considering I have kids to feed who tend not to eat if they see I'm not eating. We'll see if I can make that one work. I'm hesitant though b/c I want to start incorporating dinner at the dining room table as a family. Of course, certain things take priority and family time is one of them. I believe Kalli also goes to bed at 8 or 8:30 pm, so 4 would be a logical time for her to stop eating. 9:00 is likely the earliest I could be in bed each non-school night. 9:30 is probably more likely.

Definitely have some things to work out, but getting started today.

B: 3 eggs cooked in bacon grease, 3 strips bacon
L: nada
D: leftover ribeye steak, broccoli, cauliflower, carrot medley thing with 1 tbsp kerrygold

Short class meeting tonight so I can get away with eating dinner at 4 and not messing with the kids as their dad will be home eating with them. I believe they're having tacos or homemade pizza (pizza only if DS got the appropriate behavior color at school). Tacos would be ok for my plans, though.

Oh shoot... how can I go dairy free if I'm eating Kerrygold??? hmmmm... I don't want to give up the most delicious butter I have ever tasted, so that might have to be my one dairy thing.