Yeah...hang in there, NoSalad. I took a quick hiatus from this forum, but have quickly caught up with your journal and it is hilarious! By far the best PB journal I have read.
When every other thing in your life may seem beyond your control, embrace the fact that you can control your diet and health. Try getting out for a walk or quick jog. I know it will feel like pulling teeth to get out the door and moving, but I'm sure you'll feel better after.