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    Can't sleep again.

    I got this workout video called "Girls of Envy". It is as dumb as it sounds. I'm not sure if the girls ever worked out before or they're just fitness models (the kind that graces the covers of Maxim and Playboy rather than Women's Health...), they don't seem to be breaking a sweat at all during the workouts. I've only seen one weight being used (for both hands!), so I don't know... But there's no cardio... And the girls are so pretty Y_Y

    There's one, she has the perfect body and she's so pretty...! *suicides*

    Augh! Life is unfair! Why even bother? You're either born perfect (http://www.modelmayhem.com/portfolio/pic/6546519) or you're born... me (and then go down hill from there)!

    I'm looking at my stretch marks and all the scars and it makes me sad, because even if I was to miraculously look like these girls I'd always have these ugly scars! I'd never have perfect, flawless skin... it's just too late!
    I wish I could go back to 16 and actually know how to take care of myself...(or at least not be so shallow...)

    Like what are the odds that she was once 150lbs?... Or that she actually watches what she eats?... There are so many girls who remain skinny for like, ever, eating crap (I know quite a few)! They have perfect bodies and perfect skin and yet they become porn stars/ "fitness" models... If I looked like that I'd do whatever the hell I wanted, focusing on intellectual pursuits instead of posing for some Girls Gone Wild video!
    But now, and yes I know how it sounds but you wouldn't understand unless you're a slightly OCD 21yo girl, all I care is how I look... and I can't even get past the second step!
    I start... but I never finish, because I'm so discouraged. Why bother? I'll never be perfect :/ And if I can't get there, there's no point in doing well in school, no point in going outside at all, no point in learning guitar... no point in trying to pursue anything at all... because I don't feel like I'm myself, just a burned out version.

    I can only explain it with Maslow's hierarchy of needs.. only mine is backwards! Self-actualization is more important than any other aspect, and without achieving it I can't go further. But at the same time, it's already too late... :/

    Augh, I know, I know... Useless whining... I'm trying to ignore the mirror and everything but there's an especially unforgiving one at the bathroom Y_Y Freaks me out.

    And I'm not throwing a pity party, I'm just venting in a very cynical, calculated voice (not the boo-hoo, I'm crying as I type voice).
    I just don't know where to draw motivation from... These perfect skinny models who just make me feel worse? Who else?... Everyone just makes me feel worse :/

    Why am I doing this? Who am I doing this for...? :/

    toodles... for now.
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    Quote Originally Posted by NoSaladWithoutMeat View Post
    I'm looking at my stretch marks and all the scars and it makes me sad, because even if I was to miraculously look like these girls I'd always have these ugly scars! I'd never have perfect, flawless skin... it's just too late!
    I wish I could go back to 16 and actually know how to take care of myself...(or at least not be so shallow...)
    i think the first thing we're gonna do when we're all in a room together is compare body scars.

    Quote Originally Posted by NoSaladWithoutMeat View Post
    Like what are the odds that she was once 150lbs?... Or that she actually watches what she eats?... There are so many girls who remain skinny for like, ever, eating crap (I know quite a few)! They have perfect bodies and perfect skin and yet they become porn stars/ "fitness" models... If I looked like that I'd do whatever the hell I wanted, focusing on intellectual pursuits instead of posing for some Girls Gone Wild video!
    But now, and yes I know how it sounds but you wouldn't understand unless you're a slightly OCD 21yo girl, all I care is how I look... and I can't even get past the second step!
    I start... but I never finish, because I'm so discouraged. Why bother? I'll never be perfect :/ And if I can't get there, there's no point in doing well in school, no point in going outside at all, no point in learning guitar... no point in trying to pursue anything at all... because I don't feel like I'm myself, just a burned out version.
    the things that are most perfect to me have flaws. who wants to stare at a blank canvas? that's boring. i've got stretch marks and loose skin from my c-section and acne scars and scars from skateboarding/rollerblading/cycling/climbing trees/being drunk and they all mean that i've actually lived instead of spending my life trying to protect myself.

    and you're going to have this secret sub basement with walls full of endless shelves stacked with exercise videos.

    never give up the foodz! and i'll see you in an hour. wear spandex. huh huh huh.


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    Perfect hair, Perfect skin, Perfect body, whatever.

    It is all an Illusion, the pictures are air brushed, in the videos they wear a ton of makeup and edit out any unflattering footage. Ever watched that America's next top model show? Check out the girls without makeup, they do not have perfect skin, and the bodies? Stick figures of skin and bones? And we call that attractive?

    No thanks, I'll take a real woman any day, flawed skin, flawed hair, flawed body, but if she smiles when I walk in the room, that is what matters. I think I have said this before, but one more time.

    Strive for healthy, because all people, all around the world, in every culture, find healthy attractive in both men and women.

    There is no such thing as Perfect, you can't become something that does not exist, but you can be healthy and you are already taking steps to do so. I really believe there is a link between physical and mental health, if you do the work of becoming physically healthy, you start accepting your body and grow in confidence. As that happens you'll become less critical of yourself, trust me, do the work of getting as healthy as you can be and then see how you feel about your body.

    MIY is full of confidence, channel that when you look in the mirror. I have seen your picture somewhere way back in your journal, which reminds me you should post a new one, everyone here believes in you, so channel some of that too, and know that all of the guys around here wouldn't be upset if you smiled when they walk into the room.

    <3 Kev

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    Chica,
    You wanna know how they make those "beautiful people"? Watch a video on youtube where this average to bad lookng chick cakes on the makeup and becomes gorgeous. Watch the Dove commercials with the makeup and photoshopping.
    There's a story I read somewhere that I'm going to repeat for you. It's from one of the chicken soup books. Not a quote but the general gist.
    This major beauty company was holding a write in contest about the most beautiful woman in the world. They had people from all over sending in stories about their sister, aunt, friend and photos to complement them. Most were, in fact, quite gorgeous. But there was one story that made it to the CEO's office that really stood out.
    "My mama is the most beautiful woman in the world. She adopted me off the streets when I was really little and spends time playing with me and teaching me things. I am a little slow, but she doesn't care, she says that everyone needs a chance. She doesn't have much money, but my clothes are always clean, I always have food, and I am in school. Mister, she may not be pretty to you, but to me, she's the most beautiful woman in the world."
    The CEO pulls the attached photo from behind the letter and sees a toothless old woman sitting in a wheelchair, smiling this huge grin. You could feel the love radiating from the photo. The CEO looks at it and goes "We can't use this. If we were to use this story, it would show the world that no one needs our products. She's beautiful already."
    Beauty comes from the inside, both in the form of what you eat and your personality.
    Chica, I've got battle wounds from so many things- some self inflicted, others not- that I'm not in the running for most gorgeous woman. Nowhere near it. But each of my scars tells a story. Some sad, some short, some long and involved, but all stories and memories that serve a purpose: to remind me of my past so I don't fuck up my future, or to prove my clumsiness. I'm sure yours are the same way.
    "No fate but what we make"- Sarah Connor, Terminator 2
    Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, steak in one hand, chocolate in the other, yelling "Holy F***, What a Ride!"
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    scars are cool

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    ooooh, model mayhem. i have friends who turn tricks....er... get "modelling work" over there...

    ...no seriously Meatball, I have a friend who is a ballerina, aside from being small in the chest she's got a body that alot of girls would die for. some do. the thing that none of our envious friends realize about her though, is that she's a wreck, she basically works out 8-10 hours a day, and has since she was very young. the latest is that her ribs have started to just pop in, and out of place randomly. Her "perfect body" is a disaster, and she's going to be done by 35 at the VERY latest. She loves dancing, so that's why she's done this, no one would put themselves through what she does without that sort of obsession. Same with the professional fitness models (like my ex). They spend their time working out, practicing, dancing etc.

    No use worrying about what ain't gonna happen, what you didn't do, what you're not going to be. You can maximize who you're going to become though.

    I've still got 65lbs. to lose, and have decided that as long as the gut goes away, I don't give a crap about the cellulite on my ass, or thighs, or back. It's a thin layer over very functional muscle (you could probably break a baseball bat on my ass.) I do however want big ass shoulders, and arms because... HUGE. But no, seriously once the gut is gone I'm happy. The stretch marks, scars, bad skin, and the rest are just there... like the bacon grease burns from cooking nakkid.

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    Quote Originally Posted by NoSaladWithoutMeat View Post
    Why am I doing this? Who am I doing this for...? :/
    do it for the girl in the mirror, 1 yr from now. that's the only one that matters.
    Even if you fall flat on your face, at least you're moving forward!

    Yr 42

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    start. stop. start.stop...now ramping up to cruising speed!

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    I shan't quote your whole post Meaty but I think I must apologise - our brainwaves have clearly crossed paths these last few days and you've picked up my junk very sorry about that.

    Seriously though, I hate "inspirational" things because then all I think is wow, so now I'm fat, lazy AND an inferior human being. Ditto with models, adverts, videos.... I think I've mentioned before that when I'm stuck into farm life I'm not bothered, but if I emerge into urban civilisation I feel worse than ever before.

    I ordered a couple of books recently, wasn't sure what to expect but I got the (apparent) classic http://www.amazon.co.uk/Fat-Feminist...tt_at_ep_dpi_1 I thought it would be more descriptive and less "self help"-y. But the sef helpy is probably what I need. Of the first chapter or so that I've read, I very much disagree with one concept (mother / daughter relationship) but there is another really resonating with me (who will I be if not fat??). Maybe you should give it a look? Like I say, I've not read it all yet (it only arrived yeserday!) but it seems to work on the basis of compulsive overeating - conscious or unconscious - and that is what I class all my "falling off the wagon" epsodes as.

    As for your last questions - I hope you're doing this for YOU. But, do you think you *deserve* it? Think about it. That's one of the reasons for my own self-sabotage.

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    Meatie,

    I just wish you could see, for just a moment, the beautiful woman we see when we look at you...
    That is all.

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