I came here to brainstorm.
I'm very conflicted.
Lately I've given up on actual weight loss and came to terms with what I really want/ need, which is health.
I naturally opt for VLC because it worked so well in the past, it's fast (cutting vegetables, AAAARGH) and it's tasty (vegetables, pee-ew). Plus, I think I'm addicted to that low carb high, that I didn't realize was a common aspect of VLC.
But I really think it contributes to me being carb sensitive on the occasion that I do slip up and a reverse affect ensues. I get bloated easily, I get freaked out. I give up.
I think last summer really scarred me. I was close to my ideal weight but because I was fasting consistently and eating VVLC, that week at NC for vacation really screwed me over. It made me want to give up, because I realized, to my great horror, that the "now" doesn't really matter. It's so elusive and it can slip through my fingers at any moment.
And that I will never have the thing that I didn't realize I wanted more than that number-- peace of mind.
Peace of mind that I'm okay, that I don't need to work hard anymore. I don't want to be obsessing with becoming and remaining thin. It's so stressful and time consuming.
So I looked back to the time I felt really good. That was the beginning of my Primal journey.
I actually had some energy, my skin was getting better, my eyes were this clear colour of blue, my body composition was great. But my weight loss was zero.
It's come to this. I must make a choice. Being thin or being healthy.
The thing is I'm very impatient. It's possible that weight loss would eventually happen, it just won't be that 1+ a week that I was so accustomed to when I was fasting and eating VLC.
I voiced this fear over and over again. I was so carb phobic that I was afraid of eating watermelon! (aka the food of the Gods)
I was afraid that once I go into maintenance mode I would gain it all back from eating higher carbs than my regular 20g.
Was that just an irrational fear?
So that's my dilemma. But I think I already made up my mind. What's left is to choose my methods: logging my food (which could lead to obsessive behavior, as it usually does) or just forget about anything and eat until I'm full.
If I don't log I might be eating too much and overcarbing. I mean, I can down half a watermelon and be under the impression I'm still Primal ;/
I think I will eat with worrying about how much and what, but still log it in to keep track of how I feel on a given day.
So, this month I somehow managed not to eat gluten without really trying. Because I wasn't constantly forbidding myself from having it I ended up not wanting it. I did have some icecream, and a lot of cream though, but that was infrequent.
Weight loss stalled since three months ago. I measure myself, but not losing nay inches either.
For a while I lost my appetite and I ate under 1200 cals. Some days I didn't eat at all.
The transition between SAD again to Paleo-ish was difficult, I guess.
But when I slip up I just get back on the horse the next meal. I consider it progress.
Cravings subsided pretty quickly. I notice that if I eat a lot of garlic it helps (?!) I just get thirsty but I don't feel the need to eat sugar.
I'm still on the fence about dairy. I've fallen in love with drinking cream, and I can't get up! ;D
Since I discovered lactose free whipping cream I've been drinking it like a newborn baby drinks milk (sans the milk bottle).
My supermarket adopted a strange love of coconut milk lately. (Could I have single-handedly caused this? I seem to be the only one who opts for coconut milk/ icecream over soy.)
We now have coconut yogurt, coconut milk in a carton with added vitamin D and an array of coconut icecreams.
Yay! Plus I've gotten curious about making curries but know nothing about it.
Also, thanks to marathoning MasterChef Australia (those Aussies take MasterChef seriously, yo!) I've started cooking a lot more. I'm really curious about making things and realized that with vast knowledge of basic cooking I can easily modify stuff I love into Primal stuff.
My favourite thing in the world is panna cotta. I think I'm gonna make it today! Wish me luck!